live well. laugh often. LOVE much.

i don't have too much to say, although i am really glad that it's friday. we have a single twin coming in on saturday, and since we are fragile girls who are in loads of danger, we aren't allowed to test by ourselves without anybody in the building. so, my other co-worker is coming in tomorrow without work to do, but to make sure she is safe. i lucked out and do not have to come in.

i just want to go home and finish the book i've been reading. it's called "a year and a day." my co-worker loaned it to me. typically, i like to buy my own books so i can keep them, but this one is pretty good.

okay, i'm leaving work now. this carpooling thing with andy definitely has it's benefits. outside of just filling up andy's truck tank for the first time in 3 weeks, but i also get to work early... which means, i also get to leave at 4pm. goody.

this is me and my co-workers' new game. it's big fun. but anyway...

i'm sort of at this crossroads... and unfortunately not of the "i'm britney spears and i'm pretending the be a super smart, shy, naive girl in a small town trying to make it to the big city" kind. in a nutshell, what to do with my career is plaguing me. how does it happen that you are all of a sudden 27? i think that now that i've hit my "late" 20's it has really made an impact. it kind of creeps up on you, surprisingly so.

i can't believe how early i sleep. staying up past 10pm is a struggle. what's that all about?

andrewski is sick. it's amazing i am not sick, also. who knows... i could be on my way to getting sick this very moment.

as much as i TRIED to keep this weekend lo-pro, it didn't work out completely. i was trying to make cupcakes for the pool party/potluck that we went to on saturday. after i blogged, i did in fact go back to bed, but when i finally got up to try to make the cupcakes, i realized that not only did i not have frosting (which i knew, and was going to go buy while my cupcakes cooled), but i didn't have the cupcake paper things, AND i only had a rack of 6 cupcake molds to boot. i figured i could make boobie cupcakes, but it didn't seem appropriate. i ended up buying the cupcakes from vons... not too special, but i really didn't lose any sleep over it.

this weekend andy and i FINALLY (yes, it has been a work in progress for a year) finished our fireplace. it's pretty snazzy if i do say so myself. i think we did a really good job on it.

we visited j yesterday at on-cue and had some of their fine eats. lol... bob suggested we go down the street to the place that has really good philly cheesesteaks and shoestring fries. he said "they got good food, it's cheap, and hot girls." golly, who wouldn't want to go there? thanks for your hospitality j.

i'm testing today and amen that these guys are quick. did i mention that my bosses are out of the country for the next 2 weeks? i can't wait to bail out when i'm done testing... and we should be done early. yay!

oh right, because i needed to feed my two massive animals. i have quite a few things to do this morning: rearrange my kitchen, give my dogs baths, vaccuum, clean my floor, make cupcakes, etc... but i really don't wanna. i want to crawl back in bed. the memories of last weekend (the mania of it all) reminds me that i deserve to lounge and be a vegetable. but no, i really and truly can't do that.

i wish the tv in my office had a digital box... andy is being such a poopy about that.

i went to LIPS on thursday with my co-workers. the 3 of us are actually really good friends, but i'm not sure why i distinguish them that way. anyway, the show was pretty good. the weekend shows are DEFINITELY better, but it was entertaining nonetheless. we love those gosh darn drag queens.

okay, so now i'm either going to get back into bed or go downstairs and make french toast. 2 completely different options, but only god can tell what i'm really gonna do.

have a good saturday.

it's back to the old grind tomorrow. my two days off are OVA. i slept most of it away, but that's what i needed to do. i even got to watch my favorite movie in the whole wide world today. yesterday was my mom's birthday and for some reason "the sound of music" came up, and i decided to watch my DVD today. i can really only watch that movie by myself because andy would never sit down and watch it with me.

this weather is weird, huh? it was supposed to be rainy in chicago and luckily it wasn't. and last night's thunder/lighting storm was nuts. it woke up all of us and we think fidelis was scared. that big monster cracks us up.

hm, i think you're becoming a different person, and that's a really weird feeling. it makes me a little sad.

i'm home now. i feel like the last 36 hours have been a whirlwind of being in and out of airports, dragging luggage here, there, and everywhere, and i'm spent.

the people in bloomington and chicago are pretty unpleasant. i encountered way more mean, disgruntled, and overall junky people than i have ever in one isolated locale. i'm glad to be home.

i get the next 2 days off so i must sleep the last 3 days out of my memory.

i, too, am now disgruntled and irate so i need to wash that out of my hair, too.

highlight: sir, can you come back and unlock these doors in 45 minutes? "uhhhhh..... i don't even know what i'll be doing or where i'll be in 45 minutes... i could be dead."

um, ok.

i'm doneski.

i really do hate to fly. and i hate to travel without andy. but alas, i'm leaving at 4:30am tomorrow to fly to bloomington, illinois, then on saturday night we fly to o'hare airport in chicago. then on sunday, we fly back home.

it's awesome to have a job that pays for you to travel, but at the same time it causes such internal upheaval for me.

i'm clearly a conflicted woman.

see you in a few days.

....i think these ones are the funnest and it's just one of those days.

47. with my co-workers, we can laugh until we cry.
46. i love, love, love "Golden Girls" and will almost always choose it over watching something else.
45. i once farted in front of andy's mom when i was laughing really hard.
44. i am unable to hold a pencil behind my ear.
43. when i see the time is 6:13, AM or PM, i always think of my birthday.
42. i probably only say 80% of the mean things i think. rough, i know.
41. i LOVE adam sandler, and would probably have his babies if the offer was presented.
40. i get really frustrated when i can't figure out HTML even when i know i have no expertise to get frustrated.
39. i realize i'm extremely verbose.
38. i crack my neck and back on a regular basis and it really is a wicked noise.
37. 3:24pm will always mean something to me.
36. i realize that i sleep waaaay too much.
35. after being on salary so long, i don't think i'll ever be able to have a job where i have to be there at a specific time every day.
34. i once had to put my underwear in my robe pocket at a day spa because i didn't realize i needed to be completely in the buff.
33. all of my clocks are ahead, be it 5 minutes, or 13 minutes.
32. andy was the first boy i ever kissed.
31. i still remember the time that me and two other people (who will remain nameless) blew up condoms into balloons. LOL
30. i've been published. i love that.
29. i found my journal from high school, and i didn't realize i kept it up for 5 years.
28. i hate cookie dough - i don't see why everyone loves it.
27. i'll bake a cake for myself just cause i'm craving it.
26. there is really a reason as to why i'm obsessed with my name.
25. i've never really figured out how to stop myself from crying.
24. i LOVE pedicures... manicures? not so much.
23. sometimes it boggles my mind that i'm 27. i'm not sure why.
22. it takes every bone in my body to not cry when someone else is crying.
21. i happen to be related to a few of the best people in this world.
20. someday i will ask my mom all the things i never understood from my childhood, good and bad.
19. i know i'm not a very good catholic.
18. sometimes, when i make eggs and bacon for dinner for me and andy, i often think how lucky i am that he'll eat breakfast food with me at all hours of the day.
17. the sound of tires screeching sends me into a tailspin.
16. i LOVE makeup, but i don't wear makeup every day because i hate washing my face every night.
15. one of me and andy's best talks happened on the drive to arizona right after he got out of boot camp.
14. i'm horribly selective about my friends. this has everything to do with the fact that i genuinely believe my time and love is precious.
13. i'm not as much of a feminist as i envisioned myself to be. amazing, right?
12. i have never figured out how to keep an emergency stash of my money like my mom.
11. money really does make the world go round. but relationships and love keep you sane.
10. i have serious PTSD when it comes to getting calls to go to the emergency room.
9. when people said that it would get easier not having my dad around, i resented it and thought it was impossible. but it was eventually true, albeit never completely the same.
8. although my mom makes all of her children completely crazy, i still believe she is amazing after all she has been through as a child and as an adult.
7. i HATE flying.
6. i still suck at math i need to do in my head.
5. i hate the fact that i still don't know how to drive stick shift.
4. i think my dad is proud of me for having my beemer.
3. i care what kind of stamp i put on my mail.
2. i realize i'm so lazy.
1. i'm aware that i talk too fast.

i'm reading this new book and it's awesome. it's called cracked and it's written by Dr. Drew Pinsky. yes, the same Dr. Drew that hosts Loveline. did you know that he's an addiction medicine specialist.... hmmmm.... just as i was typing that, i realized that's how adam corrola used to introduce him on the MTV loveline. wow, never caught that before. anyway, it's fascinating. like it's making me want to go into addiction medicine... but um, yeah... the thought of going to med school at 28 (yes, my age next year) is mortifying. i'm gonna have to keep looking for my alternate dream career. and as much as my dad would have loved it, i've NEVER wanted to go into medicine.

i'm pretty pooped. i'm gonna finish my book and go to bed.

has it really been 4 years since september 11th? wow, really? times just continues to march on....

my right eye has been bothering me for the past 2 days. like there is something in it, but i don't see anything in my eye. i'm beginning to think there's like a cut or something on my actual eyeball. having something be wrong with your eye is really unpleasant.

keeping up friendships and relationships is really hard work. i'm mainly talking about my friends (none of whom live here, outside of my co-workers and old co-workers) and how hard it is to connect with them just for a good old fashioned "whaddup!?" i miss kate. but with the east coast/west coast time deal, it's hard to call just to chat.

anyway, i'm so ready to eat dinner.....

so andy and i didn't have really big plans for this evening. i was actually pretty ready to keep it low key. i picked up andy from work (this carpooling deal is working out pretty well) we went to costco, i got gas there, picked up the contacts that i ordered and we had dinner there. we headed home and just started hanging out and watching TV. ian was thinking about coming over to have andy help him work on his computer, but then called and said he thought tomorrow might be better. so i ended up falling asleep on the couch downstairs at.... 8PM. i know, loserville, right? so i just woke up 20 minutes ago, and i've got a 2nd wind. i was trying to tell andy that we should go party, but let's be real..... first of all, it's not as if we actually know where the party is, and second, we're probably gonna go to bed in like an hour. haha, being old is funny. i'm yawning as i'm typing this.

i really miss the carefree days of sleeping late, getting a few hours of sleep, functioning perfectly fine, and how much super fun clubbing used to be. not that clubbing isn't still fun, but it now brings this added effort that didn't used to exist before. {{{{{{sigh}}}}}}} just put me in my depends diapers and give me my golden girls on lifetime television.

i had a really challenging subject today. days like this make my job unbearable to an extent. he was pretty arrogant and totally thought he knew how to run the testing day when in reality, he needs to follow my direction. the worst part really is that he and his twin own an organic foods company and they were both pumped full of hollistic and herbal vitamins. there are certain vitamins that actually interact and make different smells come out of your body. if i remember correctly, i think too much B12 does this to you. like it makes your urine smell funny. BUT ANYWAY, these guys had this horrible WEIRD smell permeating from their pores and bodies. it was wretched. at first i thought it was urine. so, you can imagine how bad it smelled ALL day. literally, the chunks seemed to rise to my throat a few times. whew, at least i'm not testing tomorrow. but i am testing on monday. at least i think i've washed the smell from my nose memory.

andy and i got into a little tiff tonight about his smoking. seriously, it's such a foul, financially draining, gross thing. i'd give almost anything for him to not smoke. i just may have to make a deal with satan.

Happy 19th Birthday, Chakee!!!

like a wicked ass nerd, i sat here trying to figure out how i could change my template to something other than the ones they provide on blogger. it worked. then i spent forever trying to change fonts and colors. more nerd. i even saved the old templates as a "just in caser." mas nerd.

now i'm sleepy.

ps- i couldn't add the comments to the bottom of posts, so i added a chatter box. gimme some shugga.

i was working on my template and now i'm tired. i don't like it, but i could be working on this until sunrise. i have to get up early because andrew and i are going to give carpooling a try. shit, now that gas is an arm and a pint of blood, we might as well try to save money somewhere. i guess there could be some benefit to the environment, but i'd be lying if i said that's why we were doing it.

man, it feels like i haven't had a holiday off from work in such a long time, but really it was just a couple of months ago... 4th of july.

anyway, i finally bought the weezer "make believe" CD. i'm so excited because i just downloaded it to my dell dj. i'm totally getting back into buying CDs again... it's really strange. sometimes i forget how much i love music. and i'm totally not one of those people who claim "i hate that mainstream shit!" because seriously, if it's got a bomb ass beat, i'm usually dancing. anyway, i'm not making any sense.

at least this will be a short week... amen.

did i mention that i'm going to chicago in 2 weeks for business? i still haven't decided how i feel about business travel. it would be funner if andy could go. it's really tortuous to put my co-workers thru my snoring, but at least andy's used to it.

so i think i blogged about that hotel night stay i won like last month, right? well, i was thinking about using it for our annual new year's eve party this year. fun, right? having a party at a hotel room and partying like rock stars? well, my rockstar-ness only goes so far and i can only use the night for sunday-thursday. new years eve falls on a saturday. so, now i'm thinking about throwing andy's birthday party there. homie is turning 29 this year, and as i put it to him "dude, this is the last year before you are THIRTY!" anyway, keep your minds open to this thought.

i'm excited to wear the new shoes that i just bought from aldo to work tomorrow.

sometimes you just feel so disconnected.


....excuse me now while i balance my checkbooks.