4.30.2003
look alive, team... look alive
i just called neneng, and i probably shouldn't have. i called neneng to check up on our loan and it wasn't the news i wanted so now i'm aggravated, when just two seconds ago, i was feeling jumpy cause i know we're gonna have to get our butts in gear to get this moving thing over and done with, and that was really the only thing on my mind... now, i'm peeved cause this crap is going down. piece of crap.
i don't really have alot to talk about, i just wanted to blog cause i know i probably won't have a chance to tonight, or that i will even want to. we started primering neng and ronald's house last night, and today, ronald's family is painting. i think a good majority of their stuff will be moving there tonight in which case, me and andy have to move all our stuff into the living room, and start the prep painting stuff on the two rooms. i have all day tomorrow which will be good, but it will probably be just me by myself. that's alright, me and meya can kick it as long as she doesn't mess me up... the dog has been known to walk around with paint splashes on her back cause she insists on getting in the way. funny mutt.
i have been doing some serious grad school research lately. it feels good to be able to say "yep, that sounds like a good place to go" or "nope, can't go there" cause people ask me all the time where i'm looking to go and my standard answer is "umm.... i'm actually looking at a few different places right now" which in my speak means "i haven't the damndest idea cause i LAG." but people don't know that. a school i was looking at today has two really good programs that sound interesting, so i feel happy that i can at least say that i will most likely be applying there among other places. i'm really OCD organized about this search.... i've got an excel spreadsheet and everything. i've got a book of programs, a notebook that i've made notes about each school that is a potential then my spreadsheet will be like an easy-look kinda deal that breaks everything down to where exactly the school is, their programs, degrees offered, application deadlines and fees, application supplements, and just about anything else you can think of when you need to make a decision. i just figured there would be about a billion different schools and i wouldn't remember which deadline went to which school, which schools had the research i'm interested in, or how much tuition was for each school. i'm really feeling on the ball. either that, or i'm making this alot more complicated than it needs to be. sometimes it makes me crazy that i don't have anyone that can kind of lead my way thru this whole process, but at least i have alot of people at the lab now that have been through it so i can ask them questions if i need to. alot of the time i wish i knew all this stuff WHILE i was in college and i went straight to graduate school, but i didn't know what the hell i was doing back then. well, it is almost time to leave work. yippee... i get the day off tomorrow, but i'll be working my butt off at home. at least i can work my butt off and not have to wear nice clothes. there's a plus. alright... i know the hard work is gonna start when i get home. ready team??? BREAK.
i just called neneng, and i probably shouldn't have. i called neneng to check up on our loan and it wasn't the news i wanted so now i'm aggravated, when just two seconds ago, i was feeling jumpy cause i know we're gonna have to get our butts in gear to get this moving thing over and done with, and that was really the only thing on my mind... now, i'm peeved cause this crap is going down. piece of crap.
i don't really have alot to talk about, i just wanted to blog cause i know i probably won't have a chance to tonight, or that i will even want to. we started primering neng and ronald's house last night, and today, ronald's family is painting. i think a good majority of their stuff will be moving there tonight in which case, me and andy have to move all our stuff into the living room, and start the prep painting stuff on the two rooms. i have all day tomorrow which will be good, but it will probably be just me by myself. that's alright, me and meya can kick it as long as she doesn't mess me up... the dog has been known to walk around with paint splashes on her back cause she insists on getting in the way. funny mutt.
i have been doing some serious grad school research lately. it feels good to be able to say "yep, that sounds like a good place to go" or "nope, can't go there" cause people ask me all the time where i'm looking to go and my standard answer is "umm.... i'm actually looking at a few different places right now" which in my speak means "i haven't the damndest idea cause i LAG." but people don't know that. a school i was looking at today has two really good programs that sound interesting, so i feel happy that i can at least say that i will most likely be applying there among other places. i'm really OCD organized about this search.... i've got an excel spreadsheet and everything. i've got a book of programs, a notebook that i've made notes about each school that is a potential then my spreadsheet will be like an easy-look kinda deal that breaks everything down to where exactly the school is, their programs, degrees offered, application deadlines and fees, application supplements, and just about anything else you can think of when you need to make a decision. i just figured there would be about a billion different schools and i wouldn't remember which deadline went to which school, which schools had the research i'm interested in, or how much tuition was for each school. i'm really feeling on the ball. either that, or i'm making this alot more complicated than it needs to be. sometimes it makes me crazy that i don't have anyone that can kind of lead my way thru this whole process, but at least i have alot of people at the lab now that have been through it so i can ask them questions if i need to. alot of the time i wish i knew all this stuff WHILE i was in college and i went straight to graduate school, but i didn't know what the hell i was doing back then. well, it is almost time to leave work. yippee... i get the day off tomorrow, but i'll be working my butt off at home. at least i can work my butt off and not have to wear nice clothes. there's a plus. alright... i know the hard work is gonna start when i get home. ready team??? BREAK.
4.29.2003
despite all my rage, i am still just a rat in a cage
man... oh... man.... i can feel all ounces of energy start to drain from me. i didn't get to sleep until 3 and i've been up since 7am... and i was fine, but now i'm at work and it is slow so i'm at a lull... and i can feel my body wanting to shut down. 3 more hours dude, 3 more hours.
so i heard that smashing pumpkins song on my way to work today and i rocked out!! woohoo!! it's so neat how songs can bring you back to a certain time in your life. like songs can make you remember how you felt when you were listening to that song, what you were going through, or even make you remember a certain time you heard that song and a memory that accompanies that time. our minds work in really awesome ways, and even though i definitely believe in selective memory, your brain does take notes of certain things and gives them back to you when it wants. i'm completely fascinated with this kind of stuff, so maybe me going into neuroscience isn't such a far-fetched idea, afterall. it would be even neater if i went to med school and i could be a neurosurgeon! right... i have no interest in being a surgeon of any kind, so that's never gonna happen... but i'm looking at a couple neuroscience grad programs. we'll see what pans out.
i had my baptism this morning. it was lo-key and we got the job done which is what i wanted. it's a good thing i talked to crissy online before i started getting dressed. i would have shown up in jeans and a t-shirt, but crissy convinced me to wear a skirt. which was good cause i might have looked crazy cause i didn't put any thought into this event at all... partly out of delirium and partly out of the fact that we all know this was a formality and we were doing it so it was on file somewhere. andy bought me and crissy lunch afterwards at mimi's. we all got breakfast, but whatever. my confirmation is on sunday and i can't wait until this is all over and done with. i'm really glad i did it now, though and didn't delay it any longer. after this is over, i can concentrate more on my GRE studying, while i'm also picking out a school. man, the shit just keeps coming, don't it? oh well... it's good to be busy... makes me feel alive and like i'm a productive citizen of this here country. yeeeehawwwwwwwww.... see, didn't i say i was tired?
man... oh... man.... i can feel all ounces of energy start to drain from me. i didn't get to sleep until 3 and i've been up since 7am... and i was fine, but now i'm at work and it is slow so i'm at a lull... and i can feel my body wanting to shut down. 3 more hours dude, 3 more hours.
so i heard that smashing pumpkins song on my way to work today and i rocked out!! woohoo!! it's so neat how songs can bring you back to a certain time in your life. like songs can make you remember how you felt when you were listening to that song, what you were going through, or even make you remember a certain time you heard that song and a memory that accompanies that time. our minds work in really awesome ways, and even though i definitely believe in selective memory, your brain does take notes of certain things and gives them back to you when it wants. i'm completely fascinated with this kind of stuff, so maybe me going into neuroscience isn't such a far-fetched idea, afterall. it would be even neater if i went to med school and i could be a neurosurgeon! right... i have no interest in being a surgeon of any kind, so that's never gonna happen... but i'm looking at a couple neuroscience grad programs. we'll see what pans out.
i had my baptism this morning. it was lo-key and we got the job done which is what i wanted. it's a good thing i talked to crissy online before i started getting dressed. i would have shown up in jeans and a t-shirt, but crissy convinced me to wear a skirt. which was good cause i might have looked crazy cause i didn't put any thought into this event at all... partly out of delirium and partly out of the fact that we all know this was a formality and we were doing it so it was on file somewhere. andy bought me and crissy lunch afterwards at mimi's. we all got breakfast, but whatever. my confirmation is on sunday and i can't wait until this is all over and done with. i'm really glad i did it now, though and didn't delay it any longer. after this is over, i can concentrate more on my GRE studying, while i'm also picking out a school. man, the shit just keeps coming, don't it? oh well... it's good to be busy... makes me feel alive and like i'm a productive citizen of this here country. yeeeehawwwwwwwww.... see, didn't i say i was tired?
insomnia is a pain in my mother-grubbin butt
hi. why am i blogging at 1:30am when i should be sleeping? good question. i haven't the answer except for the fact that i tossed and turned for about an hour trying to go to sleep and to no avail. so, here i am, blogging away. i thought about turning on the tv, but i didn't think that would help. i really need to be sleeping, though, my day is going to start in 6 hours and probably won't stop until well after midnight. things are hustling and bustling this week... and it ain't no joke. and i'm sure that's what the insomnia is about... i have a thousand things on my mind, so i can't let my mind rest and go to sleep. also, i had a handful of bad dreams last night. yes, not just one, but a few, so maybe i'm a little apprehensive about letting myself slip into another dream state. one of my dreams was really scary, but since i like to look up dreams and meaning, and good scientific stuff like that, i know that my dream was what they call an "obstacle" dream. essentially, if you have dreams where you are running somewhere or trying to overcome something, or tackle a problem, it is mirroring your "conscious" life in that you are indeed having a battle somewhere in your life. and basically, what happens in your dream is a good forteller as to whether or not you'll be able to overcome your problem. and lucky enough for me, i actually did what i had to do. seriously, the dream was scary and i'll just say i was being hurt in the dream, but i came out of it okay. probably pretty traumatized had it happened in real life, but still, i came out kickin' and that's good to know. so, i'm gonna have faith that all this stress i'm going thru will be worth it cause things will surely fall into place. hmmmm... who knew you could be so insightful at such a late hour?
i have my baptism tomorrow, actually today. and i have my confirmation on sunday. neng and ronald are going to start moving tomorrow night and we need to start painting so we can have our carpet installed on friday. then, kyle moves in this weekend. it'll be nutty. (btw, andy and meya are sleeping so peacefully and it is making me crazy. get this, they are spooning! i swear, that dog thinks she's a person)
man, this entry is taking a long time for me to type cause now i'm just looking at stuff on the internet that i don't really give a rat's ass about. WHOA! MOTHER BITCH... it's 2:30am??? how did it get to 2:30 when i wasn't paying attention????!!! damn.... it doesn't feel like an hour has passed... lordy, lordy. i really need to sleep. i'm gonna be dead tired tomorrow and i definitely don't want that crud. i'm gonna log off blogger and finish talking to my cousin online. yay for fellow insomniacs!
hi. why am i blogging at 1:30am when i should be sleeping? good question. i haven't the answer except for the fact that i tossed and turned for about an hour trying to go to sleep and to no avail. so, here i am, blogging away. i thought about turning on the tv, but i didn't think that would help. i really need to be sleeping, though, my day is going to start in 6 hours and probably won't stop until well after midnight. things are hustling and bustling this week... and it ain't no joke. and i'm sure that's what the insomnia is about... i have a thousand things on my mind, so i can't let my mind rest and go to sleep. also, i had a handful of bad dreams last night. yes, not just one, but a few, so maybe i'm a little apprehensive about letting myself slip into another dream state. one of my dreams was really scary, but since i like to look up dreams and meaning, and good scientific stuff like that, i know that my dream was what they call an "obstacle" dream. essentially, if you have dreams where you are running somewhere or trying to overcome something, or tackle a problem, it is mirroring your "conscious" life in that you are indeed having a battle somewhere in your life. and basically, what happens in your dream is a good forteller as to whether or not you'll be able to overcome your problem. and lucky enough for me, i actually did what i had to do. seriously, the dream was scary and i'll just say i was being hurt in the dream, but i came out of it okay. probably pretty traumatized had it happened in real life, but still, i came out kickin' and that's good to know. so, i'm gonna have faith that all this stress i'm going thru will be worth it cause things will surely fall into place. hmmmm... who knew you could be so insightful at such a late hour?
i have my baptism tomorrow, actually today. and i have my confirmation on sunday. neng and ronald are going to start moving tomorrow night and we need to start painting so we can have our carpet installed on friday. then, kyle moves in this weekend. it'll be nutty. (btw, andy and meya are sleeping so peacefully and it is making me crazy. get this, they are spooning! i swear, that dog thinks she's a person)
man, this entry is taking a long time for me to type cause now i'm just looking at stuff on the internet that i don't really give a rat's ass about. WHOA! MOTHER BITCH... it's 2:30am??? how did it get to 2:30 when i wasn't paying attention????!!! damn.... it doesn't feel like an hour has passed... lordy, lordy. i really need to sleep. i'm gonna be dead tired tomorrow and i definitely don't want that crud. i'm gonna log off blogger and finish talking to my cousin online. yay for fellow insomniacs!
4.26.2003
home on a saturday night
there is abso-fuckin-lutely nothing to do. i've been working on my comments thing for the past hour and a half. i wasn't able to put the smilies back cause they wouldn't even move or do anything, so i just at least tried to get it to look like i wanted. i'll try the smilies later. anyway, today was productive for the most part. i went and dropped off the oodles of paint at the hazardous waste center and then spent a few hours at barnes and noble studying with neng and ronald. me and andy were also supposed to go somewhere after he got off work, but he's retarded so we didn't. i was so aggravated i wanted to rip my hair out. but anyway, i'm bored and i know i don't have anything else to do. i could clean my closet. but really, who even wants to do that?
we watched "anger management" last night. it was funny. quite enjoyable. i'm done blabbing.
there is abso-fuckin-lutely nothing to do. i've been working on my comments thing for the past hour and a half. i wasn't able to put the smilies back cause they wouldn't even move or do anything, so i just at least tried to get it to look like i wanted. i'll try the smilies later. anyway, today was productive for the most part. i went and dropped off the oodles of paint at the hazardous waste center and then spent a few hours at barnes and noble studying with neng and ronald. me and andy were also supposed to go somewhere after he got off work, but he's retarded so we didn't. i was so aggravated i wanted to rip my hair out. but anyway, i'm bored and i know i don't have anything else to do. i could clean my closet. but really, who even wants to do that?
we watched "anger management" last night. it was funny. quite enjoyable. i'm done blabbing.
4.25.2003
4.24.2003
i'm rockin all over the place
look at me go... look at me go! alright, i just got off the phone and i have registered for my GRE exam.... EEEKS! i'm skurrred, man. it is at the end of july, so i have about 3 months...now i'm getting a little nervous. i need to start studying my ass off. i brought half of my flash cards with all the vocab that my study book gave and andy was sitting next to me watching me study, and i was separating the words into words i really know and words i need to study. and sadly so... the words i know pile was alot smaller. andy just laughed at me. damn, i seriously need to start studying my ass off.... HELP!
look at me go... look at me go! alright, i just got off the phone and i have registered for my GRE exam.... EEEKS! i'm skurrred, man. it is at the end of july, so i have about 3 months...now i'm getting a little nervous. i need to start studying my ass off. i brought half of my flash cards with all the vocab that my study book gave and andy was sitting next to me watching me study, and i was separating the words into words i really know and words i need to study. and sadly so... the words i know pile was alot smaller. andy just laughed at me. damn, i seriously need to start studying my ass off.... HELP!
good for me
finally. i finally got a hold of the priest that is supposed to do my conditional baptism. and it is a good day for the lady that is helping me with my confirmation so it's all set. i'm feeling a bit better about the things i've been slacking on. i'm actually being very productive in my search for a graduate school, i have a few more things to care of before this confirmation stuff, so i think i'm on my way. this week actually has gone pretty fast for me. definitely considering i only worked 3 days last week. it's probably cause i know i have alot to do, and you know when you have a lot to do there just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day. but when you're somewhere you hate or you are trying to kill time, the seconds seem to tick away like it will never end. things are funny that way, i guess.
so i made chili again last night. it wasn't very hot, but it was alright. last time i thought i made it too hot so i got all paranoid, so it wasn't hot at all... and apparently to andy, the chili being hot is what makes it chili. he's crazy.
oh, i also finally got my corrected tax return today. yippee! i get to make some big payments on my credit cards. what a bonus.
finally. i finally got a hold of the priest that is supposed to do my conditional baptism. and it is a good day for the lady that is helping me with my confirmation so it's all set. i'm feeling a bit better about the things i've been slacking on. i'm actually being very productive in my search for a graduate school, i have a few more things to care of before this confirmation stuff, so i think i'm on my way. this week actually has gone pretty fast for me. definitely considering i only worked 3 days last week. it's probably cause i know i have alot to do, and you know when you have a lot to do there just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day. but when you're somewhere you hate or you are trying to kill time, the seconds seem to tick away like it will never end. things are funny that way, i guess.
so i made chili again last night. it wasn't very hot, but it was alright. last time i thought i made it too hot so i got all paranoid, so it wasn't hot at all... and apparently to andy, the chili being hot is what makes it chili. he's crazy.
oh, i also finally got my corrected tax return today. yippee! i get to make some big payments on my credit cards. what a bonus.
4.22.2003
i'm just poop
does procrastinating make you feel like the worst, poopiest, laziest person in the world? hmmmm.... maybe it's just me. i actually don't always feel like this when i know i'm procrastinating, but i guess i feel like i've been slacking on tons of things, so it is just now getting to me. granted, i have been legitimately busy. but even when i'm not... such as sitting right here in front of my computer at work when i could be doing other things, i choose not to. i've been doing this all day. i woke up early this morning because i knew i had a few things to take care of before i went to work, and i actually did what i had to do, but when i got to work, i knew i had other stuff to do besides surf the internet, but i didn't do any of it. poopoo for me. i have been slacking on making an appointment to get my baptism done. i think that's making me feel the worst cause i know it's important and it's something i need to do. they can't find any of the paper work for my baptism, so the priest at St. Michael's is just going to perform an impromptu "conditional" baptism so i can go on with my confirmation. and i was supposed to call 3 weeks ago... (ewwww, i just looked at the calendar and realized it has been 3 weeks and i feel AWFUL), but i still haven't done it. my confirmation is in a week and a half and i'm still sitting around with my thumb up my ass. well, i actually did call this morning, but he wasn't there so i just left a message. hopefully, he called me today at home and i can call him back tomorrow. we can't play phone tag forever cause these nanoseconds of time that i'm using to lag are starting to run short. damnit... and i know it's my fault... darntootin.
so, i got a letter from the IRS yesterday. yes, they are making the correction and they will be sending my money shortly. AMEN. it probably took 2 stupid months to fix this, and the moron that probably entered the numbers wrong into the computer that only gave me $.86 for my return probably already got his/her return and is running around happily with nothing to worry about.
i'm cranky today. i don't know why. i've been like this all day at work, just kinda ho-hummin around. it's probably stress. our house is starting to look more and more like those people that suffer from the psychological disease "hoarding." we just have stacks and stacks of crap everywhere. i should probably go home and start cleaning out our closet and organizing crap. OR i could go home and take a nap. hmm, it's a toss up, we'll see what happens.
does procrastinating make you feel like the worst, poopiest, laziest person in the world? hmmmm.... maybe it's just me. i actually don't always feel like this when i know i'm procrastinating, but i guess i feel like i've been slacking on tons of things, so it is just now getting to me. granted, i have been legitimately busy. but even when i'm not... such as sitting right here in front of my computer at work when i could be doing other things, i choose not to. i've been doing this all day. i woke up early this morning because i knew i had a few things to take care of before i went to work, and i actually did what i had to do, but when i got to work, i knew i had other stuff to do besides surf the internet, but i didn't do any of it. poopoo for me. i have been slacking on making an appointment to get my baptism done. i think that's making me feel the worst cause i know it's important and it's something i need to do. they can't find any of the paper work for my baptism, so the priest at St. Michael's is just going to perform an impromptu "conditional" baptism so i can go on with my confirmation. and i was supposed to call 3 weeks ago... (ewwww, i just looked at the calendar and realized it has been 3 weeks and i feel AWFUL), but i still haven't done it. my confirmation is in a week and a half and i'm still sitting around with my thumb up my ass. well, i actually did call this morning, but he wasn't there so i just left a message. hopefully, he called me today at home and i can call him back tomorrow. we can't play phone tag forever cause these nanoseconds of time that i'm using to lag are starting to run short. damnit... and i know it's my fault... darntootin.
so, i got a letter from the IRS yesterday. yes, they are making the correction and they will be sending my money shortly. AMEN. it probably took 2 stupid months to fix this, and the moron that probably entered the numbers wrong into the computer that only gave me $.86 for my return probably already got his/her return and is running around happily with nothing to worry about.
i'm cranky today. i don't know why. i've been like this all day at work, just kinda ho-hummin around. it's probably stress. our house is starting to look more and more like those people that suffer from the psychological disease "hoarding." we just have stacks and stacks of crap everywhere. i should probably go home and start cleaning out our closet and organizing crap. OR i could go home and take a nap. hmm, it's a toss up, we'll see what happens.
4.21.2003
eczema.... grrrroooossss
lol... no, i'm not hating on people with eczema. that's a quote from "big daddy" and it makes me laugh because when i said it, chakee was the only person who got it. anyway, i'm itching like a mad woman. i get these flare ups of eczema and right now, i have a huge patch on my leg. i feel like a leper cause i can't stop scratching it and even though i know scratching it is making it worse, i continue to do it cause it's driving me up the wall. eeeeeks... i'm about to scream cause i want to chop my leg off!!!!!
i had a very fun weekend... hungover and tiring, but it was definitely fun. it is just absolutely not a good idea to get drunk and party until 4 in the morning two nights in a row. it's not advisable even though it may seem like a good idea at the time.
things have been pretty eventful lately. and it probably won't stop for another few weeks. with the moving; neneng and ronald moving out, kyle moving in, us moving into the other room, and confirmation is coming up and just all sorts of other craziness, we will be busy, busy, busy. i'm trying not to stress, but i know the next couple of weeks are gonna be out of control.
oh, one last thought, and only andy and his friends are gonna get this but "get rid of it! eat it! swallow it! who cares, just throw it out the window!" LOL.... whewwy.... good times, man, good times. i am such a funny monkey when i'm drunk!!! LOL
lol... no, i'm not hating on people with eczema. that's a quote from "big daddy" and it makes me laugh because when i said it, chakee was the only person who got it. anyway, i'm itching like a mad woman. i get these flare ups of eczema and right now, i have a huge patch on my leg. i feel like a leper cause i can't stop scratching it and even though i know scratching it is making it worse, i continue to do it cause it's driving me up the wall. eeeeeks... i'm about to scream cause i want to chop my leg off!!!!!
i had a very fun weekend... hungover and tiring, but it was definitely fun. it is just absolutely not a good idea to get drunk and party until 4 in the morning two nights in a row. it's not advisable even though it may seem like a good idea at the time.
things have been pretty eventful lately. and it probably won't stop for another few weeks. with the moving; neneng and ronald moving out, kyle moving in, us moving into the other room, and confirmation is coming up and just all sorts of other craziness, we will be busy, busy, busy. i'm trying not to stress, but i know the next couple of weeks are gonna be out of control.
oh, one last thought, and only andy and his friends are gonna get this but "get rid of it! eat it! swallow it! who cares, just throw it out the window!" LOL.... whewwy.... good times, man, good times. i am such a funny monkey when i'm drunk!!! LOL
4.16.2003
bloggety, blog, blog, blog.....
i don't really have much to talk about it. i'm at work.... i usually don't come in until 12:30pm, but our office manager is in the corporate office all day, so she asked me to come in a little early to back up the other woman that works here and that woman is leaving early cause she's driving to tucson tonight. i don't know if it was the best idea cause here i am twiddling my thumbs, but nonetheless... i'm already here. anyway, we got back from arizona at 3:30am on tuesday morning. we would have gotten home earlier had we not been carrying everything and it's dog on rob's truck, but we came home with oodles of furniture that everyone gave us, so we had to put it on there, then figure out how to cover it cause everyone was telling us that there was a storm in san diego that was moving towards arizona. anyway, we got home alright and now our house looks like it is being eaten alive from the inside out by furniture. it's nuts. i tried suggesting to andy that we put all that extra furniture over at kyle's house until kyle moves in, but andy doesn't want to have to move all that stuff again from kyle's to our house. so, rather, it is piling from the floor to the ceiling with endless amounts of furniture. we're going to have to start burrowing through our tiny little condo because it is coming at us at all angles. anyway, i ought to do something productive. i have a shitload of filing to do cause someone is moving to our corporate office and he cleaned out his office, but i think i will save that wonderful and entertaining task (yup, sarcasm) for something to look forward to later this afternoon. hmm.... GRE studying sounds like a good idea. not really, but i can't avoid it forever, i guess.
i don't really have much to talk about it. i'm at work.... i usually don't come in until 12:30pm, but our office manager is in the corporate office all day, so she asked me to come in a little early to back up the other woman that works here and that woman is leaving early cause she's driving to tucson tonight. i don't know if it was the best idea cause here i am twiddling my thumbs, but nonetheless... i'm already here. anyway, we got back from arizona at 3:30am on tuesday morning. we would have gotten home earlier had we not been carrying everything and it's dog on rob's truck, but we came home with oodles of furniture that everyone gave us, so we had to put it on there, then figure out how to cover it cause everyone was telling us that there was a storm in san diego that was moving towards arizona. anyway, we got home alright and now our house looks like it is being eaten alive from the inside out by furniture. it's nuts. i tried suggesting to andy that we put all that extra furniture over at kyle's house until kyle moves in, but andy doesn't want to have to move all that stuff again from kyle's to our house. so, rather, it is piling from the floor to the ceiling with endless amounts of furniture. we're going to have to start burrowing through our tiny little condo because it is coming at us at all angles. anyway, i ought to do something productive. i have a shitload of filing to do cause someone is moving to our corporate office and he cleaned out his office, but i think i will save that wonderful and entertaining task (yup, sarcasm) for something to look forward to later this afternoon. hmm.... GRE studying sounds like a good idea. not really, but i can't avoid it forever, i guess.
4.13.2003
this migraine is going to kill me, i swear
man, why do i suffer from these migraines... they are killer. i've had it ALL day. anyway, i'm in arizona... and if the heat wasn't enough of a pain in the ass, the migraine is pushing me over the edge. i wasn't going to blog tonight, but andy's mom put a computer in her guest room, so i figured before i went to sleep, i would type out a blog. it has been a LOOOONNNNNGGGG day. we got into arizona around 3:30am. we went to kyle's parents house out in BFS (butt-effin-surprise {uh-huh, the city is called 'surprise'}) so we slept there until 10:30am, then hung out with them until 1 pm and left to becca's house to drop off neneng and ronald's couches that they are giving to them. anyway, who cares about the mundane details of my entire day because i don't really feel like specifying every little thing we did because my head was hurting so much, i just wanted to crawl into a hole. we did go to my favorite restaurant out here, and that was good. tomorrow is supposed to be another long day, so who even knows why we are up still when it is almost 1 am. andy wants me to go around and look at jewelry stores out here to see if i find anything i like. maybe i can get andy's mom to go with me to do that tomorrow while andy and kyle work on andy's mom's house. oh, geez... i can't take this migraine anymore, i have to close my eyes and release myself into a state of unconsciousness. goodnight sweetheart... well, it's time to go.....
oh, funny story. at the restaurant tonight, the balloon animal guy was at our table and there was this other table who was getting ready to leave... they had a little baby, so andy said he could make the baby's balloon animal before his (yes, andy wanted a balloon animal) and the balloon guy asked the baby's name and the mom said his name was "zachary" and the guy was like "zachary? or do you call him zack?" and the mom goes "yeah, zack is okay." and the dude goes.... "oh, like zack morris from saved by the bell?" WOW. there are very few people in the world who make daily events into references to saved by the bell. THERE'S NO TIME, THERE'S NEVER ANY TIME.....
man, why do i suffer from these migraines... they are killer. i've had it ALL day. anyway, i'm in arizona... and if the heat wasn't enough of a pain in the ass, the migraine is pushing me over the edge. i wasn't going to blog tonight, but andy's mom put a computer in her guest room, so i figured before i went to sleep, i would type out a blog. it has been a LOOOONNNNNGGGG day. we got into arizona around 3:30am. we went to kyle's parents house out in BFS (butt-effin-surprise {uh-huh, the city is called 'surprise'}) so we slept there until 10:30am, then hung out with them until 1 pm and left to becca's house to drop off neneng and ronald's couches that they are giving to them. anyway, who cares about the mundane details of my entire day because i don't really feel like specifying every little thing we did because my head was hurting so much, i just wanted to crawl into a hole. we did go to my favorite restaurant out here, and that was good. tomorrow is supposed to be another long day, so who even knows why we are up still when it is almost 1 am. andy wants me to go around and look at jewelry stores out here to see if i find anything i like. maybe i can get andy's mom to go with me to do that tomorrow while andy and kyle work on andy's mom's house. oh, geez... i can't take this migraine anymore, i have to close my eyes and release myself into a state of unconsciousness. goodnight sweetheart... well, it's time to go.....
oh, funny story. at the restaurant tonight, the balloon animal guy was at our table and there was this other table who was getting ready to leave... they had a little baby, so andy said he could make the baby's balloon animal before his (yes, andy wanted a balloon animal) and the balloon guy asked the baby's name and the mom said his name was "zachary" and the guy was like "zachary? or do you call him zack?" and the mom goes "yeah, zack is okay." and the dude goes.... "oh, like zack morris from saved by the bell?" WOW. there are very few people in the world who make daily events into references to saved by the bell. THERE'S NO TIME, THERE'S NEVER ANY TIME.....
4.11.2003
it's not contagious, is it?
nope, i'm not talking about SARS. i've been wanting to blog about this for a few days, but i haven't had the time. i was just wondering if people out there are ever around someone who is so toxic and negative, you begin to wonder how much more you can stand. and before anyone asks who i'm talking about... it's NOBODY i'm related to. anyway, i think it's weird to be having a conversation with someone and everything they are doing and saying is coming straight from a place that's vindictive and angry. i don't know... i think i had more stuff to say about this, but i don't really feel like it.
nope, i'm not talking about SARS. i've been wanting to blog about this for a few days, but i haven't had the time. i was just wondering if people out there are ever around someone who is so toxic and negative, you begin to wonder how much more you can stand. and before anyone asks who i'm talking about... it's NOBODY i'm related to. anyway, i think it's weird to be having a conversation with someone and everything they are doing and saying is coming straight from a place that's vindictive and angry. i don't know... i think i had more stuff to say about this, but i don't really feel like it.
4.09.2003
that's what happens when you've known someone since pre-pubescence
so i'm talking to crissy on the phone last night and crissy comments how interesting my dream was that i blogged about. andy being the nosy chicken that he is, asked what we were talking about. he heard me mention the girl from 3rd grade and goes "what girl?" so i tell him thinking he wouldn't know who i was talking about. well, looky at that... he knew exactly who i was talking about... "OHHHHH, CHARLENE MCCALLISTER. i REMEMBER her......" he proceeds to describe her, telling me about how she lived off base (which i didn't know) and told me she lived in an apartment (something I also didn't know) and i'm like "how do you know she lived in an apartment off base?" "oh, cause i went to her house." "huh??? why did you go to her house?" then he told me about how he went to her house for a birthday party and apparently, they were in a closet together. my assumption is that they were measuring so that they could fit the closet for carpet, but he says nothing happened in there. goodness gracious, you think you know someone forever and a day... but then you learn new stuff like this... IT BLOWS MY MIND.
so i'm talking to crissy on the phone last night and crissy comments how interesting my dream was that i blogged about. andy being the nosy chicken that he is, asked what we were talking about. he heard me mention the girl from 3rd grade and goes "what girl?" so i tell him thinking he wouldn't know who i was talking about. well, looky at that... he knew exactly who i was talking about... "OHHHHH, CHARLENE MCCALLISTER. i REMEMBER her......" he proceeds to describe her, telling me about how she lived off base (which i didn't know) and told me she lived in an apartment (something I also didn't know) and i'm like "how do you know she lived in an apartment off base?" "oh, cause i went to her house." "huh??? why did you go to her house?" then he told me about how he went to her house for a birthday party and apparently, they were in a closet together. my assumption is that they were measuring so that they could fit the closet for carpet, but he says nothing happened in there. goodness gracious, you think you know someone forever and a day... but then you learn new stuff like this... IT BLOWS MY MIND.
4.08.2003
high school reunion
i had the most bizarre dream last night. i dreamt that i went to my high school reunion. and of course, it's not the kind of thing where i go "wait, my high school reunion isn't for another 3 years. what kind of dream is this?" well, the high school reunion part wasn't really the strangest part. the strange part was that i was at home getting ready to go and someone who had been to the reunion, came to my house to tell me that this girl... who i used to go to elementary school with at williams told people things about my life. and not just ordinary joe blow kinda things, but things about my life that are little sore spots that i don't particulary like. the girl's name was charlene mccallister, and the weird part was that i didn't even know her for that long and she didn't even live on the base for a long time so it's not as if she was a major part of my life. BUT the thing about her was that i was completely envious of this girl. i'm talking, this was WAY back, like in the 2nd or 3rd grade. i look back now, and i guess she had the life i wanted... she just seemed like she had everything, and she was so put together and all the guys liked her. and now that i think about it, i think she was just being raised by her mom, and who knows what even happened to her, so she probably didn't even have this life that i needed to envy. but i guess that's the thing about being jealous of other people... those other people probably don't even have it as good as you may think they do so it's pointless to sit there and want what someone else has. but anyway, back to my dream.... so i finally get ready and head on over to the reunion. strangely enough, andy doesn't go to it with me and i bring crissy. i don't know what that was about, but that's just the way it happened. and i even remember thinking... "i'm gonna have to explain to people why andy's not with me and i brought my cousin as my date." not that i hate crissy, but i didn't even have an explanation as to why andy wasn't with me. so, i go and as i'm walking in, i see jeff (yes, jeff from the good old high school days) and we exchange our cordial "hey, how's it going" type deals and i ask him if he's heard anything about me. and he tells me all the stuff he's heard about what charlene is telling everyone. so, crissy and i walk in searching for charlene. but we never find her... and i don't talk to anyone else in there. actually, maybe i did talk to people, but i don't remember who they were, and i don't even think they were people i went to high school with. so crissy and i leave to go to starbucks. we're in line getting coffee and who do i see? andrea's mom... yes, my old best friend's mom is in line at starbucks and i start chit-chatting with her. she tells me how andrea's doing and asks me about the reunion, and that's all i remember from that dream. i wonder what it means??? it's just so crazy.
has anyone else noticed that time seems to fly now that we've changed our clocks? or is that just me?..... it's probably just me.
i had the most bizarre dream last night. i dreamt that i went to my high school reunion. and of course, it's not the kind of thing where i go "wait, my high school reunion isn't for another 3 years. what kind of dream is this?" well, the high school reunion part wasn't really the strangest part. the strange part was that i was at home getting ready to go and someone who had been to the reunion, came to my house to tell me that this girl... who i used to go to elementary school with at williams told people things about my life. and not just ordinary joe blow kinda things, but things about my life that are little sore spots that i don't particulary like. the girl's name was charlene mccallister, and the weird part was that i didn't even know her for that long and she didn't even live on the base for a long time so it's not as if she was a major part of my life. BUT the thing about her was that i was completely envious of this girl. i'm talking, this was WAY back, like in the 2nd or 3rd grade. i look back now, and i guess she had the life i wanted... she just seemed like she had everything, and she was so put together and all the guys liked her. and now that i think about it, i think she was just being raised by her mom, and who knows what even happened to her, so she probably didn't even have this life that i needed to envy. but i guess that's the thing about being jealous of other people... those other people probably don't even have it as good as you may think they do so it's pointless to sit there and want what someone else has. but anyway, back to my dream.... so i finally get ready and head on over to the reunion. strangely enough, andy doesn't go to it with me and i bring crissy. i don't know what that was about, but that's just the way it happened. and i even remember thinking... "i'm gonna have to explain to people why andy's not with me and i brought my cousin as my date." not that i hate crissy, but i didn't even have an explanation as to why andy wasn't with me. so, i go and as i'm walking in, i see jeff (yes, jeff from the good old high school days) and we exchange our cordial "hey, how's it going" type deals and i ask him if he's heard anything about me. and he tells me all the stuff he's heard about what charlene is telling everyone. so, crissy and i walk in searching for charlene. but we never find her... and i don't talk to anyone else in there. actually, maybe i did talk to people, but i don't remember who they were, and i don't even think they were people i went to high school with. so crissy and i leave to go to starbucks. we're in line getting coffee and who do i see? andrea's mom... yes, my old best friend's mom is in line at starbucks and i start chit-chatting with her. she tells me how andrea's doing and asks me about the reunion, and that's all i remember from that dream. i wonder what it means??? it's just so crazy.
has anyone else noticed that time seems to fly now that we've changed our clocks? or is that just me?..... it's probably just me.
4.07.2003
is that a hole thru your eyebrow? or are you just happy to see me?
yeah, i don't understand what that means, either, but it sounded like a good title. andy and kyle got their eyebrows pierced this weekend. it was a pretty entertaining thing to watch. i still really want to watch someone get their tongue pierced cause when i got mine done, i closed my eyes so tight which prevented any viewing of what was going on. but i do want to see it get done... so, if you or anyone you know is gonna get it done, send me an invite cause i wanna watch. anyway, i guess kyle was feeling on the same 'ole, same 'ole side and wanted to do something... andy talked him into getting something pierced and said if he did it, andy would do it too. so, we have two boys with identical right eyebrow piercings. it's funny when andy accidentally hits it and he wants to punch somebody. i feel his pain, dude. anyway, i'm really curious to see how long andy will keep his in. i'm kinda indifferent about it. i don't particularly hate it on him, and it's not like the kind of thing where i'm like "wow, it looks super good on you" so i don't care either way. i think that's how he feels about my tongue ring.
so, i put earrings back in all of the holes in my ears and if that wasn't a challenge enough, the first time i picked up the phone at work, i put it to my ear and hit all of those earrings and my poor little sore ear. boohoo for me.
funny story... my boss is a pretty funny guy. anyway, he asked me a question today, and i answered him, and his response was "coolness." this is a middle-aged white man who is a VP of a company. i say "umm... i don't think that's the kind of lingo you're supposed to be using." and he goes "really? because i was just about to say (and this is referring to his previous question) that brian was the bomb." it was funny. he cracks me up... it's fun to work for a boss like that.
anyway, i had a talk with someone last night. i just wanted to tell you not to let the bullshit that people say affect who you are. i know you said it doesn't bother you, but i just want you to know it's not true. and you also said you know it's not true, but i want to make sure it's ingrained in your head. scary things start to happen when people believe other people who say crap like that, so i want you to know that i'm on your side. and just know that when people say that stuff, it is usually coming from THEIR OWN INSECURITY. so let them deal with their own neuroses (look it up) and you do your thang. and that's all i gotta say about that.
wow, it has taken me almost an hour to type up this blog cause i'm at work. everyone keeps giving me little stuff to work on, so i'm distracted, but not by anything too pressing for my attention. also, i'm wearing "torture me" kinda shoes, so i gotta give my feeties a little break every once in a while.
yeah, i don't understand what that means, either, but it sounded like a good title. andy and kyle got their eyebrows pierced this weekend. it was a pretty entertaining thing to watch. i still really want to watch someone get their tongue pierced cause when i got mine done, i closed my eyes so tight which prevented any viewing of what was going on. but i do want to see it get done... so, if you or anyone you know is gonna get it done, send me an invite cause i wanna watch. anyway, i guess kyle was feeling on the same 'ole, same 'ole side and wanted to do something... andy talked him into getting something pierced and said if he did it, andy would do it too. so, we have two boys with identical right eyebrow piercings. it's funny when andy accidentally hits it and he wants to punch somebody. i feel his pain, dude. anyway, i'm really curious to see how long andy will keep his in. i'm kinda indifferent about it. i don't particularly hate it on him, and it's not like the kind of thing where i'm like "wow, it looks super good on you" so i don't care either way. i think that's how he feels about my tongue ring.
so, i put earrings back in all of the holes in my ears and if that wasn't a challenge enough, the first time i picked up the phone at work, i put it to my ear and hit all of those earrings and my poor little sore ear. boohoo for me.
funny story... my boss is a pretty funny guy. anyway, he asked me a question today, and i answered him, and his response was "coolness." this is a middle-aged white man who is a VP of a company. i say "umm... i don't think that's the kind of lingo you're supposed to be using." and he goes "really? because i was just about to say (and this is referring to his previous question) that brian was the bomb." it was funny. he cracks me up... it's fun to work for a boss like that.
anyway, i had a talk with someone last night. i just wanted to tell you not to let the bullshit that people say affect who you are. i know you said it doesn't bother you, but i just want you to know it's not true. and you also said you know it's not true, but i want to make sure it's ingrained in your head. scary things start to happen when people believe other people who say crap like that, so i want you to know that i'm on your side. and just know that when people say that stuff, it is usually coming from THEIR OWN INSECURITY. so let them deal with their own neuroses (look it up) and you do your thang. and that's all i gotta say about that.
wow, it has taken me almost an hour to type up this blog cause i'm at work. everyone keeps giving me little stuff to work on, so i'm distracted, but not by anything too pressing for my attention. also, i'm wearing "torture me" kinda shoes, so i gotta give my feeties a little break every once in a while.
4.05.2003
smilies on my comments are down for a bit until i figure out how to fix them. i really should integrate the saying "if it ain't broke, don't fix it" into my life. i messed with it and now i regret it.... gosh darnit.
4.03.2003
i can't stand the boredom
i'm here at work and i can't believe i get paid to sit here and examine my cuticles. i'm tired, so anything that requires concentration of more than 2 minutes and 3.7 seconds makes me want to put my head down and sleep. i'm trying to do my GRE stuff, but as you can imagine it isn't the most stimulating and entertaining thing to be doing. i don't even have anything i need to be doing on the internet, especially since our internet is like turtles. i want to be in bed sleeping. i got up to go to my dentist appt. this morning and luckily it wasn't as painful as last week. this is so pointless... SEND ME HOME.
i'm here at work and i can't believe i get paid to sit here and examine my cuticles. i'm tired, so anything that requires concentration of more than 2 minutes and 3.7 seconds makes me want to put my head down and sleep. i'm trying to do my GRE stuff, but as you can imagine it isn't the most stimulating and entertaining thing to be doing. i don't even have anything i need to be doing on the internet, especially since our internet is like turtles. i want to be in bed sleeping. i got up to go to my dentist appt. this morning and luckily it wasn't as painful as last week. this is so pointless... SEND ME HOME.
