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i could not bitch more about this studying if i had more ears to listen to me and more breath to keep talking. i have already taken the provided easy practice set problems yesterday and did better than i thought, but now here i am, ALMOST done with the medium set and i want to jump off a bridge. maybe by doing so well on the easy set, i psyched myself out into believing i could kick ass on this eaxm. what a trick. anyway, i am just sitting here daydreaming about all the other stuff i'd rather be doing. stuff that isn't always the first thing i'd jump at doing unless i were trying to avoid something else. it's funny how the inclination to clean like a madwoman comes over me when i don't want to study (or in the good old college days, write a paper) and now i'd rather be reading a book, crocheting, who even cares what, just not doing this. i even took meya out for a walk yesterday after i got home from work... i'm sure a subconscious effort to not study, again. hmmm... maybe if i had to get a rectal exam, that would push me to study... cause, who the heck wants a rectal exam?... but i'm sure with the option, i would absolutely choose to study. man, that's what it comes down to? a rectal exam or studying for the GRE? i'm a sad, pathetic little girl. well, i'm so poopied by sitting here studying, the most wicked craving for chocolate came over me. and i don't usually crave chocolate... it must be the endorphin release that i'm looking for. i'm such a nerd and (probably another way to procrastinate), but i found this about chocolate. yeah, i'm gonna go back to studying and enjoy the almond snickers i walked my happy ass over to the deli to get.