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this day is going incredibly slow. yes, it's already noon, but i came in today at 9, and i'm not leaving until 6. damn, i've only been here for 3 hours? WTF? i do have work to do, but i'm not in the mood. sometimes my spurts of productivity come and go and it's really unfortunate because then i look for other ways to occupy my time. i really want to be shopping. and i don't really shop that much. but i have been lately, so that's probably why. btw, chakee, i looked for that necklace at express at UTC and couldn't find it. oh well, i'm just sticking with the one i bought at fashion valley. it's cute.

so, today i'm wearing my most FAVORITEST pair of jeans in the whole wide world. they are a pair of jeans from express, but they don't make this cut anymore. they used to have different types of jeans (now they only have 2) and these ones were stovepipe. with my fluctuations in weight, i've been able to fit in them a few times in the last few years, but they feel good now. a smidge snug, but i'm so glad to have them on my happy ass. i can breathe and do jumping jacks if i wanted, so yes! i think they feel snug because lately all of my other jeans feel loose, so that's probably why. ooh, and i also bought a dress for julena's baptism and yes ma'am, it is a size smaller than i've had to buy in the past. yippee! i haven't been as dedicated to the weight watchers deal as i should be, but i'm definitely doing okay. i'm still losing weight slowly and surely so that's good. also, being full feels different now. since in the beginning of weight watchers, being full didn't exist, now it just feels different. it's hard to explain i guess.

it's such a nice day outside. i wish i wasn't stuck at work. poop.

dude, i was supposed to get my cell phone today from fedex. andy went to home depot for a few minutes, and the fedex guy came and went. he left a notice on our door, but here's the cool part. kyle was home. and the guy didn't even bother ringing our doorbell. huh??? if he's already there, he couldn't take the 3 seconds to see if someone was home? lame. i guess it was cause there weren't any cars in our carport, but that's not a reason. well, now i have to go to fedex on my way home. oh well.

ooh! andy just booked the hotel rooms for the night of the wedding. he just called me just now. cool!!! so, if anyone doesn't know, we blocked hotel rooms at the Sheraton downtown. We got an extra one or two rooms because hopefully, we can find people to occupy them, but we had to sign a contract to get a specific rate and reserve that many rooms. anyway, since our wedding is on a sunday, our reception is going to end pretty early, probably around 10pm, so we're going to do some afterpartying probably downtown, then have everyone back to toto's hotel room for a little more fun if everyone is up for it. anyway, if you haven't let me know and you'd like a room (or want to share with a bunch of other people so everyone doesn't have to drive home that night) let me know and we can see if we need to add more rooms or if the number we got will be enough. oh, and since it's in august, there won't be any school on monday, so i hope all of my cousins plan on staying and partying that night!!!

okay, i'm going to get some work done before lunch.

do you remember that part from "finding nemo"? me and kyle keep singing it to andy. also today at work, our new interns started. our boss (known as our Principal Investigator - pretty official, eh?) decided to say a few words about our project... yeah, a few words turned into an hour and a half long speech. to stay awake (and keep myself amused, of course) i kept singing "just keep swimming... just keep swimming" to myself. it worked, not once did i nod off when i usually would have.

i'm supposed to be cleaning my room. when everything else in my life starts to get busy, my room gets cluttered. what ends up happening is that i just leave stacks and stacks of paperwork and other stuff on my dresser and tackle it all at one time and in another week, it starts all over. but, i've noticed that when i'm not so busy, it stays cleaner longer. i did get to clean our bathroom tonight, so that was good to do. i got all down and dirty and was even scrubbing our tile. i'll go ahead and pat myself on the back.

so, my cell phone has been out of commission for the past week. starting friday, at least. fedex tracking says i'll get my new phone by tomorrow, so that's good. i do have to admit, though, it's nice to not be so accessible. don't get me wrong, the phone is nifty, but usually if i have to get out of the car really quick, i'll just take my wallet, but if i know i have my phone, i have to remember to bring that, too. just more crap to think about. oh well. so anyway, if you were trying to call me, that's why i wasn't answering my phone. definitely by friday, i should have it back.

i guess it's time for bed. man, why can't tomorrow be friday? i didn't even work on monday (but i did work saturday and sunday) and this week is STILL going slow. wow... my birthday is coming up, isn't it?? hmmm... a month and a half... geez louise, i'll be 26.

holy cow... i'm losing it. my cell phone has been weird for the past day. actually, it's been a big fat pain in the ass since i got it... more than anyone else's (toto and andy's phones, at least). first my battery was lame, then i couldn't use my direct connects, so now, the earpiece on my phone doesn't work. i can hear when i put my phone on speaker phone, but when i put the phone up to my ear, i get nothing.

so i get this FANFUCKINGTASTIC idea. "i KNOW! why don't i reset my phone???" no, that would be silly to reset my settings - i should reset my ENTIRE phone.... GODDAMNIT.

I LOST MY PHONE BOOK ON MY PHONE.

i started to have this panic attack, sweating, heart palpitations, dizzy, the whole bit. i tried calling nextel and i knew what they were gonna say, but andy said i should at least try. "unfortunately ma'am, there isn't anything we can do." well, no shit.

i really do rely on my cell phone to hold all of my phone numbers. ugh, i feel like i've cut off my arm. what if i don't get those numbers back? please??? why do i do these things to myself????

i'm a friggin' masochist, that's why.

i've been on a conference call for 53 minutes. geez louise... blahdy, blahdy, blah. these men can talk forever. oh well, i'm the only one in the office, so i've just been taking care of wedding things while i've been on the phone that i can take care of on the internet.

oh, finally, we got off. i'm gonna get back to work.

i heard the funniest story i've heard in a LONG time yesterday. really, to the point of tears and hurting cheeks, this was a good one. anyway, we went to magic mountain yesterday. it was me, andy, kyle, sean, mara, shaun, dave, and dave's new (but previous) girlfriend, michelle. so, it was a strange and not-so-productive day at 6 flags, and we didn't get to eat "lunch" until 7:30pm. so, we're sitting there finishing up our food and the conversation was actually about people in a couple who check out people of the opposite sex. sean starts telling this story about mara, and she stops him and was like "oh, are you telling that one story...." and he goes on to finish the story. it wasn't the story she was thinking of, so we're all like "what story are you talking about?" and she goes "that time we went to the garage sale that wasn't a garage sale." of course, we're already laughing at that statement, and basically, they saw a sign (sean and mara) for a garage sale and it basically just had an arrow to the street. so, there were these people that were cleaning out their garage and putting stuff on their lawn. mara and sean assume that it's the garage sale. they begin looking through the stuff and are like "oh, that's really nice, i wonder how much that is??" and the people that lived there come up and are like "can we help you?" basically, at that point, everyone figures out the miscommunication and sean and mara split faster than someone running from the cops. we couldn't handle it. that story was hilarious. mara decided that was probably the story she should have shared while we were camping during my brilliant "share your most embarassing story" game. damn, i can't imagine how the people that lived in that house tell that story. LOL.

i don't really have alot else to say except for that story. i've been tired and busy and stressed, but other than that, things are peachy! :) but, i do want to say CONGRATULATIONS CRISSY AND MATT! i'm very happy for both of you and cheers to a wonderful beginning of wedding planning and marriage for a wonderful life together! HERE! HERE!

so... ummm... yeah... me, too:

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"MC (White)-12 ounces"

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
the printer

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Babe

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
7:03pm

5: Now look at the clock; what is the actual time?
7:08pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Something on ABC family, "Babe" just ended

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
this morning. got in the car to go to Easter brunch

8. Before you came to this Web site, what did you look at?
wedding stuff.... endless wedding stuff

9. What are you wearing?
this old lady top/shorts combo that i stole from my mom

10. Did you dream last night?
i was exhausted last night, when i'm that tired, i don't remember dreams

11. When did you last laugh?
when julena blew chunks on toto's shirt at brunch

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
a red wall, a birthday calendar, a regular calendar, and a mail keeper

13. Seen anything weird lately?
fidelis has this bump, pimple-looking thing on his weewee. i just noticed it today.

14: What is the last film you saw?
Endless Sunshine... wow, has it been that long?

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
i'd pay off my mom's house in a heartbeat

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know.
i took a hiatus from going to church during the tail end of high school because i felt like i needed to figure out why i was going there. was it cause my mom wanted me to? or was it cause I wanted to? good news, i found my way back.

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
i'd eliminate pain, abuse, and crime. i just want people to feel safe.

19: Do you like to dance?
like a fiend

20: George Bush: is he really doing Dick Cheney?
for some reason, i think this question might have been copied wrong cause it's so random

21: Would you ever consider living abroad?
nope, i need all of my American luxuries. i'd have a house there to go on VACA.

i got "my best friend's wedding" on DVD last week. i think my ultimate goal is to own all the julia roberts movies i love. anyway, during the part when she's sitting outside her hotel room door while michael calls kimmie to call off the wedding, she's crying. then the bell boy (the guy from "duet") walks past and is talking to her and tells her that his grandmother used to say "this too shall pass." i really like that saying. andy used to say that to me all the time when i would wig out. and it's true. stress, heartache, pain, all of it... it all subsides. you learn, and you're a better person for it.

so i'd been wanting to blog for a while, but just didn't have the energy. my co-worker, mike, is from northern cali (sacramento area) and he was telling me about this girl he used to date who only wore pink. like really and truly, everything in her closet was pink - hot pinks, light pinks, baby pinks... every shade you can think of it. anyway, he then went on to explain she is the reason for his aversion to the color pink. that's not really the point of what i'm saying. he then talked about how she would use the word "hecca" all the time. as in "HELLA" but apparently those folks who don't like to cuss, use "hecca." i kept trying to tell him he was lying cause i've never heard of such a thing, but then we decided "hella" is a predominately northern cali thing (although adopted by some southern californians) so maybe that's why "hecca" never reached our vocabulary. i went on to confirm that she's also one of those people who used "darn" and "shucks" and he said yes. yeah, i know, i curse like a sailor, but i choose to express myself that way. and i realize i also curse in my blogs. i wouldn't edit myself in a journal, so that's why i choose to do it here. people don't have to read my blog and if i offend you with profanity... i guess it's tough doody.

camping was a fun experience. i wish the weather would have been better for us and as andy and i drove up to lake jennings on friday afternoon and the spinkles began i was feeling a little wary. he kept trying to windshield wiper them to pretend like it wasn't sprinking, but i reminded him the more he did that it just showed how often he needed to wipe the sprinkles off the windshield. there was a pretty big group of us and we spent most of our time sitting around our little fire pit doing nothing. we got to go fishing on saturday and i was the first one in my boat to catch a fish. we're supposed to be planning another camping trip so if you want to join us, keep your ears to the ground.

so, it's already april... HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CRISSY! i hope you got my IM last friday. also, a HAPPY 31ST (holy moly!) BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER! btw, j, are you doing anything for your bday?

a few funnies from camping: SHE'S STANDING UP!; I don't like the airbed, it feels like a waterbed, and it also feels like I'm rolling downhill; both fidelis and meya are girls because they don't have tentacles; you caught three fish, they caught 2 fish, and their boat didn't catch any fish... oh, we're lying, we didn't really catch 3 fish, someone gave us one; what is that noise? it sounds like an airplane? oh, it's the heater.; TENT INSPECTION!!