live well. laugh often. LOVE much.

i went to see the professor i've been volunteering for for the past year and a half to talk about graduate schools. i've been feeling pretty worried that all the schools i had on my "to apply to" list were probably all going to be really hard schools to get in and i was just gonna have to sit on my hands and be sad cause nobody wants to admit me into their school. but she reassured me that i will get into a program on my list. and that was good enough for me. i had 12 schools on my list and i cut 2 of them out because i was asking her about each school specifically, and she told me it would be worthwhile for me to cut them if i was trying to save money. and seeing as how i don't have the endless supply of cash to apply everywhere "just in case they do let me in", i've gotta be quite selective. basically, those two schools are competitive and REALLY tough to get into and she didn't really have the connections to pull some strings for me. and i needed her to be completely honest instead of trying to cushion the blow for me and be like "well, they MIGHT let you in." that's just a waste of time and money. but there is one school, with one faculty member that she does know that may help me alot, so that's really cool. i'm beginning to feel lots better about this application process. i even brought her my transcript grades, my GRE scores, and information about all the schools i was looking at just so she could give me a better picture of where i stand with all the schools i might apply to. it was so helpful, and i'm so glad i talked to her about it. whew... now i can wipe some of that sweat off my brow.

i got some not-so-great news yesterday morning. then i got some good news about a friend of mine last night. then, this morning, i got some bad news about another one of my friends. life is definitely weird. i only have a few more minutes left of work, and like usual, it was long stretches of nothing to do, followed by insane rush-rush-rush get something done kinda feeling. anyway, off i go, but not before i finish my beer here at work. you heard it folks, i'm having a beer at work.

i got this email from one of my co-workers... pretty trippy, if i do say so myself.

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Kinda makes you wonder why we even went to school, huh???

Yippeee.... i have finally finished LOTR: the two towers. i've been reading that one for a while, and this morning, i just started the third and last book of lord of the rings. the second book goes alot further than the 2nd movie, so i'm beginning to feel like i know the secrets to what's going to happen in the last movie. oh, this is super fun.

we went to a pool party last night. i had to go on the bathing suit hunt, seeing as how it is september and there really aren't stores that are trying to sell bathing suits. i finally found one at gone bananas in PB, and their sale is "buy one top, get a bottom for free." anyway, the party was fun... a bunch of people i didn't know, but that was cool. my friend and her 3 friends are renting out this house in UC that's 4 bedrooms, family room, living room, it has a pool and jacuzzi and the house is just huge. my friend pays $525/ month, and poor kyle, he could pay $25 more dollars a month and live at THAT house. oh well... we have the dogs and kyle loves our dogs, so maybe that's the trade off.

the speedometer on my car goes up to 155mph. sometimes i just wish i could open it up and go that fast because seriously, that would be so fun.

i'm bored. i've been bored all day. being bored has to be one of the most useless feelings. i have things to do, but that's all boring, too.

you wouldn't believe how much of this jennifer lopez/ben affleck media i've been reading. and why? it's not as if i particularly like either of them that much. so then why do i even bother clicking on the links? probably cause i like gossip just like any average joe.

who ever heard of a weekend long migraine? nobody, i say. but i sure did have a helluva (she's so fine) time this weekend. it attacked me late, late, friday night, then it just accompanied me all weekend until i could take no more. i tried everything... excedrin migraine, andy massaging my neck, even an hour long in a bath with epsom salt and none of it did anything. i didn't even want to get out of bed. then, as wonderful things that migraines are, i threw up on sunday because of it. see, if you didn't know, sometimes (along with other painful, side-splitting side effects) migraines make you feel nauseous and thus, why i threw up. it was wretched. but i do feel better today. and that's good cause i've had to work while i had a migraine and i just about killed myself.

ooh, my mom got me really bomb-diggity bags from the philippines.

"i think she's the best thing that ever happened to you."

i have a funny story. so last night was just a chill friday. andy and me went and grabbed carl's jr. for dinner and then we came back home and andy and kyle started playing tecmo bowl on nintendo and we just had the stereo on. we were listening to kyxy and i decided i wanted to request a song. the first song i wanted, she didn't have. so i asked for another song, and she didn't have that either. i just told her i'd call back, and i did... and she played the song i wanted right after i called. so kyle wanted a song by this 90's band named firehouse. we told him to dedicate it to andy and when he asked for this one song, they didn't have it, but she told him they had "love of a lifetime" by firehouse and he said to go ahead and play that. he asked if he could dedicate it to andrew, and she asked his name and he said "kyle." but when they played the song, she said "and that was love of a lifetime going out to andrew, from kay." what a way to cheat. that wasn't right. come on.

wow, this week has gone by fast. i'm so glad today is friday and nobody is really in the office, so today should be a relaxed day. i also stayed up too late last night when i had a long day yesterday. but anyway.

i don't really have alot to say. i guess that's because i've been keeping alot of thoughts to myself. probably cause i want to work everything out on my own, i guess. why even bother mentioning it, huh? i don't know. whatever. i guess i'm just like that... i don't need to blah, blah, blah everything. i like to keep things to myself. i like to work things out in my own head. i like to get past my own shit and move on.

my mom and neneng come home from the philippines tonight. my mom is supposed to bring me some stuff that i requested, so i'm excited about that. and poor sebastian has been pretty depressed without my mom. but hooray for things imported from the philippines.

my search for a graduate school is starting to narrow down. i started with over 30 schools, and now i'm down to 14, so that's getting better. my plan is to get it down to less than 10 and start applying, but the thought of paying for all those applications is making my head spin. it's gonna get costly, but i'm just gonna have to suck it up. too bad i don't have those wealthy parents or that massive trust fund to pay for all of this, plus the thousands to pay for graduate school. hmmm... that was a little bitter, wasn't it? sure it is, but why shouldn't i be???!!! just kidding. sucking it up is all part of becoming a stronger person, man. cowboy the fuck up.

well, i gotta go do something work-related. i'm feeling a little feisty. it probably has to do with my monthly visitor.

so, RIP john ritter... i truly appreciated three's company.

it was an interesting weekend. on friday, we didn't do anything. andy and i went to subway, where the AC wasn't on so it was a thousand degrees in there, to grab a couple sandwiches and while we started to get delirious from the heat, we were laughing cause one of the sandwich makers did something funny. he looked up at us and pretty much called us out for laughing at the subway workers, and andy told him we were just laughing at him. the dude took it in stride, but i would have rather had andy lie to him and tell him we were laughing at something else.

on saturday, i got up to battle all the other costco shoppers and just about killed myself in there cause it was madness. heat does that, i guess. i even forgot to buy hamburger patties, but remembered hamburger buns. that was a lame thing to do.

we went to justin's party. yet another fun-filled astro-jump party. kyle and andy got to smell goat being cooked, andy made a little boy cry, and i snagged myself a grab bag.

after that, andy, kyle and i went home and got ready to go to in cahoots. we got ready, picked up my friend, katie and had a good time there. that wasn't really my first country bar (we went to that one bar in arizona that had 5 different rooms, and one of them was a country room, and i also went to that one country bar in texas) but anyway, they played little stints of hip hop/pop music in between the country music, so i got to dance to that. they even played 50 cent, so that was impressive. but it was fun and the birthday girl was really happy that we went, so that made it worthwhile. we're gonna have to see if i'd ever go back. the drinks were a crap load cheaper than any bar downtown, so it definitely got points for that.

we tried mustering up energy to go to dog beach yesterday but it was too stinkin hot. man, the heat was definitely trying to kill us.

well, happy 17th birthday, chakee! 17 was a fun, great, and awesome year for me, so i hope it brings the same to you!!!

yeah, it's been a while since i've posted. couldn't really come up with anything to post about other than "hey, nothing happening here." so i haven't bothered. and i don't have much to say right now, but i thought i'd give a visit. so, we're obsessed with "paradise hotel." have you seen this show? there's only 3 weeks left, so if you catch it now, it's pretty pointless. it's on twice a week, and that was such a brilliant idea. we can't get enough of it. i don't really watch much reality tv these days... real world, road rules, and everything in between is pretty much out of my loop (queer eye for the straight guy... is that reality tv? if so, i DO watch that), but man, paradise hotel is so much fun to watch. the people are such trash and are so evil that you can't help but revel in these people's ridiculousness. but whatever... i'm gonna go so i can write a friend of mine a letter.

the phones at work have been ringing so constantly all day, i want to bang my phone against the wall. it's a good thing i'm not very physically violent.