live well. laugh often. LOVE much.

1) First Grade Teacher: Mrs. Thompson
2) Last word you said: bad
3) Last song you sang: "going crazy"
4) Last person you hugged: julena
5) Last thing you laughed at? my dogs
6) Last time you said 'I love you'? last night
7) Last time you cried: march 12
8) What's in your CD player: at work, a mixed CD
9) What colour socks are you wearing? currently barefoot
10) What's under your bed? dust atop my carpet
11) What time did you wake up today? 7:20am when andy's first alarm went off
12) Current taste? morning breath
13) Current hair? just woke up hair
14) Current clothes? t-shirt and underwear
15) Current annoyance? how stressful my job has been this week
16) Current longing? breakfast
17) Current desktop picture? at work, a picture of fidelis
18) Current worry? work
19) Current hate? not having enough time
20) Story behind your AIM sn? baby girl is cute and my birthday is on the 13th
21) Current favourite article of clothing? the new t-shirts i bought from jc penny
22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex? ears. j/k i always give the same answer
22a) Favourite physical feature of the same sex? i can't think of how to answer this
23) Last CD that you bought? i haven't bought myself one in a long time, but i got LL cool j for christmas
24) Favourite place to be? in our bed
25) Least favourite place? emergency room for any reason
26) Time you wake up in the morning? sometime around 7am, give or take an hour
27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be? the harp
28) Favourite color? lavender
29) Do you believe in an afterlife? definitely
30) How tall are you? 4'11 1/2"
31) Current favourite word/saying? jackfuck
32) Favourite book? can't think of one
33) Favourite season? spring
34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to? tatay
35) Favourite day? saturday
36) Where do you want to go? on a honeymoon
37) What is your career going to be like? worthwhile
39) What kind of car will you have? an escalade
40) remember from any book? remember what?
41) A random lyric? "come over to my place"
42) Identify some things surrounding your computer? random stacks of paper, modem, router, more random stacks of paper

WHAT:
1. is your name: marlou
2. is your nickname? ging, love
3. are you wearing? a business suit... what? i said t-shirt and underwear
4. is your favorite thing to do? laugh with andy
5. is your room like? cherry wood furniture and it smells like dog
6. is your favorite drink? really good strawberry lemonade
7. is your car? 98 bmw z3
8. is your job? senior research associate for a federally funded research grant
9. is your education? BA in psych
10. is your favorite holiday? thanksgiving

HAVE YOU:
1. Fallen for your best friend? no
3. Been rejected? hell yes
4. Been in love? most every day :)
5. Used someone? probably
6. Been used? probably
7. Why did you feel inclined to add a question? i was trying to figure out what to do about #2 missing, but decided to skip it
8. Done something you regret? yes

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
9. You kissed? andy before he left for work
10. You talked to? andy
12. You instant messaged? andy yesterday to tell him i was leaving work
13. You yelled at? one of my coworkers for spazzing out
14. You laughed with? andy
15. Who broke your heart? wow, can't remember

DO YOU...
19. Color your hair? currently it's highlighted
20. Have tattoos? yes
21. Have piercings? yes
22. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
23. Own a webcam? yes, but i don't thik it's plugged in
24. Own a thong? a few
25. Ever get off the damn computer? when i leave work
27. Habla espanol? pathetically

HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU...
29. Stolen anything? junior high
30. Smoke? cigars
32. Obsessive? mildly
33. Compulsive? hardly
34. Obsessive compulsive? nah
35. Panic? no
36. Anxiety? no
37. Depressed? not currently
38. Suicidal? not at all
39. Obsessed with hate? nope
40. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, gore? can't say i do

*QUESTIONS*
41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? in graduate school
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body? nope
43. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? smiles
44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? depends on who she was
45. Would you marry for money? nope
46. Have you had braces? yep
47. Do you pluck your eyebrows? a little obsessively
48. Do you like hairy backs? nope
49. Do you like hairy crotches? yours or mine?
50. Could you live without a computer? if i had to, maybe
51. Do you have an ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc? yes
52. If so, how many people are on your list(s)? approx 50
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be? nowhere, women have never had it better than now
54. Do you wear white socks? most of the time
55. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off? take them off
56. Your favorite fruit? strawberries
57. Do you eat wheat bread or white? i hate wheat bread
58. What is your favorite place to visit? pass
59. What is the last movie you saw? the rest of a recorded "anywhere but here"
60. Are you religious? i think that question is subjective
61. Are you photogenic? nah
62. Do you dream in color or black and white? i'm not sure
63. Are you wearing fingernail polish? nope
64. Is it chipped or fresh? i said nope
65. Do you have any dimples? nope
6. Do you remember being born? no, it's called infant amnesia
67. Why do you take surveys? cause i'm self-centered and i think people give a rat's ass
68. Do you drink alcohol? yes, i'm a fan
69. Did you like or do you dislike high school? i loved it! mostly cause i kept my drama at a minimum
70. What is the best accent? your mom's
71. Who do you want to kiss? my dad
72. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? i love the cool breeze, then transition to wamth from a sunrise
73. Do you want to live to be 100? probably not, but if andy is still around, sure
74. Is a flat stomach important to you? important, but clearly not worth the effort
75. Do you or have you played with a ouija board? don't even get me started on our scary stories
76. Are you loyal? to the core
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? i like to think so... as long as they're not dumb. :)
78. At home, do you like the lights on or off? on
79. Do you like your nose? i don't dislike it
80. Do you think you can draw well? definitely not
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real? can't remember
82. How many pairs of shoes do you have in your closet? maybe 12-ish
83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety? variety
84. Do you write poetry? not anymore
85. Snore? like a bear
86. Do you sleep more on your back or front? tummy
87. Cats/Dogs? my dogs
88. Do you lick stamps? do they even sell those anymore?
89. Do you use an electric can opener? i have one but we haven't put it up
90.have you ridden in a hotair balloon? no and andy would never do that with me, so i probably never will
91. Do you talk to yourself? all the time
92. Are you judgmental? oh yeah

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU...
93. Smoked your first cigarette? i had one drag when i was 14 (i was trying to prove a point, not really test it out)
94. Got drunk for the first time? new years 1995 (so, 16)
95. Smoked pot for the first time? still hasn't happened believe it or not
96. Kissed someone? 12
97. Made out with someone? 13
98. Lost your virginity? my wedding night... okay, i'm lying... 18.

sometimes i can't believe the days i have at work. it's like i'm there for 8 hours. don't even stop to eat lunch, just eat while i'm working and i leave there feeling like i didn't get ANYTHING accomplished. it's hard to get stuff done when you spend the entire day putting out fires and having endless meetings about all kinds of bullshit. and then i leave exhausted.

have you ever thought about the psychotic people in your life? i don't just meet like the regular old "wow, you're a whackjob" kinda psychotic, but the real "wow, they could just go around and fuck shit up if they wanted to" kinda psychotic. probably not, because the likelihood that you have someone like that in your life is pretty slim. but anyway, it's a thought.

i can't believe neneng's wedding is in 2 weeks. not even, really. less than that. i actually can't wait for the party. and i just love sleeping in nice hotels. hmm.... that reminds me, i need to make the reservation for mine and andrew's hotel room. nighty night.

.... erectile dysfunction, man, there ain't nothin cool about it. that has nothing to do with me, but i just thought i'd share that quote with ya'll.

anyway, my animal telescopic reach dyson is fantabulous. it really does wonders on your carpet with pet hair. and believe me, that pair hair on our stairs has been there since our new carpet was put down. and now it's like it was never even there. i really wish, though, for the amount i paid for it, it really did vacuum my house on its own and i could sit and watch tv. no such luck.

this is the last weekend for me before the craziness begins. next weekend is crissy's birthday party (which i'm testing that day... boo)/neneng's spa day. the weekend after is neneng's wedding. the weekend after that, andy's mom comes into town and i start my princeton review for the gre. and after that will be gre studying until i take the test which i plan to do around my birthday. then, we leave for puerto vallarta! wow, that takes us all the way into the end of june. whew... i'm tired just thinking about it.

today is good friday and i didn't even go to church. bummer. it's the last friday of no meat, and i'm dying for sushi. and good sushi, too. that sushi at bamboo hut is actually just very mediocre. i would like shushi from benihana, but then i'd want to eat there, too and that would be eating meat.

oh yeah, and i'm sick again. this time with a minor cold. i have managed to get a cold EVERY month since december. how does that work??? the one i had in december was really a nightmare, but so far, its just been congestion and phlegm for me. my co-worker never gets sick and today my congestion was so bad my eyes wanted to fall out of my face. you know what that feels like, right? well, i was telling her about it and she goes "hm, i never get congested." lucky girl.

anyway, that's me in a nutshell.

i've got a smidgeon of a cold. i've been battling it for a few days, but today it was coming on full force. I left work early and went home and slept, and a couple of hours ago had some theraflu. i actually do feel better. i'm gonna cross my fingers and hope this is the worst of it. i'm going to be testing like a crazy person for the next few weeks and i really can't afford to get sick and be out of commission. really. just don't have the time to get sick. it's a harsh, harsh world out their kiddies, so take advantage of not having real worries while you have the time.

my friend/co-worker's husband came back from Iraq today. it's funny how there's a war going on, but it stays so far back in our social conscience that we hardly think about it. it's actually pretty impressive.

have you seen the show "intervention" on A&E? probably not, unless you are a fan of the A&E channel. it's neat! you have these people with these addictions and they think they are making a documentary about their addiction, but what they don't know is that their family and friends have back-handedly scheduled this intervention for them. i've only seen 1 episode, but it was a good one. it has 2 different stories and this one was about this girl who is addicted to vicodin. she started it because she had like tonsillitis and got addicted to her pain killers. the best part: her boyfriend was terminally ill (they never said with what) and she was STEALING his vicodin from him. how's about that?? the other story was about this girl who was a cutter. i always thought being a cutter meant you cut your arms, but this girl was cutting everything on her body. and when she was feeling especially bad about herself, she would cut her pubic area. eeeks is what i say. she would just make these little cuts, but a ton of them, and the blood would start gushing out. makes my head a little woozy.

we're at neneng's office. andy had to grout a tile and neneng is working on wedding stuff. i came along to help neneng and keep andy company. i need to go home and get back to resting. come to think of it, at least i don't have diarrhea anymore.

that has been my life for the past 2 days. talk about a brutal existence.

anyway, i had an entire entry that took me half an hour to type up last night, but when andy used the computer for 5 minutes, something got all fucked up and it got lost. my thinking is that maybe it was something god didn't want me have the whole world (or my extremely limited fan base that reads my blogs) read/see it. oh well.

i just feel like poopy right now and i wish i didn't. i wish the thought of ANY type of food didn't make me nauseous or scare me because i think it's just going to revisit in the form of diarrhea.

ask me why i'm still awake. oh yeah, i'm keeping andy company at neneng's office while he is working on their office bathroom.

please wake me when it's all over.

and all i keep thinking is that i can't go through this again.

i just thought of that today and it has to do with chakee. chakee, why do you have so many things surrounding you that have to do with teeth? okay, so it's actually only 2 things, but whatever.

i'm at work. and i've been really tired. i tested on saturday, and then for the rest of the evening on saturday, i helped andy tile the bathroom in neneng's office. then we tiled the rest on sunday. whew... that man and his side jobs. i get wrangled in somehow, but oh well, it's extra money. on saturday, after we finished tiling, we went to dinner at PF Changs. it would have been a fantastic meal, had the guy sitting at the table next to us not been smacking his fingers when he was eating the eggrolls. he was doing the "finger lickin' good" deal and that makes me want to vomit. i wanted to shake the girl he was with and be like "you let him eat like THAT in public???!!!" it was some foul ass shit, dude. and he wasn't some immature teenager having a nice dinner for the first time in his life, it was like a thirty-five year old man. ugh, as you can tell, i'm still disturbed.

i have been having some really crazy dreams lately. maybe that has to do with tiredness. i had a dream about someone last night and i was trying to talk some sense into them. and this is totally someone i wouldn't have this conversation with. it was just strange.

i have to leave now and go home. i worked a long ass day yesterday, too. i'm glad i'm not a workaholic. or -aholic of any kind, actually. well, maybe i'm a nagaholic. or a bitchaholic. or a foodaholic. or an ice creamaholic. hmmm....

self confidence = good and sexy
arrogance = yucky and insecure

at least today is humpday. not really because i'm working on saturday, so technically, i'm not midway through the week yet. bummer. but my coworkers and i are planning on leaving work half day on friday to go have lunch and go get manis and pedis. fun, huh?

so, nypd blue ended last night. i've been watching it with andy for this season. he's always liked the show, but couldn't really get into it until now cause he's always worked evenings. oh well.... good bye andy sipowicz.

oh, andy and i got the new nextel camera phones! they're so exciting. i've been texting neneng every day since. and i only get 100 texts a month then i have to pay for them. oh well, at least she's coming back in 5 days, then i won't be texting as much. i tried to send chakee a picture to her new picture phone, but she can't get pictures.... booo! just kidding, chakee. it's tough when you don't pay for your own stuff to get what you want. LOL, who am i kidding? it's hard to get what you want when you DO pay for your own stuff.

yes, i leave work in 38 minutes!

an old school joke for your enjoyment: "what do you call cheese that isn't yours?" NACHO CHEESE!