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needless to say, i kicked ass on the GRE today!!!!!!!!!! i did MUCH, MUCH better than i thought i would. i scored higher today than i did on every single practice test that i had taken... and i had taken plenty... practice exams from the book i bought, from gre online, and the testing center even sends you a prep CD-rom for the exam with practice tests.... AND i did better than the reported average for my major.... HELL YEAH!!!!!!!! i swear that after i took the exam (it gives you your unofficial scores immediately after for your verbal and math part - there's 2 essays, but those get scored by actualy human beings) and after i got my score, i wanted to scream. i wanted to look around and have someone confirm, but there were about 15 other people in there taking various exams so that wasn't possible. i'm just so glad it's over with. i wouldn't have died if i didn't do so well, but that would have meant MORE studying, plus having to pay for the test again which is a nutty $115.... but it's done. it's done and over with. man, the hard work paid off like no shit. creating 147 sentences for vocab words, the hours (and hours) of studying and all that effort i put into it, i'm so glad it's over and i rocked. yay me! YAY ME!!!! when i got into my car to go home, it was like i could barely breathe, i couldn't believe i had done so well. life is a bunch of tests, man... kick ass on all of 'em!!!

:::: maybe i'll blog more later about the wedding we attended this weekend... oh, the wedding. you have no idea.

so i saw this license plate frame on a car today when i went to albertsons. and i'm thinking "how scary, this guy is telling everyone he is strapped" (with weaponry, of course)... then i realize he's in a handicapped parking space and he has a handicapped plate on his car..... ta da.... HE WAS PROBABLY ONLY ONE ARMED.... hahahahaha... lol

i only have 17 more minutes left of work... YAY... i have to go grocery shopping after work, so it's not like my day is done.

anyway, the next bunch of days are going to be pretty eventful. i don't really have much to say... it was busy at work today and at least i know that the next few incoming checks will be pretty substantial cause i haven't taken any days off in a while. my work was going thru a slow period, so i was taking a day off a week, but now it looks like we're up to speed, so here i am. money is good... working for it is poopoo.

so, has anyone else been fortunate enough to catch "queer eye for the straight guy" yet? it was on last night and the girlfriend of the guy that they work making over made her first appearance (other than a "from the chest up" interview) and she was wearing some CFM boots. my favorite guy, the blonde guy in charge of fashion, was like "um, hello? there's a hooker in trenton that wants her shoes back." it was hilarious.

anyway, i'm at work and i ought to be studying, but i thought i'd blog a little because i think i'm going to have a busy afternoon. so now, i'm going to take some practice tests before everyone gets back from lunch and bombards me with all their crap they want me to do.

that really has nothing to do with anything. but it really does smell like coffee in our office.

so, i was thinking, have you ever really thought about how many people in this world you truly hate? i was thinking about that today. don't ask why, i just was. i don't think there are alot of people i really hate in my life. i mean, i've had friends that i've gotten mad at and as things change, they are no longer a part of my life, and i probably hated them at the time, but it usually doesn't take me very long for me not to hate someone anymore and just kinda feel indifferent about them. probably because i feel like hating someone takes so much energy. it's not like hating someone just allows you to go about your business and do what you want, you have to actively hate someone for it to be a part of your life. hmmm.... i am done with the blah, blah, blah.

andy garcia said this on the actor's studio. i think it is some really good advice. there are so many times in our lives that it may seem like a good idea to go a little backwards because we think it will help us move forward, but maybe in the long run, we might never find our way forward. anyway, he said his dad used to tell this to him all the time, and it is probably something we should all never forget.

it's my new favorite show... queer eye for the straight guy. i've been wanting to watch it since i heard about it, but i just happened to stumble across it on bravo after watching another show and it is hilarious. to watch these gay guys interact with these fashionably/beauty regime challenged straight guys is too good. and the fashion guy told that to the straight guy when he had him trying on clothes. i died.

i'm so hungry. andy has a group meeting and is supposed to bring home some food for me and i'm counting down the minutes. tick tock, tick tock.

hey, has anyone else signed on to blogger in more than one place? i sign on here at home and at work and the posting (and everything else) page looks different at different locations. how weird is that? i kinda like this one i have at home better. it looks like the old one just a little more high-tech.

so i went to that bridal shower yesterday. it was by-far the best bridal shower i've ever been to. it had a "tea party" theme and i won a prize. it was a tea candle. cute. we also had little crustless finger sandwiches and some bad ass champagne coctail punch. we also played some cool "bridal" games i've never played before. and the actual BEST part of it was that the maid of honor hired one of her friends (who's a masseur) to give out free massages. FREE MASSAGES??!!! those are like the best two words ever. and he was awesome. he had a massage table and a massage chair all set up and everything. it was a good time had by all. and my card was the first card that the bride read while opening her gifts that brought tears to her eyes. awwww... what a shmaltzy fool. either that or she had too many cups of the champagne punch. :)

anyway, this isn't what i'm supposed to be doing right now, but i'm too hungry to concentrate on studying. time is precious. gotta go.

we were talking yesterday at work about that horrible incident with the old man running into and killing all those people in santa monica yesterday. and if you've ever heard me ramble on and on about the station wagon and patricia, the old, senile, (mean-spirited, satan-like, deceitful-monger that she was) decrepit lady who completely killed the station wagon, you'd know how i feel about old people being able to have driver's licenses and driving around on the roads at free will with bad eye-sight, slooooooow reflexes, and completely afraid of the other cars moving around them. they should straight up be tested for all the above. but people say that's discriminating against old people... who the hell cares??? they discriminate against young people driving, too. if they didn't, they wouldn't make stricter laws about when new drivers (under 18) can drive at night, when they can have people under 18 in their cars and so on and so forth. and i'm not saying those new laws aren't in place for a reason, cause yes, statistically it does show that young people tend to get in more frequent accidents... umm... hello! so do OLD people. poor noah was proof-positive of that. and have my parents (namely, my widowed mother) been reimbursed for that mishap of that old lady??? no, ma'am. but wow, look at how easily i can get off topic... onto my story.....

so we're telling stories of little incidents we've had driving and this one girl i work with mentions this story of this guy whom she was behind at a traffic light. it was at a tad bit of an incline and as the light turns green the guy tries to pull forward but accidentally rolls back and taps her car (assumedly, he's driving a stick-shift car). she's with a bunch of her friends and she's just kinda going... why won't he go through the light? (she's a shit load more laid back than me cause dude would have heard my honk a couple times) he continues to play the "forward, roll back game" a couple times and the light finally turns red and they are still stuck behind it. the light then turns green again... and he plays the game again. finally, he gets out of his car and she's thinking "okay, he's probably going to tell me his clutch is shot and he's gonna need help getting his car out of the way." but INSTEAD... he walks up to her and goes "hey, why do you keep hitting my car?" LOLOLOLOL... omigod... i was dying. anyway, she was like "you're kidding, right? you're hitting my car." and i guess he was apologizing and all and the light turned green again, and she was just like "you know what? don't worry about it... let's just try to get through this green light, okay?" that had to be one of the best stories i've heard in a while. anyway, her and her friends all decided he must have been seriously wasted cause he was completely out of it. the best part is, if he really thought she was hitting him, why didn't he pull forward and out of the way, why would he just sit there and let her keep rear-ending him??? lesson here, boys and girls: these are the people on the road... not only do you have to worry about old folks, road ragers, and youngins'... but you also have to worry about people under the influence of god knows what. man, that's such a good story, i wish it was mine to tell.

me and my boyfriends (andy and kyle... lol... i like to call us the "alternative" couple) watched "tears of the sun" (another 3 1/2 to 4 out of 5 stars) last night. bruce willis said that to the heir of an African tribal king and i just thought it was one of the best movie lines ever. just telling someone to cowboy the fuck up is fantastic, but then to say it to a man who is African "royalty" made it classic. i don't know... i'm actually doing this to waste time and procrastinate... thus the rambling.

i woke up early to (as opposed to sleeping in until i have to leave for work, which is usually getting up at 11am) do a little GRE studying and take one of the many practice exams i have. i fed the dogs, made coffee, and now i'm purposefully wasting time. also, andy's mom nexteled him really early this morning and i couldn't go back to sleep.

i have a bridal shower to attend this weekend. i'm pretty excited about it. i haven't gone shopping for the gift yet and it's a themed calendar party where everyone is assigned a month and their gift is supposed to be something the bride can use in that month. i got november, which i think is pretty cool cause then i can get something for she can use for thanksgiving or just something to use in the winter. too bad i'm so freakin broke... but that's a whole other story.

you know what? i really can't waste anymore time or me being up early was in vain. peace out.

i don't really have alot to blog about. how did this weekend go by so fast? i don't know, but here i am and thank god monday is almost over. i have taken all the practice sets for the GRE that i had in my GRE prep book and i just finished the verbal section practice that the princeton review has online.... i got a pretty good score. i got higher than what is reported as average... considerably higher, so that is a good little boost to the ego. i had to stop cause i wouldn't have enough time to take the math section since it is almost time to go home! yippee.

i watched some of the new DVDs that i got. i watched "moonlight mile" (*3 out of 5 stars) and "white oleander" (3 1/2 to 4 out of 5 stars). i have about 10 DVDs that i bought that i've never even seen before. i don't think it's a good habit. but when you are getting DVDs as cheap as i am (no, i'm not stealing them) you kinda go nutty.

a passing thought occurred to me today. isn't it funny how you have these different personalities when you have to be around different people. i'm not talking drastically different like "who the hell are you?" but different like you have to put on different faces for different people. i don't know. it's just weird. and it doesn't have anything to do with anything, but i thought i'd mention.

i've got a little pre-menstrual syndrome going on, dude. that's probably why my thoughts are all over the place. and i'm a little crampy. i'm so ready to go home. how is it that i haven't felt like i can get enough sleep? i'm probably not sleeping well due to this GRE stress so when i do sleep, it's not very restful. oh, and my title has to do with someone that i talked to on the phone this weekend. that's all.

*added to note: these ratings are based on Marlou's movie rating scale. (not really anything worth listening to.)

i could not bitch more about this studying if i had more ears to listen to me and more breath to keep talking. i have already taken the provided easy practice set problems yesterday and did better than i thought, but now here i am, ALMOST done with the medium set and i want to jump off a bridge. maybe by doing so well on the easy set, i psyched myself out into believing i could kick ass on this eaxm. what a trick. anyway, i am just sitting here daydreaming about all the other stuff i'd rather be doing. stuff that isn't always the first thing i'd jump at doing unless i were trying to avoid something else. it's funny how the inclination to clean like a madwoman comes over me when i don't want to study (or in the good old college days, write a paper) and now i'd rather be reading a book, crocheting, who even cares what, just not doing this. i even took meya out for a walk yesterday after i got home from work... i'm sure a subconscious effort to not study, again. hmmm... maybe if i had to get a rectal exam, that would push me to study... cause, who the heck wants a rectal exam?... but i'm sure with the option, i would absolutely choose to study. man, that's what it comes down to? a rectal exam or studying for the GRE? i'm a sad, pathetic little girl. well, i'm so poopied by sitting here studying, the most wicked craving for chocolate came over me. and i don't usually crave chocolate... it must be the endorphin release that i'm looking for. i'm such a nerd and (probably another way to procrastinate), but i found this about chocolate. yeah, i'm gonna go back to studying and enjoy the almond snickers i walked my happy ass over to the deli to get.

i have the cornnuts in my possession. in case you were afraid for me that i would not satisfy my cornnuts need, i was able to get some. i didn't want BBQ, but it was that or plain.... and i just had to choose and deal with my choice. it wasn't that dramatic, but BBQ is better than nothing. yippee damn skippy for me.

i'm having the weirdest craving for cornnuts. and i haven't had cornnuts in centuries. okay, maybe not centuries, but it's definitely been a while. and that title is a quote from "heathers." one of the cooler movies from the late 80's/early 90's. anyway, i would love some nacho cornnuts. there's nothing to do here at work, so that means i should be studying. but i don't want to be studying, so i'm procrastinating. oh, how i'd love to go home, unplug my phone, turn off the tv, get under the covers with my dogs and enjoy some peace and quiet. gee, no wonder i'm feeling antisocial.

i am so tired. i went home yesterday from work around 3pm cause my migraine was ready to take me out. it was killing me and thank god most of it is gone now, but remnants of it are still eating away at my brain. anyway, andy's dad, stepmom, and sister left yesterday. wow, that entire week/weekend took a lot out of me. right now it's pretty slow at work and i really should be doing GRE studying cause i'm down to 3 weeks of study time left (EEEEEEEKS!!!!!!), but i've been reading other people's blogs, and now blogging myself to avoid it. i'm thinking about postponing it another week cause the weekend before it i'm gonna have to be in a wedding and that is cutting out some critical study time. we'll see... i think i have a chance to change the date up to a week before i set it. i wish i were at home sleeping right now. i want to use every ounce of free time i have to catch up on all the sleep i missed out on. i was averaging about 4 hours of sleep a night and now that i have more time to sleep, i wake up at ass crack o'clock when i don't need to be awake cause my body is already used to it. at least i'm able to go back to sleep. if not, i'd have to find something to do with myself at 4am. and that would piss me off.

man, this past week and a half has been outta control. i'm surprised i'm still alive and breathing. just from driving to arizona last friday, then all week having alyssa stay at our house, and this 4th of july weekend, sleep has been such a foreign word to me and andy. i'm at work right now and i have the biggest migraine. i even have the lights above me off cause that is helping a little. let's do a rundown of the past few days, shall we? well, sebastian was lost... then he was found. we had our little gathering for my dad's death anniversary. we went to the fair and i got sunburned (and tried fried snickers!!). we went to the beach the same day, and i got a little more sunburned. then we went paintballing, and not only did i add to the skin crisping, i also got little round bruises scattered around my body. i'm not that bad actually. lots of other people have worse scars... like the one on matt's head, crissy's arm, sean's arm, mara's neck, andy's leg.... man, people took beatings. i guess i just don't bruise that easily. hey chakee, me and andy agree you were a trooper for going out into "lodi dodi ding ding" (the made-up chapparel) and the trenches even though the thought of snakes freaked you out. good for you. but it was definitely fun. it was fun shooting at andy when him and crissy were aliens. but i'm glad everyone had a good time, nobody when home mad or upset, and we all just had fun while we were there. well, i'm done talking. i just want to sit here and vegetate.