live well. laugh often. LOVE much.

i had someone give me some extremely fascinating, and probably dead-on insight into who i am. i'm glad this person felt okay enough to bring this to my attention because it is not something i've ever really thought about. it's funny, i like to think i know who i am and that i've got a good amount of things figured out, but life really is a learning process.

i have a tough outer shell (this is not the revelation). i know this. i know i'm like this because it protects me. i know i only let a very small few into my life. sometimes i wonder how much moving when i was a kid has affected me. i don't even feel like i moved so much - not as much as other military kids. but i did have friends leave all the time and i think maybe that might have a lot to do with it. all these little things and details and moments culminate to make us who we are. sometimes i forget these things. sometimes i forget negative things that happened when i was younger and try to believe those things haven't changed or affected my psyche. but they did have something to do with who i am. there are things from my childhood that i know i don't talk about. that i don't share. it was an interesting therapy session today.

i miss my dad... and this still affects me even though i don't consciously think it does. i thought i was okay. and for the most part, i am. but the finality of death is so much more complex than the grieving process that i thought i had to get over 7 years ago. his absence is so salient. it such a part of our (mine, neneng's, toto's, and my mom's - even Andy and Ronald's) lives that i forget how much it is a part of my every day. i don't want people's pity. so i don't often talk about it. i am an adult who does not forget all the other wonderful things left in my life. but that doesn't fill the void. nothing will. i miss him and i don't think i ever thought about how much the anger overwhelms me. the day he died is still so burned in my memory that it might as well have been yesterday. i guess i always thought as the years went by that gave me less permission to grieve, to be sad. and i don't want to be that person that people whisper "geez, she still hasn't gotten over it??" i don't think i took care of myself properly the first time around. i'm happy now. and i'm happy with my life. but this doesn't make my dad being gone any less difficult. a little soul-searching might be in order. i think of my dad everyday. i wait for the next big event that i will think "this is another thing he's missing." i wait for the 3 of us to have children (including julena) where i will think, "they missed out on a great grandfather." i really try to step outside myself and believe that other people have gone thru this, this is not new. this is a part of life. but maybe that isn't and clearly wasn't enough. i just needed to take note of this. i acutally wasn't expecting to write all of what i was feeling.

but this was my revelation.

i hate tuesdays. tuesdays are day o'meetings day. it blows. it's really hard to get work done when every 2 hours it's interrupted by another fucking meeting.

i love my good pal glenn. he's just as fucking funny as me. bye, i've got conference call #1 for the day in 12 minutes.

don't ask what the title is about. mike brook (our old project coordinator) was in the office today and that came up. again, don't ask. anyway, i had a rough day so i did this.

{{{{{{{{{{{i miss having a passion.}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

(0.5) Time: 8:46pm
(1) Your gender: on a good day i'm a lady
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight
(3) Single?: nope
(4) Want to be?: nope... the tax break alone is worth it
(5) Your birth day: june 13, 1978
(6) Age you act: 50
(7) Age you wish you were: 19
(8) Your height: 4' 11"
(9) The color of your eyes: dark brown
(10) Happy with it?: i've always liked light eyes with dark hair, so i guess not
(11) The color of your hair: almost black
(12) Happy with it?: bored actually
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: righty tighty
(14) Your living arrangement?: house with husband and dogs
(27) Your family: large, loud, and nosy
(29) What's your job: federal grant research assistant
(30) Piercings?: 7 on my ears collectively
(31) Tattoos?: total, i think SIX
(32) Obsessions? hair products, stationary, pens
(35) Do you speak another language?: pig latin, and francais un peu
(36) Have a favorite quote: NO YOU DIIIIEN'T
(37) Do you have a web page?: a blog

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: not really, unless it's a really GOOD moment. i'm a worry wort, cut me some slack
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: i can hide how intolerant i am
(41) Do you hate yourself?: no, but i frustrate myself
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: i do, in fact
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: always messing with my cuticles, driving fast
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: the crazy girl and the people that adore her
(46) What's your biggest fear?: drowning
(47) Can you sing?: i can... but not well
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: i'm totally NOT cool
(49) Are you a loner?: no
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? only because i'm freakin hilarious
(52) Are you a daredevil?: no. i've gone skydiving, but for some reason, that's not really a risk to me
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? that i won't accomplish all that i know i can
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: horribly agressive
(55) Have you got a car?: yes
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: to not be so moody
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: i would wash my hands in creativity, swim in beauty and live in love
(59) How do you vent?: talk to my co-workers, work it out in my own head, bring it to andrew when i'm ready
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: not particularly
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: absolutely, i'm a lucky gal
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? everything happens as it should, no matter how much you might hurt
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: my mouth
(65) And least?: my flat fanny
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: not too shabby
(67) Are you confident?: sometimes so much so to my detriment
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like to FUCK: is bobby mercer (aka mark wahlberg) from "four brothers" a ficitional character?
(70) Are you perceived wrongly? no, i really am an asshole

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: the occasional cigar
(72) Do drugs?: alcohol
(73) Read the newspaper?: no, i'm a bad adult
(74) Pray?: as i see necessary
(75) Go to church? i'd like to say i try
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: definitely not
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: meya and fidelis are like sausages
(78) Take walks in the rain?: no
(79) Talk to people that hate you?: can't say i do. unless someone hates me and i don't know about it.
(80) Drive?: yes
(81) Like to drive fast?: it's more out of habit

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: i guess
(83) Been out of the country?: yes
(84) Eaten something that made other people sick?: yes, it's part of being ethnic
(85) Burped?: i have some bad ass burps
(86) Been unfaithful?: nope
(87) Been in love?: absolutely
(88) Done drugs?: can't say i have
(89) Gone skinny dipping?: nope, mostly because i've never had the opportunity, but i would
(90) Had a surgery?: minor
(91) Ran away from home?: too chicken shit
(92) Played strip poker: again, never had the opportunity
(93) Gotten beaten up?: nope
(94) Been picked on?: yeah
(95) Been on stage?: many a talent show
(96) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: no
(97) Slept outdoors?: yes
(98) Pulled an all-nighter?: yes
(99) Talked on the phone all night?: yes
(100) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yes
(101) Slept all day?: with a few awake moments to eat
(102) Killed someone?: nope
(103) Made out with a stranger?: nope
(104) Had sex with a stranger?: nope
(105) Kissed the same sex?: nope
(106) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: nope
(107) Been betrayed? yes
(108) Had a dream that came true?: yes
(109) Broken the law? gosh, i would have to say every time i get in my car. remember how i like to drive fast?
(110) Met a famous person?: oh keanu, i know you still long to see me again
(111) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: nope
(112) Stolen anything?: yes
(113) Been on radio/TV.?: yes
(114) Been in a mosh-pit?: yes! some scary ass shit
(115) Had a nervous breakdown?: mini breakdowns, i think
(116) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: i'm sorry, what was that again?
(117) Bungee jumped?:nope, i'd like to
(118) Had a dream that kept coming back?: no re-ocurring dreams for me

CLOTHES and other fashion
(119) Shoe brand?: aldo
(120) Brand of clothing?: express
(121) Cologne/perfume?: "falling in love" by philosophy
(122) What are you normally wearing to school/work? depends on if i'm testing
(123) Wear hats?: beanies when i snowboard
(124) Wear make-up?: not daily
(125) Favorite place to shop?: the mall unfortunately
(126) Favorite article of clothing?: pajama pants
(127) Are you trendy?: nope
(128) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: if colleges started wearing uniforms, that would be a trip

BELIEFS
(129) Believe in life on other planets? definitely
(130) Miracles?: definitely
(131) Astrology?: sometimes
(132) Magic?: nope
(133) God?: absolutely
(134) Satan?: yes
(135) Santa?: nope
(136) Ghosts?:definitely
(137) Luck?: yes
(138) Love at first sight?: nope
(139) Witches?: i think so
(140) Easter bunny?: nope
(141) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: i hope so, otherwise there was no reason to get married
(142) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: i can never find the end of the rainbow
(143) Do you wish on stars?: i used to

LOVE, and all that
(144) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no
(145) Do you remember your first love?: i do
(145) Still love him/her?: i do, with all my heart
(146) Do you consider love a mistake?: never
(147) What do you find romantic?: doing everything in your power to make that person smile
(148) Do you base your judgment on looks alone?: only as a necessity
(149) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: pity. just kidding!
(150) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going on a blind date?: blind dates are way too risky
151) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: i think it is socially acceptable. welcome to my bubble.
(152) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: probably
(153) What is best about the opposite sex?: girls are too much drama
(154) Are you in love?: truly
(155) Do you consider your significant other hot?: hotttttt, with extra T's

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(156) You wanted to kill?: no comment, but there is someone
(157) That you laughed at?: jenny
(158) That laughed at you?: robin and jenny
(159) You went shopping with?: andrew
(200) That broke your heart? aldryn, thankfully that was AGES AND AGES ago
(201) To disappoint you?: myself
(202) To brighten up your day?: andrew
(203) That you thought about?: my bosses
(204) You saw a movie with? andrew
(205) You talked to on the phone?: my sister
(206) You talked to through IM?: my sister
(207) You saw?: andrew
(208) You told off?: my bosses... but not to their faces

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(209) Smiled?: earlier today
(210) Laughed?: earlier today
(211) Cried?: tonight
(212) Bought something?: this afternoon
(213) Were sarcastic?: every moment of my life
(214) Hugged someone?: mike brook this afternoon
(215) Talked to an ex?: i don't have many exes
(216) Watched your fav movie?: big daddy was on this weekend...one of my favs
(217) Had a nightmare?: can't remember
(218) Talked on the phone?: this evening
(219) Listened to the radio?: in my car on my way home from work
(220) Watched TV?: tonight
(221) Went out?: saturday
(222) Helped someone?: today
(223) Were mean?: probably today
(224) Sang?: right now
(225) Saw a movie in a theater?: a few days ago
(226) Said "I love you"?: an hour ago
(227) Missed someone?: daily
(228) Fought with a family member?: not really fought, but last wednesday
(229) Fought with a friend?: i don't have time for that
(230) Had a serious conversation?: tonight
(231) Got drunk?: my mom and dad's anniversary, it's hilarious being drunk around my mom
(232) Got high?: oh, since mcfoodle
(233) Faked an Orgasm?: again, since mcfoodle. (notice: mcfoodle means never)
(234) Ate fast food?:friday

Favorites
(235) Restaurant?:cheesecake factory
(236) Food?: ribeye steak
(237) Music?: old skizoole
(238) TV show?: sex & the city... sigh
(239) Radio Station?: 93.3
(240) Web site?: blogger
(241) Color?: lavender
(242) Movie?: sound of music
(243) Toppings on Pizza?: pepperoni, mushrooms, red onion, sausage
(244) Subject in school?: psych of women
(245) Song?: right now, better together by jack johnson
(246) Singer or Band?: i don't think i have an all-time fave
(248) Magazine to read?: time
(249) Position to sleep?: on my tummy
(250) Person to hang out with?: andrew, my sister, my coworkers
(251) Time: 9:31pm - that shit took a long time :)

sometimes it's really funny how much we love our dogs. and maybe just a little sick. LOL. but i don't really care. it is what it is.

this has been such a horribly long week. i'm so tired... like "out of it" kind of tired. and i'm only partially functioning. at least tomorrow should be an easier kind of day. and because my co-worker turned the big 3-0 today we're going to turf supper club for dinner. i totally DIG that place.

also, i had convinced myself for a very short time today that this weekend was the 3-day weekend. as you can tell, i figured out that i was being delusional, and i am not so lucky.

amen that tomorrow is friday and andy doesn't have to work this weekend. i think that will only last another short while. oh well.

it was one of those mornings where i was trying to figure out to whom i could sell my soul to so that i wouldn't have to get out of bed to come to work. i have more of those mornings than i'd like to admit, but i think that has more to do with the fact that i've been at my current job longer than i've ever been at any job.

i had things to say, but let's just leave it at the fact that i got here at 9am, and i need to stop blogging so i can leave to get a pedicure... and it's not even 4:30pm. ooooooops!

i'm obsessed with shredding things. i didn't used to be, but andy is pretty hyper about identity theft, so we've had a shredder for about 5 years now, and our 2nd one finally conked out. i decided i wanted a pretty hefty one and we bought an unnecessarily expensive (but so worth it!) one at costco the other night. i've been shredding like a maniac lately, but i do get this weird sense of comfort from it.

anyway, andy and i are finally going through all of our boxes and old stuff from decades ago. andy has these HUGE boxes of G.I.Joe's. Yes, the man still has boxes of toys. i was telling him he needed to get rid of this stuff and he looked at me like i was a psychopath. long story short, i got my title from "uptown girls" and i told andy that this is what he needed to do. as you can imagine, he doesn't really have a big interest in "finding his center."

it has been so fun going through all of my old boxes. i've found really old pictures of people; people i love, people who i now don't talk to, people whose names i can't even remember. i've thrown a lot of it away, but i've also kept a lot of things that i think will be neat to show my children one day. i found my senior will from the last UC High newspaper of my senior year and i laughed and laughed at some of the things i left people. i mostly laughed because so much of it was inside jokes, and i had to remember what they meant. good times, good times. it's so touching to be this young and have such fond memories of the life i've lived so far. and i must say, a large part of it was fun to share with andy because a lot of our old - like really old, memories include each other. anyway sometimes, there is a benefit in being such a pack rat.

i'm going to start my day now... there's lots to do.

i'm so anal. i hate it when my computer desktop has a shitload of icons. AND i can't stand it when there is stuff in my recycle bin on my desktop, so i'm continually emptying my recycle bin.

sometimes i think... "good lord, i'm a mess."

and other times, i totally crack myself up.

i'm drinking a red bull. i had a mountain dew about half an hour ago for lunch, AND i had a grande caramel macchiato this morning. i don't know how much more caffeine i can consume. it could potentially be humanly impossible. actually, no, i probably could handle just smidge more intake of caffeine. i'm really very tired. i think it's psychosomatic, actually i'm almost positive it is. but i'm not really sure how to get past it. i think i told chakee and trizza this before, but people in the psychology field (at least all the ones i've talked to) believe that we enter this field to try to fix ourselves - screw everyone else. but clearly, it's a losing battle.

ronthon is now jeronathon's new name.

my dell dj has been weird lately. like it stops playing songs with 30 seconds left to go. it doesn't shut off or skip, it just stops. it's really beyond me why i haven't called customer support to try to fix the problem, but i'm just lame like that.

my office at home now is becoming better and better. i can use the desk, and i've cleared out enough of the boxes that it's not a nightmare. we've moved the dog's crates downstairs so those aren't crowding our spaces.

the other night, i made andy call the cops on this one rowdy house that's near ours. i like that we live in this "family inhabited" area so it doesn't get very loud. but i'm almost positive that this one house is being rented by a group of guys who skate around our neighborhood and who put their ramps in the street. anyway, they were being all loud and psychotic on monday and i made andy call the police. yes, i'm old like that.

what a weird outing we had yesterday. velcro, dingleberries, anal sex, pre-ordering tacos, kristin kreuk, not needing to be in a relationship to have sex, strawberry margaritas. but anyway...

it always boggles my mind how easily distracted i am. i was typing up something, then my project manager asked me to do something, so i stopped what i was typing and started searching on the internet and then in the middle of that, i decided to search for something else i had just thought of. it all gets done, but i just can't seem to stop myself.

oh yeah, julena is now calling me "nee" for ninang. it's funny, she just yells out "NEE!" and she and i both know she's talking to me. the next time you see her, you should ask her to say "awwww, man" cause it's precious.

crissy, i can't believe you were brave enough to cut your hair so short. i still haven't mustered up the courage to do it. neneng did it right after her wedding, too. my long hair is getting old, but i know i'm just going to regret it.

ucsd is having a vendor fair and we're going to see if we can get free stuff.... mooochers.

mr. andrew has a new shift. i swear, in the last 6 months, i think his shift has changed at least 3 times. but this is the best one yet. he is interim supervisor right now because a supervisor is interim manager until they "officially" fill the position. he should be doing this for about a month and a half (but indefinitely assuming he "officially" gets the job), and he has a monday-friday, 7am-4pm shift. when andy was working at 10am, it was really hard for me to get out of bed to get to work at a decent hour. because i can come in essentially when i want, i would come in late, and inevitably have to stay late. anyway, so now that he gets up early, i get up, too, and here i am at 8:20am.

i have finally perfected my iced tea. chakee was suckin it up when she came to my house. and yesterday andy gave me props on it and said (shhh... this is a secret) that it's even BETTER than his mom's iced tea. he made me swear not to tell her, and i'm no fool... i would never tell her unless i wanted her to hate me. :)

a lot of people wished us a happy anniversary yesterday which was cute. my mom got us a card and gave us some money. i was tickled. who knew that by getting married, it was going to be like having a second birthday? neat.

lol... i absolutely crack myself up. that's what i told andy to get me for our 1 year anniversary. who even knows what that means. whatever... it made me laugh, at least.

so last night me and andy went to dinner to celebrate. we went to a restaurant toto suggested Mille Fleurs. it was ok... super-ultra french. toto suggested that place so we could do the 7-course chef's tasting menu, but it wasn't available, so we just ordered off the menu. i had caviar for the first time. it was interesting. we had a nice time, even though we were a tiny bit uncomfortable amidst the old, rich white people. i told andy that if he just wanted to hang around broke ass young folks such as ourselves, we'd only eat at Dave & Buster's. not that anything is particularly wrong with D&B's, but we must expand our tastes, shouldn't we? and besides, the presence of young minorities in such a secluded area with them probably made them just as uncomfortable... and that's just a tiny bit reassuring to me. :)

i don't have a lot to say. work has been really busy. the good thing is that it's "busy" but not due to testing. that's busy and exhausting.

i've been having some interesting dreams lately. i think under stress my dreams get more vivid and interesting.

andy and i have been trying to plan what we're gonna do for our 1st anniversary. it's odd that it's already been a year. i was getting suggestions for a restaurant from toto and i think i've found the place. i'm planning dinner and andy is supposed to be planning something we can do. our first year of marriage has been great. extremely minor snafus, but all in all, it has been everything i expected and maybe a little better. no different than before, only better. mostly in the sense of people have stopped asking "when are you getting married?" (although now they all get to ask when we're having babies), we get to share medical insurance, we got a tax break and filed together for our taxes this year, our car insurance is cheaper, and just all kinds of things that get less complicated once you get that marriage certificate. that makes me think how crappy it is that same-sex relationships CAN'T move into that territory to take advantage of the same things. oh, if i could teach the world (to be in thug and harmony). but yes, being married definitely has it's advantages. i don't have any disadvantages, but these past several years (i won't say all NINE years that we were together because it's not true) have felt like we were married, so i haven't had that "i'm not SINGLE anymore" feeling for a long time. ah, my reflections on my marriage....

it is SO time to leave work now.

sometimes it's a sad, sad feeling when you feel lost. like the kind of lost that makes you feel absolutely directionless, loss for words, and unsure of what to do next. it's a good thing this feeling usually passes very quickly for someone like me otherwise, what would i do next?

what do i want out of life? where do i want it to take me? i just told someone tonight you don't "awwwww" anybody because everyone makes their own decisions. and i really believe this. even in regard to myself.

i know people that know what they want to do with their careers and are successful, but don't have the personal comforting relationship i have. everyone's got their thing, i guess.

nevermind me.

what is the world coming to? andy and i watched war of the worlds last night. he had 2 movie passes to AMC theatre so we went down to fashion valley. i've been wanting to see it, but have never really made the attempt before yesterday. it was alright. i've gotten really mixed reviews of it and now i know why. but yeah, 10 whole dollars just to watch a movie? it's highway robbery, i say.

did i tell you i won a night's stay at the pacific terrace hotel here in san diego? seeing as how andy and my 1 year anniversary is coming up, it was quite a fortuitous occurrence. i love staying in hotels.

i have a bunch of things i want to do today, but i don't know if i can muster up the energy. andy is still sleeping. i even made breakfast and that fool didn't get up to eat. i don't know, if i go back in the room and it's pretty cool in there, i may just be forced to lay back down and sleep a smidge longer. i know, i'm a bum, too. eh, who cares, i work my fanny off during the week.

oh, i also forgot to mention, in that last blog, the title had to do with this one time we were playing croquet in andrea's backyard. if you've ever played croquet, you'll get this otherwise it means nothing. i was almost about to win, but i had the option of knocking someone out of the game. so, rather than taking my stroke to win, i used it to knock that person out. see how that makes absolutely no sense? thus, i go to phoenix for gas when it is so completely the illogical thing to do.

it really makes me crazy how often i realize my brain doesn't function the way a normal person's would. i try to explain things to my co-workers and they just look at me and say "i have no idea how to follow what you're saying" and i just make them more confused. i have no idea why it's logical in MY head. it just is. this actually happens to me on a regular basis. i say things to andy and he just looks at me and he tries to repeat it back to me and it's all confused and wrong. but that's because i say it all confused and wrong. are you following me?

the other day, i had to cut some foam board that was 60x40. it needed to be 33 1/2 x 43. i get a measuring tape and start making marks at the designated spots. then i stare at it and can't figure out what i need to do next. it just didn't make sense to me. i couldn't figure out where to make the marks so that i could make the cuts. i looked at neneng and was like "um, i'm confused. i have no idea what i need to do now." and neneng goes "yeah, i don't know why your brain works like that." there's just no logic to it for me. i used to say that i was spatially challenged, but really, i think it's across the board. my brain just works all screwy. but i think i'm fairly bright and intelligent. i wonder why one doesn't have ANYTHING to do with the other.

how strange, for no real random reason i decided to post a picture of me and my niece yesterday. then, i got an email today from my good friend kate saying that her nephew was born yesterday. coincidence? perhaps.

anyway, here they are:
Congratulations, Aunt Kate!

because it's cute... duh!


julena was only 3 weeks old..... :)

i've been thinking about that a lot in the past few days and for everyone that i've shared that revelation with they've all said "and THANK GOD." LOL. it's true... it is a good thing that we grow and become different people than who we were in that weird, unreasonable age.

life can be so complicated and take you to so many challenges and obstacles, and wonderful times and painfully hilarious times, it's really amazing. it's amazing how it all falls together. i don't know, maybe the thought of how busy and intertangled (it's not a real word, i know, but it seems appropriate) my life is currently, is making me batty. sometimes i think "i have so much i want to do with my life... is there time to do it all??" i want to have this bomb ass career, but i also want to be a mother and raise amazing children. where do you start? what do you give up and sacrifice to make which thing happen? please, don't follow the thoughts of this rambling maniac. go 'bout's ya bizness.

btw, i know you've never been in love and you don't know what to say. but take this straight from my heart: you're such a good person... and an even better cousin.

and finally, to the one and only love of MY life:
"Better Together" Jack Johnson

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go?
And how come we're so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together

[Chorus:]MMM its always better when we're together
Look at the stars when we're together
Its always better when we're together
Yeah, its always better when we're together
And all of these moments
Just might find there way into my dreams tonight
But I know that theyll be gone
When the morning light sings
And brings new things

But tomorrow night you see
That theyll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find there way
Into my day to day scene
Ill be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll Sit beneath the mango tree
Its always better when we're together
Somewhere in between together
Its always better when we're together
Yeah, its always better when we're together
MMmmmm MMMmmmm Mmmmmm
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is no time,
And there is no song I could sing
And there is no, combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together.