1.29.2003
breyanna michelle
i got really sad news tonight. my friend, kelley's, daughter died last night. i blogged about it when she was born. she was only 1 month and 1 week old and i feel so horrible for kelley. death just leaves such a horrible, bottomless feeling inside of you, i can't imagine anything in the world feels this bad. kelley's husband called me at my mom's house and i guess toto gave him our phone number here and since i wasn't home, neneng left me a voicemail on my cel-phone. i called when i got home and to listen to her tell me what happened was so painful. she just kinda choked back tears while she talked and i just cried with her. this is such a bad, bad feeling. they are having a service on friday and i'm hoping my work will be okay with me taking it off even though i just took last friday off. andy is saying he will go with me up to riverside, so that is comforting. i can't imagine they won't let me go to a funeral, but who even knows what is going on there from day to day. i feel bad that i never went up there to go see kelley after she had her. i don't know. i just don't feel okay. i don't like this feeling and it is too familiar and i guess i just wish this feeling didn't exist. i'm just sad. sad, sad, sad....... :(
i got really sad news tonight. my friend, kelley's, daughter died last night. i blogged about it when she was born. she was only 1 month and 1 week old and i feel so horrible for kelley. death just leaves such a horrible, bottomless feeling inside of you, i can't imagine anything in the world feels this bad. kelley's husband called me at my mom's house and i guess toto gave him our phone number here and since i wasn't home, neneng left me a voicemail on my cel-phone. i called when i got home and to listen to her tell me what happened was so painful. she just kinda choked back tears while she talked and i just cried with her. this is such a bad, bad feeling. they are having a service on friday and i'm hoping my work will be okay with me taking it off even though i just took last friday off. andy is saying he will go with me up to riverside, so that is comforting. i can't imagine they won't let me go to a funeral, but who even knows what is going on there from day to day. i feel bad that i never went up there to go see kelley after she had her. i don't know. i just don't feel okay. i don't like this feeling and it is too familiar and i guess i just wish this feeling didn't exist. i'm just sad. sad, sad, sad....... :(
1.28.2003
crissy + ebay = severed relationship.... soooo, sooo sad
crissy, i'm sorry this whole ebay thing is just not working out for you. i can't imagine that it could have even gone more horrible than the way it worked out, it's nuts. damn, if my transactions with ebay worked out like that i'd lose my mind.
work was so painfully boring today. for the first hour and a half i had a bunch of stuff to do, but since then, i've been twiddling my thumbs. i tried reading, but that was making me fall asleep. i'm reading "fellowship of the ring" in case you were wondering. it's not that it's completely boring, it's just that it's alot of blah, blah, blah. i really want to read the last book, the return of the king, but it would be retarded to read that one without reading the first two. so, i'm just trying to get through it as quickly as possible. i'm alot farther than neneng, at least. i have about an eighth of it left.
okay, what is the deal with this hamer guy on kyle's tagboard? and is this the same person that is talking shit on j's? i don't get it. neneng was all up in an uproar last night about the whole thing. i thought she was gonna start kicking somebody's ass. it was funny just to watch her get mad (as if she was going to track this person down and do some damage) and it's because of neneng's deep-rooted need to protect her cousins. i told her she wasn't going to kick anybody's ass and she was going to actually have ronald do it. but i would give her props if she could actually find out who this person is and hurt them.
uggghhhhh, i'm so aggravated with this whole job search. i have a job and it's not like my children (well, my hypothetical children) are starving, but i think now it is starting to bother me just the fact that nobody is hiring and the potential of even getting another job isn't there. i haven't left the mira mesa area and i'm ruling out all food places, so that is limiting me a little bit, but geez, there's so many businesses in mira mesa, you'd think i'd find ONE place that is hiring. i gotta go to target after work. we are in desperate need of some essentials and i've been putting it off for a while. hmmmm....here's a final thought: i would just be happy if other people weren't ruining it for me. it's not something i personally think, but i thought i'd just put it out there. la-laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........
crissy, i'm sorry this whole ebay thing is just not working out for you. i can't imagine that it could have even gone more horrible than the way it worked out, it's nuts. damn, if my transactions with ebay worked out like that i'd lose my mind.
work was so painfully boring today. for the first hour and a half i had a bunch of stuff to do, but since then, i've been twiddling my thumbs. i tried reading, but that was making me fall asleep. i'm reading "fellowship of the ring" in case you were wondering. it's not that it's completely boring, it's just that it's alot of blah, blah, blah. i really want to read the last book, the return of the king, but it would be retarded to read that one without reading the first two. so, i'm just trying to get through it as quickly as possible. i'm alot farther than neneng, at least. i have about an eighth of it left.
okay, what is the deal with this hamer guy on kyle's tagboard? and is this the same person that is talking shit on j's? i don't get it. neneng was all up in an uproar last night about the whole thing. i thought she was gonna start kicking somebody's ass. it was funny just to watch her get mad (as if she was going to track this person down and do some damage) and it's because of neneng's deep-rooted need to protect her cousins. i told her she wasn't going to kick anybody's ass and she was going to actually have ronald do it. but i would give her props if she could actually find out who this person is and hurt them.
uggghhhhh, i'm so aggravated with this whole job search. i have a job and it's not like my children (well, my hypothetical children) are starving, but i think now it is starting to bother me just the fact that nobody is hiring and the potential of even getting another job isn't there. i haven't left the mira mesa area and i'm ruling out all food places, so that is limiting me a little bit, but geez, there's so many businesses in mira mesa, you'd think i'd find ONE place that is hiring. i gotta go to target after work. we are in desperate need of some essentials and i've been putting it off for a while. hmmmm....here's a final thought: i would just be happy if other people weren't ruining it for me. it's not something i personally think, but i thought i'd just put it out there. la-laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........
1.27.2003
MURDER was the case that they gave me
it has been a while since i last blogged, and i've not been in the mood, so i haven't. all weekend i've been nursing this migraine brought on by my good friend, aunt flow. "uhh, mr. hall, i was surfing the crimson wave, i had to haul ass to the ladies." damn, it's fun being a girl. :)
anyway, jury duty brought much more entertainment than anticipated. ronald and i went on a friday, which now i understand and will have to do it the next time i'm called, and it turned out cool cause there was hardly anyone there and they were only trying to find jurors for two trials. one of the trials was supposed to last 3 weeks, and if you could do that, they needed you to commit for that long. the other one was supposed to be an average kinda deal, which is probably 3-4 days, if that even. anyway, nobody at my work said anything about how long i could be gone, so i went for it and just sat back to see if i could get seated for the 3 week trial. well, they started calling names at about 10am and i was called.... i walk in and the judge (who was the judge for the westerfield pre-trial... a semi-celebrity, i'd have to say) begins to tell us that this will be a criminal trial. okay, this is fine by me, the thoughts of what actually constitute a criminal trial didn't really run through my head, so i wasn't thinking anything of it. he then proceeds to tell us the penal code of the law that has been broken and why this person is being prosecuted. let's see, he utters the words "ms. (yes, a ms.) so and so is being charged with penal code ONE EIGHTY-SEVEN(A)." now, i've listened to enough rap songs and am down enough with the lingo to know this woman is being charged with HOMICIDE. HELLO???!!! it was crazy. i can't even begin to explain. anyway, to make the story short (cause i've told it a thousand times) i didn't get chosen. i was in juror seat #2, and the prosecution dismissed me. i was a little on the fence as to whether or not i wanted to be on the jury. they were going to show autopsy photos and all... and the trippier part was that she was filipino. not that i don't believe filipinos can't break the law, but i know her witnesses would have been her family and i would have had to listen to that fob accent until my eyes fell out. but it was definitely a bad-ass experience. it would have been cool to serve on a civil trial for like 2-3 days about something lame like people suing cause they are fat from eating mcDonald's, but i wasn't so lucky. MURDER WAS THE CASE THAT THEY GAVE ME (say it like you are snoop dogg).
another story from that fun day was that in the morning, these two guys were going around downtown begging for change (but for some reason, they had fooled themselves into believing they had legitimate reasons for begging for money) and ronald gave one of the guys a quarter and the other one tried to ask me and (if you know me, cause i was telling the truth) i told him i didn't have any change (or cash, for that matter) on me. so later that day as i'm sitting and waiting for neneng, crissy, chakee and trizza to pick me up that same dude comes up to me. he walks up to me and has the balls to say "um, do you speak english?" excuse me, mother fucker??? did you just insult me when i know you are going to proceed to beg me for money???? it caught me so off guard that i just looked at him in disbelief and uttered a half-laughing, half-you are a dumb shit "yeah." and he goes "do you have 3 quarters that i can have for the trolley?" so i say "nope, and this is the 2nd time you've asked me today." AND THEN (no and then) AND THEN (no and then) he goes "no, you're the first person i've asked today." okay, maybe if i had made that "this is the 2nd time" shit up, i would have believed him, but it REALLY was the 2nd time he'd asked me. i just couldn't believe it. homeboy had some balls. it still makes me laugh.
saturday was pretty lame. i had no luck finding a job. which, btw, in case you didn't know, mike (of auntie ting) is working at the shoe pavillion here in mira mesa. i told him to hook it up in case he hears about any openings. i have to make a couple follow up calls tomorrow, but it's nothing that sounds too promising. they are opening a bed, bath, and beyond (and since i LOVE blankets, and sheets and comforters) that would be a bad-ass job. they aren't opening until march, but i want to find something in the mean-time just to earn some extra cash. it sucks being an adult.
well, i gotta go. battle of the sexes is on. ooooh, oooooh, i LOVE the drama. i don't like drama in my own life, but much more entertaining to watch!
it has been a while since i last blogged, and i've not been in the mood, so i haven't. all weekend i've been nursing this migraine brought on by my good friend, aunt flow. "uhh, mr. hall, i was surfing the crimson wave, i had to haul ass to the ladies." damn, it's fun being a girl. :)
anyway, jury duty brought much more entertainment than anticipated. ronald and i went on a friday, which now i understand and will have to do it the next time i'm called, and it turned out cool cause there was hardly anyone there and they were only trying to find jurors for two trials. one of the trials was supposed to last 3 weeks, and if you could do that, they needed you to commit for that long. the other one was supposed to be an average kinda deal, which is probably 3-4 days, if that even. anyway, nobody at my work said anything about how long i could be gone, so i went for it and just sat back to see if i could get seated for the 3 week trial. well, they started calling names at about 10am and i was called.... i walk in and the judge (who was the judge for the westerfield pre-trial... a semi-celebrity, i'd have to say) begins to tell us that this will be a criminal trial. okay, this is fine by me, the thoughts of what actually constitute a criminal trial didn't really run through my head, so i wasn't thinking anything of it. he then proceeds to tell us the penal code of the law that has been broken and why this person is being prosecuted. let's see, he utters the words "ms. (yes, a ms.) so and so is being charged with penal code ONE EIGHTY-SEVEN(A)." now, i've listened to enough rap songs and am down enough with the lingo to know this woman is being charged with HOMICIDE. HELLO???!!! it was crazy. i can't even begin to explain. anyway, to make the story short (cause i've told it a thousand times) i didn't get chosen. i was in juror seat #2, and the prosecution dismissed me. i was a little on the fence as to whether or not i wanted to be on the jury. they were going to show autopsy photos and all... and the trippier part was that she was filipino. not that i don't believe filipinos can't break the law, but i know her witnesses would have been her family and i would have had to listen to that fob accent until my eyes fell out. but it was definitely a bad-ass experience. it would have been cool to serve on a civil trial for like 2-3 days about something lame like people suing cause they are fat from eating mcDonald's, but i wasn't so lucky. MURDER WAS THE CASE THAT THEY GAVE ME (say it like you are snoop dogg).
another story from that fun day was that in the morning, these two guys were going around downtown begging for change (but for some reason, they had fooled themselves into believing they had legitimate reasons for begging for money) and ronald gave one of the guys a quarter and the other one tried to ask me and (if you know me, cause i was telling the truth) i told him i didn't have any change (or cash, for that matter) on me. so later that day as i'm sitting and waiting for neneng, crissy, chakee and trizza to pick me up that same dude comes up to me. he walks up to me and has the balls to say "um, do you speak english?" excuse me, mother fucker??? did you just insult me when i know you are going to proceed to beg me for money???? it caught me so off guard that i just looked at him in disbelief and uttered a half-laughing, half-you are a dumb shit "yeah." and he goes "do you have 3 quarters that i can have for the trolley?" so i say "nope, and this is the 2nd time you've asked me today." AND THEN (no and then) AND THEN (no and then) he goes "no, you're the first person i've asked today." okay, maybe if i had made that "this is the 2nd time" shit up, i would have believed him, but it REALLY was the 2nd time he'd asked me. i just couldn't believe it. homeboy had some balls. it still makes me laugh.
saturday was pretty lame. i had no luck finding a job. which, btw, in case you didn't know, mike (of auntie ting) is working at the shoe pavillion here in mira mesa. i told him to hook it up in case he hears about any openings. i have to make a couple follow up calls tomorrow, but it's nothing that sounds too promising. they are opening a bed, bath, and beyond (and since i LOVE blankets, and sheets and comforters) that would be a bad-ass job. they aren't opening until march, but i want to find something in the mean-time just to earn some extra cash. it sucks being an adult.
well, i gotta go. battle of the sexes is on. ooooh, oooooh, i LOVE the drama. i don't like drama in my own life, but much more entertaining to watch!
1.24.2003
international coffee commercial
i had a really fun night last night. it was just us girls hanging out at my friend, brenda's, house. it's a cute little loft in lomas santa fe and we just had snacks and chatted. girlfriend doesn't have a tv, so we pretty much had no other option than to talk. but it was four girls, chatting around a coffee table, with cookies, brownies, cheese & salami & crackers, and chips & cheese dip. we didn't have any international coffee, we had beers, but other than that we might as well have been in one of those commercials....
so, can someone please tell me why i'm not sleeping right now??? it is 2am and i can't sleep worth a damn. i tried just laying there and closing my eyes, but that didn't work. then, i tried watching a little tv (and blair witch is on.... oooohhhhhhhh skurrrrryyyy!!!) but that didn't work either, so i went back to just laying in the dark, but then i figured, why fight it, and decided to turn on the computer. i've been looking at stuff on overstock.com and on target.com because i'm looking for something specific, and i WISH i could look on ebay, but those smart folks over there decided that every friday between 1am-3am PST (which is probably a time when most normal people wouldn't be needing ebay, except for us insomniacs), they would shut down for routine maintenance... just my luck, huh? my eyes will not close to save my life and i can't even search for stuff on ebay. which, by the way, i think it is worth mentioning that i received my second item from ebay today and it came wonderfully. the woman emailed me as soon as she recieved my payment and shipped it out on monday... and two to three days later --- VOILA! i get meya's collar. and it is the perfect size. too perfect actually. she fits on the very last notch of the collar and if she gains just a tiny bit more weight... she won't fit it... hmmm... then, i wonder what i'll do next.
i have to report to jury duty in 5 and a half hours... what in the hell am i doing blogging??!!! i'm starting to yawn so that must be a good sign. i'm gonna be so sleepy tomorrow and i highly doubt they are going to let us take naps there. at least ronald will be there so i don't have to be by myself and be insane in the membrane. it would rock to be chosen for a jury, but then at the same time, i'm hoping my day will end early. i don't think you can have it both ways, but if i can, that will be the ideal day for tomorrow. and me finishing fellowship of the ring while i'm there would be good, too.
i watched the 2nd episode of american idol today. neneng and ronald recorded it for me. hmmm... it just wasn't as funny as the first one. i thought maybe it was because i was watching it on tape by myself, but crissy confirmed that it wasn't as good as the first one. bummer. oh well. at least i have the fading memories of enrique on the floor writhing in pain...i mean, singing his ass off. well, wish me luck for tomorrow... hope that i get chosen for a jury but that i will also get to go home before lunch time. dreams are possible... you saw american idol auditions, didn't you?
1.22.2003
broke mariah
i didn't feel like posting last night after i finally finished working on my template, so i didn't get to talk about american idol. i didn't catch it until the last 45 minutes, but i must say; by far, that had to be the best 45 minutes of reality television that producers, executives, and god alike could have shown on national television. i was rolling on the ground and even yelling in my room by myself "show it again! show it again!" me and crissy were chatting online and that made the experience that much better because of the crap we were talking. anyway, that one girl who thought she was mariah was hilarious. i said she sounded like mariah on crack and crissy said she sounded like a broke mariah. i died. her singing... oh, god, the singing. and poor, poor enrique iglesias.... where is this delusional world that these people live in? i would like a ticket to that place, then i could believe i sing like mariah carey and that i'm married to orlando bloom. the BEST part is that this morning as i was driving to UCSD on Power 106 (an LA radio station which i get in my car and it kicks ass) replayed those two people!!! since i got a refresher of how mariah and enrique sounded, i could hear it in my head all day and i would just laugh out of nowhere while i was at work. they also interviewed randy jackson on the radio and he was saying that those people that actually get to audition in front of the 3 judges and make it on tv are actually pre-screened and they take the best 200. okay, i can't even imagine what those other people who are auditioning sound like if the ones who made it on TV sound that bad. they have to let some of those people in just to make good TV, or the people that go out for those open-calls are really, really sad. i might not watch the finals of american idol (meaning the top 10 and down to the winner) but this elimination process is priceless. i hope they have a reason to bring that episode back in reruns because if that tape just gets locked up in some vault titled "american idol: season 2" then that is a shame. i would pay good money to have that tape in my possession and get a good laugh when i need a pick-me-up. i really wonder if those people watch themselves on TV and feel mortified that they were swearing how good they were and ask themselves "do i really sound like that?" oh, man, that was some good ass TV.
i'm gonna go eat dinner now. i'm gonna go out and hang with the girls tonight. if you are wondering to which girls i'm referring, the girls i know from the lab at UCSD. i don't know what we are doing tonight, if we are going to hang out at one of the girl's house or go have a drink, but since andy has been working at that side-construction job for the past few nights and he's actually doing it tonight, too, i thought i would get out of the house instead of letting my brain rot with marvelous reality tv shows (but, i'm actually going to do my damndest to try to watch american idol at 8:30pm). and i don't have to get up early, so i'm out.
i didn't feel like posting last night after i finally finished working on my template, so i didn't get to talk about american idol. i didn't catch it until the last 45 minutes, but i must say; by far, that had to be the best 45 minutes of reality television that producers, executives, and god alike could have shown on national television. i was rolling on the ground and even yelling in my room by myself "show it again! show it again!" me and crissy were chatting online and that made the experience that much better because of the crap we were talking. anyway, that one girl who thought she was mariah was hilarious. i said she sounded like mariah on crack and crissy said she sounded like a broke mariah. i died. her singing... oh, god, the singing. and poor, poor enrique iglesias.... where is this delusional world that these people live in? i would like a ticket to that place, then i could believe i sing like mariah carey and that i'm married to orlando bloom. the BEST part is that this morning as i was driving to UCSD on Power 106 (an LA radio station which i get in my car and it kicks ass) replayed those two people!!! since i got a refresher of how mariah and enrique sounded, i could hear it in my head all day and i would just laugh out of nowhere while i was at work. they also interviewed randy jackson on the radio and he was saying that those people that actually get to audition in front of the 3 judges and make it on tv are actually pre-screened and they take the best 200. okay, i can't even imagine what those other people who are auditioning sound like if the ones who made it on TV sound that bad. they have to let some of those people in just to make good TV, or the people that go out for those open-calls are really, really sad. i might not watch the finals of american idol (meaning the top 10 and down to the winner) but this elimination process is priceless. i hope they have a reason to bring that episode back in reruns because if that tape just gets locked up in some vault titled "american idol: season 2" then that is a shame. i would pay good money to have that tape in my possession and get a good laugh when i need a pick-me-up. i really wonder if those people watch themselves on TV and feel mortified that they were swearing how good they were and ask themselves "do i really sound like that?" oh, man, that was some good ass TV.
i'm gonna go eat dinner now. i'm gonna go out and hang with the girls tonight. if you are wondering to which girls i'm referring, the girls i know from the lab at UCSD. i don't know what we are doing tonight, if we are going to hang out at one of the girl's house or go have a drink, but since andy has been working at that side-construction job for the past few nights and he's actually doing it tonight, too, i thought i would get out of the house instead of letting my brain rot with marvelous reality tv shows (but, i'm actually going to do my damndest to try to watch american idol at 8:30pm). and i don't have to get up early, so i'm out.
1.21.2003
what a pain in the ass
damn, changing around my template sucked. i worked on it the majority while i was at work, and since i've been home. this is not what i'm supposed to be doing. i'm supposed to be doing something else, but it was pissing me off that it wasn't right.
i don't really have much to say. i have to pick toto up from the airport at 10:45pm. eh, i'm done.
damn, changing around my template sucked. i worked on it the majority while i was at work, and since i've been home. this is not what i'm supposed to be doing. i'm supposed to be doing something else, but it was pissing me off that it wasn't right.
i don't really have much to say. i have to pick toto up from the airport at 10:45pm. eh, i'm done.
damn blogger and their stupid templates
i've been working on my new template for the past bazillion hours and it's not any good. so i just saved it and posted my old template back up until i have it the way i like it. so anyway...
i've been in a super shitty, cruddy mood lately. i'm not sure what it is. i guess it's part of the ups and downs. i don't know. i've just been feeling kinda ehhhhh lately. i'm not sure how much more i can verbalize (is that the word i'm looking for??? i don't think so) what my deal is except that i'm feeling like crap. i don't want to say anymore about it.
so i watched inside the actor's studio today, the one with mike myers... if you've never seen this show, it's on the bravo channel and andy makes me feel like the biggest nerd because i watch it. and admittedly, i feel like a nerd for watching it. anyway, with certain people, they make the show 2 hours long, and with mike myers, they did. in the beginning he talks about his childhood and what his father was like and all that stuff. anyway, about halfway through, the interviewer guy starts to talk about how alot of the people on there talk about how profoundly their lives change when they lose a parent, either by divorce or by death, and mike myers talks about how his dad died in '91. i guess, it's weird to think how losing a parent can be such a universal feeling. i guess maybe it would be different for people who barely knew their parent, or circumstances such as that, but i guess everyone can feel the same type of loss when a parent dies. i'm sure it is the same among parents who have lost children. they must all feel the same type of pain, too, meaning, they must all go through that "i should have gone first" stuff. well, the guy interviewing mike myers asked him how losing his father affected him, and i think he put it well when he said that when you lose a parent, you start to have to do the stuff that your parent did, for yourself. like he would go to his dad every week and tell him what he had done and his dad was the one who was always proud of him. so he had to start being proud of himself for stuff like that. if this isn't sounding too profound for you, it's probably because he said it better. i guess maybe it meant something to me because when my dad first died, all the normal thoughts went through my head and i started thinking about all the stuff my dad wasn't going to be there for. but the thing that really mattered and really killed me was that my dad wasn't going to be there for my college graduation. and that mattered because out of all the people in the world that really wanted us kids (meaning my brother and sister) to graduate from college, it was our dad (and my mom of course, but my dad was always the one who stayed on us about it), so it was mostly bitter sweet at my graduation. it meant alot for me to do it for myself, but i also know that it would have (and i'm sure it did --- because i believe in an afterlife) meant alot to my dad. i just think he hit it pretty right on and i knew what he was talking about. even though my dad wasn't there to see me graduate from college, i had to finish it and do it for myself... even though he wasn't there. but that's what mike myers meant. and i know the feeling. hmmmm..... i wonder if this stuff has to do with how i've been feeling lately.... geez, i wouldn't doubt it.
i've been working on my new template for the past bazillion hours and it's not any good. so i just saved it and posted my old template back up until i have it the way i like it. so anyway...
i've been in a super shitty, cruddy mood lately. i'm not sure what it is. i guess it's part of the ups and downs. i don't know. i've just been feeling kinda ehhhhh lately. i'm not sure how much more i can verbalize (is that the word i'm looking for??? i don't think so) what my deal is except that i'm feeling like crap. i don't want to say anymore about it.
so i watched inside the actor's studio today, the one with mike myers... if you've never seen this show, it's on the bravo channel and andy makes me feel like the biggest nerd because i watch it. and admittedly, i feel like a nerd for watching it. anyway, with certain people, they make the show 2 hours long, and with mike myers, they did. in the beginning he talks about his childhood and what his father was like and all that stuff. anyway, about halfway through, the interviewer guy starts to talk about how alot of the people on there talk about how profoundly their lives change when they lose a parent, either by divorce or by death, and mike myers talks about how his dad died in '91. i guess, it's weird to think how losing a parent can be such a universal feeling. i guess maybe it would be different for people who barely knew their parent, or circumstances such as that, but i guess everyone can feel the same type of loss when a parent dies. i'm sure it is the same among parents who have lost children. they must all feel the same type of pain, too, meaning, they must all go through that "i should have gone first" stuff. well, the guy interviewing mike myers asked him how losing his father affected him, and i think he put it well when he said that when you lose a parent, you start to have to do the stuff that your parent did, for yourself. like he would go to his dad every week and tell him what he had done and his dad was the one who was always proud of him. so he had to start being proud of himself for stuff like that. if this isn't sounding too profound for you, it's probably because he said it better. i guess maybe it meant something to me because when my dad first died, all the normal thoughts went through my head and i started thinking about all the stuff my dad wasn't going to be there for. but the thing that really mattered and really killed me was that my dad wasn't going to be there for my college graduation. and that mattered because out of all the people in the world that really wanted us kids (meaning my brother and sister) to graduate from college, it was our dad (and my mom of course, but my dad was always the one who stayed on us about it), so it was mostly bitter sweet at my graduation. it meant alot for me to do it for myself, but i also know that it would have (and i'm sure it did --- because i believe in an afterlife) meant alot to my dad. i just think he hit it pretty right on and i knew what he was talking about. even though my dad wasn't there to see me graduate from college, i had to finish it and do it for myself... even though he wasn't there. but that's what mike myers meant. and i know the feeling. hmmmm..... i wonder if this stuff has to do with how i've been feeling lately.... geez, i wouldn't doubt it.
1.18.2003
california rolls & chili
no, not a meal in which both are served together, but last night i made a japanese dinner, california rolls and all. miso soup, vegetable tempura, chicken teriyaki and rice, and california rolls with wasabi powder (that i mixed with water and got rave reviews!!). it was a pretty good dinner. i was a little worried about the chicken teriyaki not really tasting like teriyaki because i made the teriyaki sauce, but i think it came out pretty good. anyway, now i'm making chili for dinner tonight... it is stewing in my crock pot as we speak. i followed a recipe, but i added stuff that wasn't in the recipe so hopefully it will still come out good. but anyway, that is why i'm feeling so domestic.
i don't really have lots to say. congrats, crissy on winning your auction... i'm glad you feel good about ebay again, we would have missed you if you had dropped out of our ebay following. hmmm.... i have to go apply to some jobs today. geez, i just wish someone would just hire me already..... don't make me apply or interview, just hire me to sit on my ass and stare at the tv while i make $15/hour. if anyone knows of a job that fits all of that criteria, let me know!
no, not a meal in which both are served together, but last night i made a japanese dinner, california rolls and all. miso soup, vegetable tempura, chicken teriyaki and rice, and california rolls with wasabi powder (that i mixed with water and got rave reviews!!). it was a pretty good dinner. i was a little worried about the chicken teriyaki not really tasting like teriyaki because i made the teriyaki sauce, but i think it came out pretty good. anyway, now i'm making chili for dinner tonight... it is stewing in my crock pot as we speak. i followed a recipe, but i added stuff that wasn't in the recipe so hopefully it will still come out good. but anyway, that is why i'm feeling so domestic.
i don't really have lots to say. congrats, crissy on winning your auction... i'm glad you feel good about ebay again, we would have missed you if you had dropped out of our ebay following. hmmm.... i have to go apply to some jobs today. geez, i just wish someone would just hire me already..... don't make me apply or interview, just hire me to sit on my ass and stare at the tv while i make $15/hour. if anyone knows of a job that fits all of that criteria, let me know!
1.16.2003
MADE
i just wanna say that i typed up a post last night and it booted me out when i hit 'post.' i was already aggravated as it was, so i just blew it off and said i would do another one when i was in a better mood. i'm still a little irritated, but at least i don't want to inflict torturous pain... okay, so it wasn't THAT severe, but i was pretty pissed off. today at work has gone super fast. and i really enjoy that. it is already 4pm and as long as someone doesn't bring me something that i have to do in a rush and is extremely tedious and long, i will continue enjoying that.
andy and i watched mtv's MADE last night. it was the one about the girl who was in drama and decided for her senior year that she wanted to be a varsity cheerleader. crissy told me she watched it when it first came out, but i finally got a chance to sit down and watch the whole thing, and the show was very interesting. the girl had lost both of her parents within 8 months of each other and she was only 11 years old when her first parent died. i think i have a deeper undestanding now of people when i hear that they have lost one or both of their parents, not like an understanding of what i had before my dad died. i used to think "man, that would suck," but i think i feel alot differently about it now... and especially when people lose parents and they are at a younger age than i was when my dad died... but anyway, i'm getting off the topic. mtv assigned this girl a cheerleading coach and at the beginning she meets him and says how it may be a little hard because her coach is "SOOO, SOOOO CUTE" but i guess someone failed to mention to her that he was also "SOOO, SOOOO GAY." but it was really cool to watch her progress and i can say at the beginning of the show she really didn't look like the "cheerleading type" and a bunch of her friends were giving her shit for doing it, but by the end, she seemed like a different person. i'm thinking i might go on the show and say i want to be MADE into a Las Vegas show dancer.... okay, maybe not. andy cracks up every time he sees the commercial for the sly caps, which is the group of dorky guys who want to be MADE into a band.
i have recruited people into my ebay cult. neneng and crissy are now addicted and everyone can probably tell because i would imagine the majority of people that read my blog read theirs' as well, and for the past couple of days, that's what the two of them have been talking about. neneng has been successful at bidding and winning an auction, so now she is just waiting for the arrival of her ring. but somehow, crissy has not been so lucky. she has lost at least one auction already, at least that i know about, and is currently bidding again. for my current bid, i'm still waiting because my auction doesn't end until saturday. last i checked, i was winning, but in the world of ebay... that counts for crap, you just never know when someone is going to come and just bid a tiny bit more than you. and those are the people we want to punch.
i just wanna say that i typed up a post last night and it booted me out when i hit 'post.' i was already aggravated as it was, so i just blew it off and said i would do another one when i was in a better mood. i'm still a little irritated, but at least i don't want to inflict torturous pain... okay, so it wasn't THAT severe, but i was pretty pissed off. today at work has gone super fast. and i really enjoy that. it is already 4pm and as long as someone doesn't bring me something that i have to do in a rush and is extremely tedious and long, i will continue enjoying that.
andy and i watched mtv's MADE last night. it was the one about the girl who was in drama and decided for her senior year that she wanted to be a varsity cheerleader. crissy told me she watched it when it first came out, but i finally got a chance to sit down and watch the whole thing, and the show was very interesting. the girl had lost both of her parents within 8 months of each other and she was only 11 years old when her first parent died. i think i have a deeper undestanding now of people when i hear that they have lost one or both of their parents, not like an understanding of what i had before my dad died. i used to think "man, that would suck," but i think i feel alot differently about it now... and especially when people lose parents and they are at a younger age than i was when my dad died... but anyway, i'm getting off the topic. mtv assigned this girl a cheerleading coach and at the beginning she meets him and says how it may be a little hard because her coach is "SOOO, SOOOO CUTE" but i guess someone failed to mention to her that he was also "SOOO, SOOOO GAY." but it was really cool to watch her progress and i can say at the beginning of the show she really didn't look like the "cheerleading type" and a bunch of her friends were giving her shit for doing it, but by the end, she seemed like a different person. i'm thinking i might go on the show and say i want to be MADE into a Las Vegas show dancer.... okay, maybe not. andy cracks up every time he sees the commercial for the sly caps, which is the group of dorky guys who want to be MADE into a band.
i have recruited people into my ebay cult. neneng and crissy are now addicted and everyone can probably tell because i would imagine the majority of people that read my blog read theirs' as well, and for the past couple of days, that's what the two of them have been talking about. neneng has been successful at bidding and winning an auction, so now she is just waiting for the arrival of her ring. but somehow, crissy has not been so lucky. she has lost at least one auction already, at least that i know about, and is currently bidding again. for my current bid, i'm still waiting because my auction doesn't end until saturday. last i checked, i was winning, but in the world of ebay... that counts for crap, you just never know when someone is going to come and just bid a tiny bit more than you. and those are the people we want to punch.
1.14.2003
O God, not more ebay!!!???!!!
i am now officially obsessed with ebay. meya's collar ended up being a tad bit too big, so i have taken it off of her, and am now trying to find a size smaller and sell the one i've got. i would imagine that if her collar ended up being just the right size, i wouldn't have come back to ebay, but now i find myself thinking about things i could look for. that can't be good, especially considering how BROKE i am. i look for stuff, and i've been sending people (just neneng actually) auctions of stuff that i know they might want. it's terrible!! i've moved on from dog collars and now i'm looking at jewelry... god, not jewelry!! i've searched a few other things, but they haven't really kept my interest, i.e. different furniture, collectible kinda stuff. crissy, if you want matt to buy you a tiffany's ring for quite inexpensively, i would tell him to hit the ebay circuit. it totally rocks...(not that i've looked, of course)
i brought in the collar i bought for meya in case anyone at my work wanted to buy it from me (it would make my life easier if i didn't have to go through the entire ebay process) and started talking to this guy about it. and he informs me that he has a hook up at Coach... um, why would you not mention this bit of info prior to this moment???!!!! well, after talking to him a little later, and a little more in depth about it, he says he knew two girls, and one of the girls (the one he still talks to) doesn't work there anymore and the other girl who does still work there, he kinda lost touch with her, but there could still be a chance he could talk to her again. i made him promise that if he does talk to her, he NEEDS to hook me up. he said she could get coach stuff for FRIGGIN HALF PRICE. lordy. anyway, it is time to go home now. i might blog again later. what an ebay kinda day.
i am now officially obsessed with ebay. meya's collar ended up being a tad bit too big, so i have taken it off of her, and am now trying to find a size smaller and sell the one i've got. i would imagine that if her collar ended up being just the right size, i wouldn't have come back to ebay, but now i find myself thinking about things i could look for. that can't be good, especially considering how BROKE i am. i look for stuff, and i've been sending people (just neneng actually) auctions of stuff that i know they might want. it's terrible!! i've moved on from dog collars and now i'm looking at jewelry... god, not jewelry!! i've searched a few other things, but they haven't really kept my interest, i.e. different furniture, collectible kinda stuff. crissy, if you want matt to buy you a tiffany's ring for quite inexpensively, i would tell him to hit the ebay circuit. it totally rocks...(not that i've looked, of course)
i brought in the collar i bought for meya in case anyone at my work wanted to buy it from me (it would make my life easier if i didn't have to go through the entire ebay process) and started talking to this guy about it. and he informs me that he has a hook up at Coach... um, why would you not mention this bit of info prior to this moment???!!!! well, after talking to him a little later, and a little more in depth about it, he says he knew two girls, and one of the girls (the one he still talks to) doesn't work there anymore and the other girl who does still work there, he kinda lost touch with her, but there could still be a chance he could talk to her again. i made him promise that if he does talk to her, he NEEDS to hook me up. he said she could get coach stuff for FRIGGIN HALF PRICE. lordy. anyway, it is time to go home now. i might blog again later. what an ebay kinda day.
joe millionaire
i made an attempt at joe millionaire tonight. it couldn't hold my attention for more than 7 milliseconds. so, i just channeled it and put it on a rerun of something. anyway, i just spent a while reading websites regarding the real world/road rules battle of the sexes. god, i can't believe how interested i am in that. i wonder when it will get painfully old? i hope it's soon. i also spent some time talking to someone about how and why love and crushes work the way they do. sometimes, liking someone is a big fat pain in the caboose. it can be unbearable. but anyway, keep your head up. well, it's time to hit the sack. like i said on j's tagboard, if anyone is up for some thumbmaster any time soon, let me know and we will set it up! PARTY UP IN HERE!
i made an attempt at joe millionaire tonight. it couldn't hold my attention for more than 7 milliseconds. so, i just channeled it and put it on a rerun of something. anyway, i just spent a while reading websites regarding the real world/road rules battle of the sexes. god, i can't believe how interested i am in that. i wonder when it will get painfully old? i hope it's soon. i also spent some time talking to someone about how and why love and crushes work the way they do. sometimes, liking someone is a big fat pain in the caboose. it can be unbearable. but anyway, keep your head up. well, it's time to hit the sack. like i said on j's tagboard, if anyone is up for some thumbmaster any time soon, let me know and we will set it up! PARTY UP IN HERE!
1.13.2003
dude on a skateboard
a very amusing thing happened today. and if anyone would appreciate the humor of it, i sincerely wish J had been there. he would have laughed his ass off for hours on end. and i would feel bad for laughing at the guy, but i'm sure he was fine, so i can tell the story and even chuckle to myself every once in a while when i think about it. well, i was driving around UCSD this morning trying to get to the parking lot where there are a good number of metered parking (which is where i have to park since i can't get a parking permit or anything) and i come up to this little piece of road that is right before the parking lot and there is this guy skating towards me in my lane on his skateboard. i couldn't really tell what he was doing, so i kept driving, i wasn't driving super crazy fast (and this i know for sure because i was going to be turning right in about 10 feet) so i just figured he was going to go to my right which is where the sidewalk was.... instead, he turns to his right to go in the other lane... hmm... did i fail to mention that there was a car in that lane??? he was too busy looking straight ahead at me (mesmerized by my beauty, i'm sure) that he didn't even look to his right before he started going that way. and what did he do??? he ran right into that car on the driver side and rolled off the guy's hood!!!! i couldn't believe it. and the driver of the car didn't even look like it phased him, he actually looked annoyed with the skater guy. the skater's skateboard even ended up right under the car's drivers side tire. i was so stunned i didn't even stop to ask the guy if he was okay. lol... man, it was really funny. i'm sure he would have been more embarrassed if i had stopped and talked to him (sorta like on clueless when Tai falls and that guy asks her if she's alright cause it "looked pretty bad" and she just wanted to die), so i made sure he wasn't still there when i walked near the incident and he wasn't so i'm sure he walked away unscathed. but damn, it was one of the funniest things i've seen in a while. hmmm... that sure does make me sound like a super mean person.
a very amusing thing happened today. and if anyone would appreciate the humor of it, i sincerely wish J had been there. he would have laughed his ass off for hours on end. and i would feel bad for laughing at the guy, but i'm sure he was fine, so i can tell the story and even chuckle to myself every once in a while when i think about it. well, i was driving around UCSD this morning trying to get to the parking lot where there are a good number of metered parking (which is where i have to park since i can't get a parking permit or anything) and i come up to this little piece of road that is right before the parking lot and there is this guy skating towards me in my lane on his skateboard. i couldn't really tell what he was doing, so i kept driving, i wasn't driving super crazy fast (and this i know for sure because i was going to be turning right in about 10 feet) so i just figured he was going to go to my right which is where the sidewalk was.... instead, he turns to his right to go in the other lane... hmm... did i fail to mention that there was a car in that lane??? he was too busy looking straight ahead at me (mesmerized by my beauty, i'm sure) that he didn't even look to his right before he started going that way. and what did he do??? he ran right into that car on the driver side and rolled off the guy's hood!!!! i couldn't believe it. and the driver of the car didn't even look like it phased him, he actually looked annoyed with the skater guy. the skater's skateboard even ended up right under the car's drivers side tire. i was so stunned i didn't even stop to ask the guy if he was okay. lol... man, it was really funny. i'm sure he would have been more embarrassed if i had stopped and talked to him (sorta like on clueless when Tai falls and that guy asks her if she's alright cause it "looked pretty bad" and she just wanted to die), so i made sure he wasn't still there when i walked near the incident and he wasn't so i'm sure he walked away unscathed. but damn, it was one of the funniest things i've seen in a while. hmmm... that sure does make me sound like a super mean person.
1.12.2003
i gave myself a treat
that's actually something me and someone else laughed about. cause i give myself treats, like people give their dogs treats to reward them. anyway, i had starbucks yesterday and that is now a treat for me. i'm trying not to drink too much starbucks anymore and waste thousands (okay, maybe hundreds would be a tad closer) of dollars on coffee. i'm not even sure why i decided that. i just did. but i had starbucks yesterday and it wasn't that fantastic. so, maybe i'm not missing out on a lot, which is good to know.
yesterday was a pretty chill day. i applied to a couple jobs in the mira mesa marketplace, came home, ate, and vegged for about 5 hours. then we went to dinner at a chinese restaurant. came home, watched legally blonde, then putzed around a little more and me and andy watched brotherhood of wolf at 1am. that movie is 2 and a half hours long, and i was fighting to stay awake, but it was pretty good, so i was able to watch the whole thing. it was a lot better than i was expecting, and i completely thought it would be gory and scary, but it wasn't really. anyway, i got up this morning at 11:30am and we watched jerry maguire on showtime and now, i have nothing to do. i have a few things i could do, but i haven't really been in the mood. taking a nap sounds like a good option....
that's actually something me and someone else laughed about. cause i give myself treats, like people give their dogs treats to reward them. anyway, i had starbucks yesterday and that is now a treat for me. i'm trying not to drink too much starbucks anymore and waste thousands (okay, maybe hundreds would be a tad closer) of dollars on coffee. i'm not even sure why i decided that. i just did. but i had starbucks yesterday and it wasn't that fantastic. so, maybe i'm not missing out on a lot, which is good to know.
yesterday was a pretty chill day. i applied to a couple jobs in the mira mesa marketplace, came home, ate, and vegged for about 5 hours. then we went to dinner at a chinese restaurant. came home, watched legally blonde, then putzed around a little more and me and andy watched brotherhood of wolf at 1am. that movie is 2 and a half hours long, and i was fighting to stay awake, but it was pretty good, so i was able to watch the whole thing. it was a lot better than i was expecting, and i completely thought it would be gory and scary, but it wasn't really. anyway, i got up this morning at 11:30am and we watched jerry maguire on showtime and now, i have nothing to do. i have a few things i could do, but i haven't really been in the mood. taking a nap sounds like a good option....
1.11.2003
rudy huxtable
so, i had a completely different title for this blog earlier, but when andy woke up i decided to title it rudy huxtable. have you ever seen that episode on the cosby show when rudy makes this big ploy to be able to stay up late and cliff & claire let her? well, and so the inevitable ensues and rudy is unable to wake up in the morning, is cranky, and is eventually incapable of staying awake late because she's so tired. well, andy had to work today at 10am.... and lately he has been completely addicted to this game he plays on the computer. and last night i could have sworn he would go to sleep at a fairly reasonable time, but i ended up falling asleep during "austin powers, the spy who shagged me" and the last time i ended up waking up was around 2am and he was still playing his game. i've been up since 8:30am cause meya started spazzing because she was hungry and i let him sleep. i didn't know what time he had to wake up because he hadn't set his alarm, so i woke him up at 9:30am....and as he's getting ready he had the nerve to say "i'm.... tiiiirrreedddd..." dude, if he was looking for sympathy, he was looking in the wrong place. so i told him i didn't feel sorry for him, and i called him rudy huxtable. and he got the joke and tried to tell me that it wasn't funny, but he knows as well as i do that it sure as hell was. :)
damn, i have a shitload of errands to run this morning. i don't want it. and meya is pissing me off... but that's another story. andy and i ended up going to Karl Strauss for dinner last night. i don't particularly think that they have the best menu (cause it is quite limited in options), but i think it is a nice place. we couldn't agree on a place, but we were completely starving. so, we ended up eating there. well, i ought to get started on my errands... first things first, though... gotta take a shower!
so, i had a completely different title for this blog earlier, but when andy woke up i decided to title it rudy huxtable. have you ever seen that episode on the cosby show when rudy makes this big ploy to be able to stay up late and cliff & claire let her? well, and so the inevitable ensues and rudy is unable to wake up in the morning, is cranky, and is eventually incapable of staying awake late because she's so tired. well, andy had to work today at 10am.... and lately he has been completely addicted to this game he plays on the computer. and last night i could have sworn he would go to sleep at a fairly reasonable time, but i ended up falling asleep during "austin powers, the spy who shagged me" and the last time i ended up waking up was around 2am and he was still playing his game. i've been up since 8:30am cause meya started spazzing because she was hungry and i let him sleep. i didn't know what time he had to wake up because he hadn't set his alarm, so i woke him up at 9:30am....and as he's getting ready he had the nerve to say "i'm.... tiiiirrreedddd..." dude, if he was looking for sympathy, he was looking in the wrong place. so i told him i didn't feel sorry for him, and i called him rudy huxtable. and he got the joke and tried to tell me that it wasn't funny, but he knows as well as i do that it sure as hell was. :)
damn, i have a shitload of errands to run this morning. i don't want it. and meya is pissing me off... but that's another story. andy and i ended up going to Karl Strauss for dinner last night. i don't particularly think that they have the best menu (cause it is quite limited in options), but i think it is a nice place. we couldn't agree on a place, but we were completely starving. so, we ended up eating there. well, i ought to get started on my errands... first things first, though... gotta take a shower!
1.10.2003
a very weird dream
i had a disturbing dream last night. two people i know died in it. i can't remember who they were, so it probably wasn't anybody close to me or i probably would have remembered. i'm sure people think things like this should not be discussed (like my mom who is pretty superstitous - part of being a filipino woman, i guess), but i've adopted the idea that typically death in dreams mean a pregnancy is on its way.... NOT NECESSARILY MY OWN PREGNANCY, but just news of a pregnancy. so, i will sit back and await news that someone i know is pregnant. and i wonder why two people died in my dream? does that mean that two people i know will be pregnant? does it mean that the person who is pregnant will have twins?? we will just have to wait and see.
i got my ebay purchase today, and boy oh boy is it cute!! :) it was a quick turnaround and i have pretty good faith in the ebay process now. i would take some of it with a little skepticism, though, like i was looking at stuff that was saying that it's autographed by so & so, but i wouldn't necessarily take that as truth unless that person can provide evidence that it's authentic. but the collar looks pretty authentic, with the branded logo on the inside and all that good stuff. and meya seems to enjoy it, so i'm quite satisfied all around. everyone should join the world of ebay!
and i said i would update my thoughts on my overstock.com purchase. i got that pretty speedily so that's pretty cool, but i haven't washed it and tried it out yet, so i'm hoping it will live up to all of my expectations. but so far it is pretty cool. people should also join the world of overstock.com!
it has been a pretty weird day. i went to UCSD, but that wasn't necessarily too weird. but work was a little weird. there was a kind of funky, strange vibe going on today. not bad, but just out of the ordinary. it might have been because a head honcho guy from our corporate office was here most of the day, but everyone was acting a little goofy. including myself, i feel a little.... shmeagol-ish. that's the best word i have to describe. i'm hungry, and andy worked today from 10-5 so i'm hoping we can eat when i get home. oh, i met with some of my girlfriends that i used to work with from that dot com that laid me off last year. andy likes to call us "sex & the city" because we are a bunch of women who meet at restaurants and chat, as they do on the show. what a silly guy. :) we meet every so often and catch up on each other's lives and find out what has been going on at our old job. we met at bennigan's and it was pretty fun. i'm gonna go home now, that's all for me.
i had a disturbing dream last night. two people i know died in it. i can't remember who they were, so it probably wasn't anybody close to me or i probably would have remembered. i'm sure people think things like this should not be discussed (like my mom who is pretty superstitous - part of being a filipino woman, i guess), but i've adopted the idea that typically death in dreams mean a pregnancy is on its way.... NOT NECESSARILY MY OWN PREGNANCY, but just news of a pregnancy. so, i will sit back and await news that someone i know is pregnant. and i wonder why two people died in my dream? does that mean that two people i know will be pregnant? does it mean that the person who is pregnant will have twins?? we will just have to wait and see.
i got my ebay purchase today, and boy oh boy is it cute!! :) it was a quick turnaround and i have pretty good faith in the ebay process now. i would take some of it with a little skepticism, though, like i was looking at stuff that was saying that it's autographed by so & so, but i wouldn't necessarily take that as truth unless that person can provide evidence that it's authentic. but the collar looks pretty authentic, with the branded logo on the inside and all that good stuff. and meya seems to enjoy it, so i'm quite satisfied all around. everyone should join the world of ebay!
and i said i would update my thoughts on my overstock.com purchase. i got that pretty speedily so that's pretty cool, but i haven't washed it and tried it out yet, so i'm hoping it will live up to all of my expectations. but so far it is pretty cool. people should also join the world of overstock.com!
it has been a pretty weird day. i went to UCSD, but that wasn't necessarily too weird. but work was a little weird. there was a kind of funky, strange vibe going on today. not bad, but just out of the ordinary. it might have been because a head honcho guy from our corporate office was here most of the day, but everyone was acting a little goofy. including myself, i feel a little.... shmeagol-ish. that's the best word i have to describe. i'm hungry, and andy worked today from 10-5 so i'm hoping we can eat when i get home. oh, i met with some of my girlfriends that i used to work with from that dot com that laid me off last year. andy likes to call us "sex & the city" because we are a bunch of women who meet at restaurants and chat, as they do on the show. what a silly guy. :) we meet every so often and catch up on each other's lives and find out what has been going on at our old job. we met at bennigan's and it was pretty fun. i'm gonna go home now, that's all for me.
1.09.2003
tecmo bowl on nintendo
me and andy just got home half an hour ago. uh, yes, it is 4:35am. we were over at sean & kyle's (although sean wasn't there) and andy and kyle played nintendo (yes, just the original nintendo, with ONE controller, mind you) until the moment we left to come home. and they started at 10:30pm. what psychos. i was reading for a little bit and finally fell asleep on kyle's couch. i would drift in and out of sleep whenever they would start yelling about their game, but now that we're home, i can't get myself to fall asleep. andy is already passed out, and i figured if i just checked my email and watched a little boob tube, i would get a little drowsy. ugghhh, don't you hate when you get a 2nd wind and you don't even want it?? sleep... sleep.... sleep......
me and andy just got home half an hour ago. uh, yes, it is 4:35am. we were over at sean & kyle's (although sean wasn't there) and andy and kyle played nintendo (yes, just the original nintendo, with ONE controller, mind you) until the moment we left to come home. and they started at 10:30pm. what psychos. i was reading for a little bit and finally fell asleep on kyle's couch. i would drift in and out of sleep whenever they would start yelling about their game, but now that we're home, i can't get myself to fall asleep. andy is already passed out, and i figured if i just checked my email and watched a little boob tube, i would get a little drowsy. ugghhh, don't you hate when you get a 2nd wind and you don't even want it?? sleep... sleep.... sleep......
1.08.2003
the power of subtle persuasion
today has been kinda weird. i could not wake up this morning to get up and go to the lab, so i finally woke up a little after 8:30am (i'm supposed to be there at 9am..teehee) took a shower and was ready to leave at 9:05am. i get in my car thinking i will be there at 9:30am with no problem, but somehow i hit the bitchload of traffic on la jolla village drive. it took me almost half an hour to go about 4 blocks. and i was about to call them, but decided that made me look flaky, so i was just gonna keep going... but then, i see the traffic still on la jolla drive that is trying to get to north torrey pines road and realized that was going to take me another 20 minutes. i ended up calling the lab and said that i had been stuck in traffic and that there was still more traffic to go and i was just going to turn around and go home. and since nothing was going on today that needed my help, it was no big deal. so then, i started thinking about egg salad because one of my co-workers had mentioned it the other day. that's what the power of subtle persuasion is about. she just had to mention it and i had a mad craving for it. so i called crissy to ask her if they sell egg salad samiches at submarina and she said they didn't so i decided i was just going to make it myself, even if that meant i had to go to the grocery store on my way home. as i'm driving to the vons, crissy calls me and said now she wanted egg salad, too, so i told her she could come over and have some with me since i was making some. so, we had egg salad samiches and they were hella good. eggs, mayo, mustard, cucumbers, dill relish, red onion, salt, pepper, and paprika. that's my recipe and kinda just a combo of different recipes i saw on the internet. so, i got to work and everyone is pretty chill because the VP is at our corporate office in irvine. our marketing guy was trying to clean out his office since it has a crapload of holiday giveaway stuff, and he gave me two more of the chocolate shaped like champage bottles, and since he was giving me that, he gave me a basket that had been torn apart, but still had white wine and a few other neat things. it's nice that my desk is right by his office. :) anyway, i learned a few things today, information that just kinda fell into my lap. first of all, this 6th season of sex & the city that is supposed to start in february or march is supposed to be it's last.... sooooo sooo sad. i love that show. :( also, i found out that san diego is one of the cities that already has nationwide nextel direct connect.:) that's cool! to be able to use the walkie-talkie feature outside of your home area rocks, but you can't use it unless your home area has it (which obviously it does) and the area you're in has it (which will most typically be arizona) and they don't have it yet. it is saying in february that the phoenix/tucson area will have it and when it does, we will be able to direct connect andy's mom, which i think is super. and when we are there, we'll be able to direct connect my sister and ronald while they are here. pretty fancy! and another bit of information i got from andy. i don't want to go too much into it, but it's about andy's marine buddies and it just kinda sucks. well, this day has gone painfully slow, so that's probably all for me. i'm ready to go home.
today has been kinda weird. i could not wake up this morning to get up and go to the lab, so i finally woke up a little after 8:30am (i'm supposed to be there at 9am..teehee) took a shower and was ready to leave at 9:05am. i get in my car thinking i will be there at 9:30am with no problem, but somehow i hit the bitchload of traffic on la jolla village drive. it took me almost half an hour to go about 4 blocks. and i was about to call them, but decided that made me look flaky, so i was just gonna keep going... but then, i see the traffic still on la jolla drive that is trying to get to north torrey pines road and realized that was going to take me another 20 minutes. i ended up calling the lab and said that i had been stuck in traffic and that there was still more traffic to go and i was just going to turn around and go home. and since nothing was going on today that needed my help, it was no big deal. so then, i started thinking about egg salad because one of my co-workers had mentioned it the other day. that's what the power of subtle persuasion is about. she just had to mention it and i had a mad craving for it. so i called crissy to ask her if they sell egg salad samiches at submarina and she said they didn't so i decided i was just going to make it myself, even if that meant i had to go to the grocery store on my way home. as i'm driving to the vons, crissy calls me and said now she wanted egg salad, too, so i told her she could come over and have some with me since i was making some. so, we had egg salad samiches and they were hella good. eggs, mayo, mustard, cucumbers, dill relish, red onion, salt, pepper, and paprika. that's my recipe and kinda just a combo of different recipes i saw on the internet. so, i got to work and everyone is pretty chill because the VP is at our corporate office in irvine. our marketing guy was trying to clean out his office since it has a crapload of holiday giveaway stuff, and he gave me two more of the chocolate shaped like champage bottles, and since he was giving me that, he gave me a basket that had been torn apart, but still had white wine and a few other neat things. it's nice that my desk is right by his office. :) anyway, i learned a few things today, information that just kinda fell into my lap. first of all, this 6th season of sex & the city that is supposed to start in february or march is supposed to be it's last.... sooooo sooo sad. i love that show. :( also, i found out that san diego is one of the cities that already has nationwide nextel direct connect.:) that's cool! to be able to use the walkie-talkie feature outside of your home area rocks, but you can't use it unless your home area has it (which obviously it does) and the area you're in has it (which will most typically be arizona) and they don't have it yet. it is saying in february that the phoenix/tucson area will have it and when it does, we will be able to direct connect andy's mom, which i think is super. and when we are there, we'll be able to direct connect my sister and ronald while they are here. pretty fancy! and another bit of information i got from andy. i don't want to go too much into it, but it's about andy's marine buddies and it just kinda sucks. well, this day has gone painfully slow, so that's probably all for me. i'm ready to go home.
1.07.2003
my first try at ebay
so, i finally joined the world of online buying/selling/auctioning today. the other day neneng told me that she almost bought meya a COACH dog collar for christmas. so as i was bored at work today i decided to look up online what the collar looked like and decided it was too cute, so i finally found it on ebay and decided to give it a try. i called andy to hear what he thought of it and of course, he thought i was crazy, but said i could try if i wanted, and so i did. damn, that bastard is pretty expensive, but not that we haven't spent a bundle of money on meya before, but this is actually a little excessive. i mean, meya's crate was expensive, and so was this new set of bowls that we bought her for christmas was a little pricey, but it's not as if meya didn't already have a collar.... hmmm....i told andy not to let me think about it too much or i would start to suffer from "buyer's remorse." there really is no way to rationalize the whole thing, so i have to stop thinking about it until it gets here.
i made adobo for dinner tonight.... and it was friggin good!
so, i finally joined the world of online buying/selling/auctioning today. the other day neneng told me that she almost bought meya a COACH dog collar for christmas. so as i was bored at work today i decided to look up online what the collar looked like and decided it was too cute, so i finally found it on ebay and decided to give it a try. i called andy to hear what he thought of it and of course, he thought i was crazy, but said i could try if i wanted, and so i did. damn, that bastard is pretty expensive, but not that we haven't spent a bundle of money on meya before, but this is actually a little excessive. i mean, meya's crate was expensive, and so was this new set of bowls that we bought her for christmas was a little pricey, but it's not as if meya didn't already have a collar.... hmmm....i told andy not to let me think about it too much or i would start to suffer from "buyer's remorse." there really is no way to rationalize the whole thing, so i have to stop thinking about it until it gets here.
i made adobo for dinner tonight.... and it was friggin good!
1.06.2003
no holiday until May, wtf???
so, i'm at work and i'm bored stiff. it was such a weird day and i think that had alot to do with the fact that i didn't sleep until 2am. andy and i tried sleeping early, but as we were laying there andy goes "hey, are you sleeping?" and i said "no" so we thought maybe if we watched tv for a little bit, we would start to get sleepy. i eventually got tired, but i have no idea what time andy went to sleep. he didn't wake up until 2pm, so i'm guessing it was pretty late. anyway, i was planning on going to UCSD today even though i didn't have to, but i could not wake up to save my life. i finally woke up at 11:30am which gave me just enough time to get in the shower and get ready for work. i don't think i had even fully woken up at that point. driving to work was a little difficult, so that's why i was feeling a little discombobulated. i'm still feeling a little out of it. i wore my glasses today and when i don't put on my contacts, my eyes feel funky... like i'm not awake. it's hard to explain. anyway, it has been a super slow day, so that didn't help this feeling i have. i did have alot of time on my hands to search the internet. enough time to order from overstock.com which i probably shouldn't have, but it was such a deal! if you've never checked out that website and you are looking for something, you really should. things are so cheap and all the stuff i read had great reviews from people who bought that stuff. when i get what i ordered from there, i'll try to remember to post what i think of it and if it is worth the money. and it has a real cheap flat rate for shipping of $2.95. well, there... there was my plug for overstock.com...la----laaaaaa
so, today is the monday after the holidays. almost everyone looks so drained. i think the sucky part is that it's monday and it's the first monday without looking forward to anything at the end of the week. meaning, i know for damn sure that it's not going to be a short week, and the next holiday to look forward to is in another 4 months... 4 MONTHS??? damn, that's rough. i am taking 2 days off from work, though, when we got to shattle. that will be so fun. i've always wanted to go there, but i'm a little worried about the snowboarding. the snowboarding at tahoe was a little too much for me to handle. it was so curvy and much different than our little man-made snow on fairly non-steep hills here in socal. but i will think positively about this trip to washington. if this is the first time you've heard of this little trip and you are interested in going, let toto know. i don't think it is too late and it would be kick ass if more people went. i'm sure it will be hella fun. so far, it is me, andy, toto, j, and andy's little sister, alyssa. even if it is difficult, at least i will get to say i've boarded there. :) that's about a month and a half away, so i should probably be saving up for that trip and not buying stuff off the internet... oops :) well, i have about 5 more minutes before i can go home, so that's enough blogging for me. i can't believe how hot it was today... around 70 degrees. whoever heard of 70 degree weather in january??? that's san diego for you. i think i'm a little indifferent to that these days. yes, i'm referring to the weather.
so, i'm at work and i'm bored stiff. it was such a weird day and i think that had alot to do with the fact that i didn't sleep until 2am. andy and i tried sleeping early, but as we were laying there andy goes "hey, are you sleeping?" and i said "no" so we thought maybe if we watched tv for a little bit, we would start to get sleepy. i eventually got tired, but i have no idea what time andy went to sleep. he didn't wake up until 2pm, so i'm guessing it was pretty late. anyway, i was planning on going to UCSD today even though i didn't have to, but i could not wake up to save my life. i finally woke up at 11:30am which gave me just enough time to get in the shower and get ready for work. i don't think i had even fully woken up at that point. driving to work was a little difficult, so that's why i was feeling a little discombobulated. i'm still feeling a little out of it. i wore my glasses today and when i don't put on my contacts, my eyes feel funky... like i'm not awake. it's hard to explain. anyway, it has been a super slow day, so that didn't help this feeling i have. i did have alot of time on my hands to search the internet. enough time to order from overstock.com which i probably shouldn't have, but it was such a deal! if you've never checked out that website and you are looking for something, you really should. things are so cheap and all the stuff i read had great reviews from people who bought that stuff. when i get what i ordered from there, i'll try to remember to post what i think of it and if it is worth the money. and it has a real cheap flat rate for shipping of $2.95. well, there... there was my plug for overstock.com...la----laaaaaa
so, today is the monday after the holidays. almost everyone looks so drained. i think the sucky part is that it's monday and it's the first monday without looking forward to anything at the end of the week. meaning, i know for damn sure that it's not going to be a short week, and the next holiday to look forward to is in another 4 months... 4 MONTHS??? damn, that's rough. i am taking 2 days off from work, though, when we got to shattle. that will be so fun. i've always wanted to go there, but i'm a little worried about the snowboarding. the snowboarding at tahoe was a little too much for me to handle. it was so curvy and much different than our little man-made snow on fairly non-steep hills here in socal. but i will think positively about this trip to washington. if this is the first time you've heard of this little trip and you are interested in going, let toto know. i don't think it is too late and it would be kick ass if more people went. i'm sure it will be hella fun. so far, it is me, andy, toto, j, and andy's little sister, alyssa. even if it is difficult, at least i will get to say i've boarded there. :) that's about a month and a half away, so i should probably be saving up for that trip and not buying stuff off the internet... oops :) well, i have about 5 more minutes before i can go home, so that's enough blogging for me. i can't believe how hot it was today... around 70 degrees. whoever heard of 70 degree weather in january??? that's san diego for you. i think i'm a little indifferent to that these days. yes, i'm referring to the weather.
1.05.2003
grrr....
i'm probably not really as mad as i sound, but i wasn't expecting to get into an argument with andy today. we were out running errands and on the way home we got into a little tiff. uggghhh, i just wanted to scream. anyway, today has been another lazy day. i didn't do much else than crochet, and went to costco and petco. we bought meya food and there was this lady with a teeny tiny boxer. it was a dorable. i usually will ask people if i can pet their puppies, but i didn't feel like it, so i just looked at it and said how cute it was. i'm gonna get back to crocheting. it's only 6pm, i wonder what i will do with the night until it is time to go to sleep? oh, who am i kidding? i'm not gonna do anything.
i'm probably not really as mad as i sound, but i wasn't expecting to get into an argument with andy today. we were out running errands and on the way home we got into a little tiff. uggghhh, i just wanted to scream. anyway, today has been another lazy day. i didn't do much else than crochet, and went to costco and petco. we bought meya food and there was this lady with a teeny tiny boxer. it was a dorable. i usually will ask people if i can pet their puppies, but i didn't feel like it, so i just looked at it and said how cute it was. i'm gonna get back to crocheting. it's only 6pm, i wonder what i will do with the night until it is time to go to sleep? oh, who am i kidding? i'm not gonna do anything.
1.04.2003
an email i got today:
The Donkey in the Well
One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally the farmer decided the animal was old, and didn't think that it was worth the effort to retrieve, and that the well needed to be covered up anyway. So, he invited all his neighbors to come over to help, and everyone grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement, he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer looked down the well and was astonished at what he saw. As every shovel of dirt hit his back, the donkey would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, the donkey would again shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed, as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off!
The Moral:
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, and never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up!
Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred
2. Free your mind from worries
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
O.K., that's enough of that B.S. ...
The donkey later came back, caught the farmer out in the field, and kicked the shit out of him!
The REAL Moral:
When you try to cover your ass, it always comes back to get you!
The Donkey in the Well
One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally the farmer decided the animal was old, and didn't think that it was worth the effort to retrieve, and that the well needed to be covered up anyway. So, he invited all his neighbors to come over to help, and everyone grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement, he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer looked down the well and was astonished at what he saw. As every shovel of dirt hit his back, the donkey would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, the donkey would again shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed, as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off!
The Moral:
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, and never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up!
Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred
2. Free your mind from worries
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
O.K., that's enough of that B.S. ...
The donkey later came back, caught the farmer out in the field, and kicked the shit out of him!
The REAL Moral:
When you try to cover your ass, it always comes back to get you!
dancin with zhaboubou
damn, crissy, that was too funny. well, clubbin was pretty fun last night. downtown was very empty, but we managed to have fun anyway. we went to two different clubs and didn't have to waste our money on cover, so that was pretty cool. some of us, actually one of us in particular, managed to get pretty wasted and that ended up being entertainment for the rest of us. that and the inhaler kept us laughing all night. i wish we could have gone into below market, but they were charging 10 bone to get into that bad boy and those of us with limited funds had already spent most of our money on drinks, so we opted not to go in. after clubbing, we ate at denny's. clyde met us there because he closed on-cue. that was actually pretty funny there, too.
so, i just spent an hour working on my little comments thing. i finally got it to show what other people have posted, but their smilies page is down, so i had to put all the smilies on the page. and you can't click on them, you have to type out the smiley you want. oh well, it will probably stay like that for a while so i think i'm done working on it. anyway, andy is going to get off work soon to come home and work on his stangger (which btw, i don't think i mentioned that gift andy's uncle gave him is a 1978 king cobra mustang) and i think i'll go to costco today to get my film developed and buy orange juice. i also need conditioner.... yeah, who would wear a turtleneck when they go clubbing??? oh, you HATE me!!! lol
damn, crissy, that was too funny. well, clubbin was pretty fun last night. downtown was very empty, but we managed to have fun anyway. we went to two different clubs and didn't have to waste our money on cover, so that was pretty cool. some of us, actually one of us in particular, managed to get pretty wasted and that ended up being entertainment for the rest of us. that and the inhaler kept us laughing all night. i wish we could have gone into below market, but they were charging 10 bone to get into that bad boy and those of us with limited funds had already spent most of our money on drinks, so we opted not to go in. after clubbing, we ate at denny's. clyde met us there because he closed on-cue. that was actually pretty funny there, too.
so, i just spent an hour working on my little comments thing. i finally got it to show what other people have posted, but their smilies page is down, so i had to put all the smilies on the page. and you can't click on them, you have to type out the smiley you want. oh well, it will probably stay like that for a while so i think i'm done working on it. anyway, andy is going to get off work soon to come home and work on his stangger (which btw, i don't think i mentioned that gift andy's uncle gave him is a 1978 king cobra mustang) and i think i'll go to costco today to get my film developed and buy orange juice. i also need conditioner.... yeah, who would wear a turtleneck when they go clubbing??? oh, you HATE me!!! lol
1.03.2003
real quick before we be clubbin'
i've been working for the past few hours on that stupid comment link. it's almost done, but i can't figure out how to make it so that you can see what other people have posted. ughh... i don't know. anyway, it has been a nice short day. and it is friday which is even better. it's nice when you go to work and it FEELS like a monday, but it is really a friday. anyway, i'll post again later, i have to get ready. Yaeeyaae!!!!!! WE BE CLUBBIN....
i've been working for the past few hours on that stupid comment link. it's almost done, but i can't figure out how to make it so that you can see what other people have posted. ughh... i don't know. anyway, it has been a nice short day. and it is friday which is even better. it's nice when you go to work and it FEELS like a monday, but it is really a friday. anyway, i'll post again later, i have to get ready. Yaeeyaae!!!!!! WE BE CLUBBIN....
1.02.2003
TWO THOUSAND AND THRizEE
i tried blogging earlier today on that computer that we have in the living room and when i went to post, it logged me out and i lost the whole damn thing. I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS. j was sitting on the couch watching me and laughed when it happened. i decided to not retype it and do it later. so here we are 1 day and 50 minutes into 2003. so far it has been alright. i slept alot of the day and got up to do some cleaning and eat and then i went back to sleep and then we went to watch "lord of the rings." yes, AGAIN. neneng and ronald were going with a bunch of people and asked us if we wanted to go. i didn't really want to and i thought andy wouldn't want to, either cause he was still drunk so i told him to decide... and wouldn't you know it, he wanted to go. that movie was just as good the 2nd time.
new year's was pretty fun. there was only a handful of people here but it was a good time. we ate and hung out until midnight and after it turned midnight time seemed to fly. we tried to play thumbmaster and that was fun but we stopped in the middle. and before i knew it, it was 4am. it was crazy. i went to bed a little after 5am, and as the rumor goes, andy went to sleep at 6:30am and didn't stop drinking until then, either. when he finally woke up at 3:30pm, he was still drunk. poor guy. everyone is now pretty addicted to "bop it." i thought fights were gonna break out with everyone wanting to wrestle so they could have their turn. neneng even bought her own. ummm... i really doubt a tiny little condo needs two bop-its, but if she wants to play without having to share it with anyone else, she did what she had to do. i have to work tomorrow, but at least i wasn't hungover today trying to recover.... 2 days of work and it will be the weekend. yippeee!! well, have a good 364 days everyone and may they be wonderful and blessed. 2002 was good, but just maybe this year will bring everything fantastic and greater than any of us could ever imagine. don't ask why i think that's gonna happen, but i just have a good feeling that this year will be a good one.... we can all only hope. btw, thanks to all of those who joined us in ringing in the new year. you all made it fun and i was glad to be with all of you, even if maybe one of you is a narc..... lol :)
i tried blogging earlier today on that computer that we have in the living room and when i went to post, it logged me out and i lost the whole damn thing. I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS. j was sitting on the couch watching me and laughed when it happened. i decided to not retype it and do it later. so here we are 1 day and 50 minutes into 2003. so far it has been alright. i slept alot of the day and got up to do some cleaning and eat and then i went back to sleep and then we went to watch "lord of the rings." yes, AGAIN. neneng and ronald were going with a bunch of people and asked us if we wanted to go. i didn't really want to and i thought andy wouldn't want to, either cause he was still drunk so i told him to decide... and wouldn't you know it, he wanted to go. that movie was just as good the 2nd time.
new year's was pretty fun. there was only a handful of people here but it was a good time. we ate and hung out until midnight and after it turned midnight time seemed to fly. we tried to play thumbmaster and that was fun but we stopped in the middle. and before i knew it, it was 4am. it was crazy. i went to bed a little after 5am, and as the rumor goes, andy went to sleep at 6:30am and didn't stop drinking until then, either. when he finally woke up at 3:30pm, he was still drunk. poor guy. everyone is now pretty addicted to "bop it." i thought fights were gonna break out with everyone wanting to wrestle so they could have their turn. neneng even bought her own. ummm... i really doubt a tiny little condo needs two bop-its, but if she wants to play without having to share it with anyone else, she did what she had to do. i have to work tomorrow, but at least i wasn't hungover today trying to recover.... 2 days of work and it will be the weekend. yippeee!! well, have a good 364 days everyone and may they be wonderful and blessed. 2002 was good, but just maybe this year will bring everything fantastic and greater than any of us could ever imagine. don't ask why i think that's gonna happen, but i just have a good feeling that this year will be a good one.... we can all only hope. btw, thanks to all of those who joined us in ringing in the new year. you all made it fun and i was glad to be with all of you, even if maybe one of you is a narc..... lol :)
