3.25.2003
war, war go away... come back on another day (okay, not really. just go away)
i really can't escape all the media about the war. at our house, it seems to be one of the major things we talk about. and it's all andy will watch on tv... except of course at night when he has to watch his "adult swim" cartoons. but anyway, whenever andy is home, he watches the news channels... and today, he even was watching one news channel, while he had the 'picture in picture' on a different news channel, just in case he missed something. and then, andy's sister started talking to me online and was basically like "it's some scary stuff on the news, huh?" and i told her all andy does is watch the news and she said she does the same thing. i'm almost positive that andy watches it because deep down (not too deep down because he's obviously admitted this to me) he wants to be there. i'm sure most people who read this are like "huh??!!! who in the hell wants to be there??" but i guess you have to understand the mentality that these military people come from. kyle admitted the same thing to neneng last night. andy also probably watches it because there are alot of people there that he knows... my main concern is, whenever they mention names, i pay attention because i don't want to hear a name that i know. if that makes sense. when they also name units or divisions or things like that, that freaks me out a little, too. it's nice to talk to andy about that stuff... i mean, he knows stuff that when i ask about it, he just kinda shakes his head at me and giggles that i'm so naive... i mean, all this talk about weapons of mass destruction (or WMD - the military lingo that andy refers to it as), that's information i really would have been fine living my life without knowing. but it's a reality. blech. anyway, i don't think i've ever said on here whether or not i agree with the war... and actually with all this stuff, yesterday was the first time i ever asked andy if he agreed with it, but i guess i kinda see war as this necessary evil. (whoever came up with the term "necessary evil" is a genius, by the way) i don't necessarily know about this war in particular, but the other day i saw them interview some women in new york who were protesting the war. free speech... it's definitely our given right as being citizens of this country, but the weird thing about these women that were being interviewed were that they had men in the military fighting this war as they sat out there protesting. one woman's son was there, and the other woman's husband was there. honestly, i think they must be mistaking their desire for their men to come home safely with their disagreement with the war. i can understand they want their son/husband to come home. i can understand that they want their son/husband to be safe. and i can understand that they want their son/husband to be a part of their lives for years to come... but having a "peace protest" isn't making any of that happen... and it's definitely not making any of that happen any sooner. well, maybe it wasn't about that... maybe they just wanted their voices to be heard, but i don't know because i'm not them. if i were that woman whose husband (and the father of her children that she mentioned) was out there, i could completely understand the pain and fear she is feeling, but i don't think i could go out there and protest while my husband was risking his life and the money he is earning that supports that family of hers is coming from the government that she's condemning. and granted... people don't see this war as a war that is being fought "to defend our freedom," but i guess there are larger issues at hand. what if the war isn't fought and it becomes about that? should we wait until that moment arrives? should we not have people in our military defending our country and at the same time defending her rights? her rights that include her ability to go out there and give her thoughts in this land of free speech? hmmm.... i don't know. andy is by no means in any safe house that says he won't get sent there. and that thought terrifies me to the core. and i will whole-heartedly admit i DON'T want andy to go back into the military. and i will also admit that i believe that is completely selfish of me. but that is my right, i guess. i guess i don't really want to talk about this anymore right now. i'm gonna go back to my life.. my life that doesn't make me think about this war... my life that pretends none of this is going on.
btw, i was talking to andy's sister, jen today and she told me that her kids LOVE me because they think i'm sooooo cool. i must mention that they think i'm cool because i burp.... Auntie Marlou rocks!!! hahaha.
i really can't escape all the media about the war. at our house, it seems to be one of the major things we talk about. and it's all andy will watch on tv... except of course at night when he has to watch his "adult swim" cartoons. but anyway, whenever andy is home, he watches the news channels... and today, he even was watching one news channel, while he had the 'picture in picture' on a different news channel, just in case he missed something. and then, andy's sister started talking to me online and was basically like "it's some scary stuff on the news, huh?" and i told her all andy does is watch the news and she said she does the same thing. i'm almost positive that andy watches it because deep down (not too deep down because he's obviously admitted this to me) he wants to be there. i'm sure most people who read this are like "huh??!!! who in the hell wants to be there??" but i guess you have to understand the mentality that these military people come from. kyle admitted the same thing to neneng last night. andy also probably watches it because there are alot of people there that he knows... my main concern is, whenever they mention names, i pay attention because i don't want to hear a name that i know. if that makes sense. when they also name units or divisions or things like that, that freaks me out a little, too. it's nice to talk to andy about that stuff... i mean, he knows stuff that when i ask about it, he just kinda shakes his head at me and giggles that i'm so naive... i mean, all this talk about weapons of mass destruction (or WMD - the military lingo that andy refers to it as), that's information i really would have been fine living my life without knowing. but it's a reality. blech. anyway, i don't think i've ever said on here whether or not i agree with the war... and actually with all this stuff, yesterday was the first time i ever asked andy if he agreed with it, but i guess i kinda see war as this necessary evil. (whoever came up with the term "necessary evil" is a genius, by the way) i don't necessarily know about this war in particular, but the other day i saw them interview some women in new york who were protesting the war. free speech... it's definitely our given right as being citizens of this country, but the weird thing about these women that were being interviewed were that they had men in the military fighting this war as they sat out there protesting. one woman's son was there, and the other woman's husband was there. honestly, i think they must be mistaking their desire for their men to come home safely with their disagreement with the war. i can understand they want their son/husband to come home. i can understand that they want their son/husband to be safe. and i can understand that they want their son/husband to be a part of their lives for years to come... but having a "peace protest" isn't making any of that happen... and it's definitely not making any of that happen any sooner. well, maybe it wasn't about that... maybe they just wanted their voices to be heard, but i don't know because i'm not them. if i were that woman whose husband (and the father of her children that she mentioned) was out there, i could completely understand the pain and fear she is feeling, but i don't think i could go out there and protest while my husband was risking his life and the money he is earning that supports that family of hers is coming from the government that she's condemning. and granted... people don't see this war as a war that is being fought "to defend our freedom," but i guess there are larger issues at hand. what if the war isn't fought and it becomes about that? should we wait until that moment arrives? should we not have people in our military defending our country and at the same time defending her rights? her rights that include her ability to go out there and give her thoughts in this land of free speech? hmmm.... i don't know. andy is by no means in any safe house that says he won't get sent there. and that thought terrifies me to the core. and i will whole-heartedly admit i DON'T want andy to go back into the military. and i will also admit that i believe that is completely selfish of me. but that is my right, i guess. i guess i don't really want to talk about this anymore right now. i'm gonna go back to my life.. my life that doesn't make me think about this war... my life that pretends none of this is going on.
btw, i was talking to andy's sister, jen today and she told me that her kids LOVE me because they think i'm sooooo cool. i must mention that they think i'm cool because i burp.... Auntie Marlou rocks!!! hahaha.
