12.23.2005
perhaps it's anxiety
i've been trying to stay on a pretty regular schedule even though i don't have a job. the last thing i want is to get into the habit of sleeping at 3am and waking up at noon. now that i think about it, no matter what i do, my schedule is going to be thrown off because of the time change in the philippines. so what does it really matter? anyway, there's only 2 more days till christmas. that's astonishing. how did it go so fast? and, how is there only 4 more days till we go to the philippines and i don't have a single item packed? well, that's not that surprising. it's funny, usually i mentally pack all the stuff i will need to bring with me. all i keep thinking about is the medicine cabinet that i will be stuffing into my suitcase to ward off all possible ailments while we are there. i'm scared someone might not feel good (let's be honest here, i'm worried that I won't feel good) and there won't be a remedy at the little side store to make me feel better. thus, i need to bring all of that stuff with me. it's odd. i can't even IMAGINE what it's going to be like there. it's so unfathomable. maybe that's why i can't sleep. who knows.
andy keeps trying to get me to open our presents early. i expect that every night he will suggest "hey, let's open presents!" and i have to look at his sad little face and tell him "no." luckily, i told him that as of today, there's only a couple of days left. i guess that made him feel better.
i'm sad we're leaving the dogs for so long. fidelis' reoccurring rash is back again, and we just took him to the vet. yet another round of antibiotics and anti-inflammatory pills. that dog can't catch a break. he also had to have some blood drawn so that the vet can do an allergy test for him. who ever heard of such nonsense? if he does end up allergic to one of the items on the test, we may have to give him allergy injections. again, who ever heard of such nonsense? oh, and fidelis actually weighs 95.2 pounds now. must i say it again..... yeah, but wow, we certainly weren't expecting him to weigh that much. i think one day, he just may become clifford the big red dog. and actually be bigger than our house.
i think my theraflu could finally be kicking in. ah, to sleep would be wonderful.
andy keeps trying to get me to open our presents early. i expect that every night he will suggest "hey, let's open presents!" and i have to look at his sad little face and tell him "no." luckily, i told him that as of today, there's only a couple of days left. i guess that made him feel better.
i'm sad we're leaving the dogs for so long. fidelis' reoccurring rash is back again, and we just took him to the vet. yet another round of antibiotics and anti-inflammatory pills. that dog can't catch a break. he also had to have some blood drawn so that the vet can do an allergy test for him. who ever heard of such nonsense? if he does end up allergic to one of the items on the test, we may have to give him allergy injections. again, who ever heard of such nonsense? oh, and fidelis actually weighs 95.2 pounds now. must i say it again..... yeah, but wow, we certainly weren't expecting him to weigh that much. i think one day, he just may become clifford the big red dog. and actually be bigger than our house.
i think my theraflu could finally be kicking in. ah, to sleep would be wonderful.
