4.29.2003
insomnia is a pain in my mother-grubbin butt
hi. why am i blogging at 1:30am when i should be sleeping? good question. i haven't the answer except for the fact that i tossed and turned for about an hour trying to go to sleep and to no avail. so, here i am, blogging away. i thought about turning on the tv, but i didn't think that would help. i really need to be sleeping, though, my day is going to start in 6 hours and probably won't stop until well after midnight. things are hustling and bustling this week... and it ain't no joke. and i'm sure that's what the insomnia is about... i have a thousand things on my mind, so i can't let my mind rest and go to sleep. also, i had a handful of bad dreams last night. yes, not just one, but a few, so maybe i'm a little apprehensive about letting myself slip into another dream state. one of my dreams was really scary, but since i like to look up dreams and meaning, and good scientific stuff like that, i know that my dream was what they call an "obstacle" dream. essentially, if you have dreams where you are running somewhere or trying to overcome something, or tackle a problem, it is mirroring your "conscious" life in that you are indeed having a battle somewhere in your life. and basically, what happens in your dream is a good forteller as to whether or not you'll be able to overcome your problem. and lucky enough for me, i actually did what i had to do. seriously, the dream was scary and i'll just say i was being hurt in the dream, but i came out of it okay. probably pretty traumatized had it happened in real life, but still, i came out kickin' and that's good to know. so, i'm gonna have faith that all this stress i'm going thru will be worth it cause things will surely fall into place. hmmmm... who knew you could be so insightful at such a late hour?
i have my baptism tomorrow, actually today. and i have my confirmation on sunday. neng and ronald are going to start moving tomorrow night and we need to start painting so we can have our carpet installed on friday. then, kyle moves in this weekend. it'll be nutty. (btw, andy and meya are sleeping so peacefully and it is making me crazy. get this, they are spooning! i swear, that dog thinks she's a person)
man, this entry is taking a long time for me to type cause now i'm just looking at stuff on the internet that i don't really give a rat's ass about. WHOA! MOTHER BITCH... it's 2:30am??? how did it get to 2:30 when i wasn't paying attention????!!! damn.... it doesn't feel like an hour has passed... lordy, lordy. i really need to sleep. i'm gonna be dead tired tomorrow and i definitely don't want that crud. i'm gonna log off blogger and finish talking to my cousin online. yay for fellow insomniacs!
hi. why am i blogging at 1:30am when i should be sleeping? good question. i haven't the answer except for the fact that i tossed and turned for about an hour trying to go to sleep and to no avail. so, here i am, blogging away. i thought about turning on the tv, but i didn't think that would help. i really need to be sleeping, though, my day is going to start in 6 hours and probably won't stop until well after midnight. things are hustling and bustling this week... and it ain't no joke. and i'm sure that's what the insomnia is about... i have a thousand things on my mind, so i can't let my mind rest and go to sleep. also, i had a handful of bad dreams last night. yes, not just one, but a few, so maybe i'm a little apprehensive about letting myself slip into another dream state. one of my dreams was really scary, but since i like to look up dreams and meaning, and good scientific stuff like that, i know that my dream was what they call an "obstacle" dream. essentially, if you have dreams where you are running somewhere or trying to overcome something, or tackle a problem, it is mirroring your "conscious" life in that you are indeed having a battle somewhere in your life. and basically, what happens in your dream is a good forteller as to whether or not you'll be able to overcome your problem. and lucky enough for me, i actually did what i had to do. seriously, the dream was scary and i'll just say i was being hurt in the dream, but i came out of it okay. probably pretty traumatized had it happened in real life, but still, i came out kickin' and that's good to know. so, i'm gonna have faith that all this stress i'm going thru will be worth it cause things will surely fall into place. hmmmm... who knew you could be so insightful at such a late hour?
i have my baptism tomorrow, actually today. and i have my confirmation on sunday. neng and ronald are going to start moving tomorrow night and we need to start painting so we can have our carpet installed on friday. then, kyle moves in this weekend. it'll be nutty. (btw, andy and meya are sleeping so peacefully and it is making me crazy. get this, they are spooning! i swear, that dog thinks she's a person)
man, this entry is taking a long time for me to type cause now i'm just looking at stuff on the internet that i don't really give a rat's ass about. WHOA! MOTHER BITCH... it's 2:30am??? how did it get to 2:30 when i wasn't paying attention????!!! damn.... it doesn't feel like an hour has passed... lordy, lordy. i really need to sleep. i'm gonna be dead tired tomorrow and i definitely don't want that crud. i'm gonna log off blogger and finish talking to my cousin online. yay for fellow insomniacs!
